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Moving Fleur de Cee Blog Posts ---> Writeful Mind

Moving Fleur de Cee Blog Posts —> Writeful Mind

One thing I’m really good at is believing that I have the capacity to contribute to a gazillion blogs and still have time for everything else I want to do. Writeful Mind has “acquired” the posts of 4 different blogs since its creation and I do believe I have finally learned my lesson ~ no new blogs!

Fleur de Cee started out as a retail business venture, but we couldn’t compete with the other “big…

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Letter: Dear Warrior Woman

Letter: Dear Warrior Woman

Dear Warrior Woman,

First off, allow me to tell you just how stunningly beautiful you are.

How do I know?

Because you’re a survivor. You entrusted your heart to someone who repaid you only by shattering it. Repeatedly. You learned to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and carry on. You take care of your family, despite the daily hardships you face and, for your children’s sake, you put on your…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Verbal Abuse

Word{s} Of the Day: Verbal Abuse

My mother would emerge from the bedroom looking smartly dressed and beautifully made up, anticipating one of her many social gatherings with her friends. I always looked at her in admiration, awestruck by her beauty.

My father would look her up and down and say, “You’re going out in THAT?” or “Good grief, you scared me with your makeup.”

And then…I would watch my mother’s face fall and feel…

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Word Of the Day: Worn I have felt emotionally exhausted for more than a decade. You know that "crash" you experience after an immensely emotional incident or event?

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Word of the Day: Ripples In yesterday's post, I mentioned the effects that "ripples" potentially have on an unknown amount of people over an unknown time period.

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Word{s} Of the Day: Social Media Abuse

In the last several months, I’ve noticed a marked increase in online abuse taking place across my social media feeds. I never attack anyone in comments or on Twitter; if I do comment, I make every effort to be as polite as I can and end exchanges on a positive note, even if others are being hateful or rude. I think, for some people, it doesn’t matter how nice or polite I am; they just enjoy…

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Word Of the Day: Survivor

Word Of the Day: Survivor

“You are a hero because you are changing the world by saying no to domestic abuse.” ~ Domestic Violence Survivor

“I am a survivor.”

When you read that, what were the thoughts that crossed your mind? What feelings did that statement elicit? Did you believe it of yourself? Did you say it with conviction? Did you have doubts?

Doubts are normal, but they’re also the product of being conditioned by…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Reaching Out If you have been following this blog for a while, you'll know that I always encourage our readers to "reach out" to trusted family members, friends or us here at Café Sanctuary.

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Word Of the Day: Sociopath

Word Of the Day: Sociopath

“One of the cruelest things a person can do is to awaken someone’s love without the intention of truly loving them.” ~ Unknown

One of the biggest lies of our relationship was that there was actually a relationship, to begin with. To hear him talk, we had a connection like no other. What I found most endearing was that he was so open about his feelings for me, totally unafraid to declare his…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Self-Worth “I don’t deserve abuse.” When you read that statement, it's important to ask if you genuinely…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Self-Care

Word{s} Of the Day: Self-Care

“If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete.” ~ Jack Kornfield

One of the things I realized while I was experiencing abuse was that I was solely responsible for taking care of myself. As much as I craved the idea of my abuser taking care of me, I knew I couldn’t depend on him or anyone else.

As things between my abuser and me deteriorated, I recognized that I was in a do or…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Special Circumstances

Word{s} Of the Day: Special Circumstances

Today would have been our 20-year anniversary.

In March 2013, my abuser suddenly passed away and I experienced a very complex “grieving” process that has been difficult to unravel. It might have been easier if my kiddos and I hadn’t spent the last 5.5. years dealing with residual pain from the ongoing issues.

I always try to see the positives in every situation and count my blessings, but I admit…

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Word{s} Of the Day: Safety Plan

Word{s} Of the Day: Safety Plan

A good safety plan is your friend and it can mean the difference between life and serious injury or death. It’s difficult to think rationally and logically in the middle of an abusive situation, so it’s worth every minute you spend planning what to do if things get bad.

Do not wait until you’re ready to leave to have a safety plan. Put some time aside to work out the details of your safety plan b…

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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

For my post today, I’m reposting a piece I wrote on Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder in January 2015. 

The only things that I would like to add to what I’ve previously written is that:

I’m no longer in counseling.

I’m now in a relationship with my high school sweetheart and he has helped me immensely when it comes to dealing with panic attacks and PTSD episodes by giving me comfort, understanding,…

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Word Of the Day: Physiological Effects We most often talk about the impact of physical, emotional, and psychological abuse, but what about the physiological effects? 

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Word{s} Of the Day: Physical Abuse

Word{s} Of the Day: Physical Abuse

When I was 17, my father raised his hand to me, intent on slapping me; if my mother hadn’t been there to stop him, he probably would have. I had little respect for my father before that day, but that incident ruined what little respect I had left. That he even considered hitting me made him a coward in my eyes. Anyone who would do that to his wife or children is not a real man. In that tense…

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Word{s} Of the Day: #MeToo

Word{s} Of the Day: #MeToo

There’s a trend right now on Twitter, #MeToo, for anyone who’s experienced sexual harassment or assault to virtually hold their hand up in declaration and raise awareness about this painful epidemic in our world today. How fitting that #MeToo is trending during National Domestic Violence Awareness Month because I want to talk about the aspect of sexual assault that happens in committed…