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Also, many many kmoas are assuming that soobin said he had motion sickness so moas wouldn’t be worried and it makes sense but i’m still in shock honestly, first in November 2023 he got into a big scandal bc of misinformation and people were wanted him to go on hiatus, now in November 2024 he’s actually in hiatus and it feels horrible.. mostly because soobin’s the member that updates the most like he’s always posting Selcas and making lives and talking thru weverse dm�� Everything just feels so quiet now it’s so sad

I feel the same😢 it was so sudden and unexpected. And how sick he is to not participate in any other year-ending shows? I feel kind of scared. Or maybe it isn't some physical sickness, maybe he is taking a mental break?

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No bc me too, It honestly felt so weird and everything was so sudden I never expected this. Atp I wish they cancel the encore or smt bc they ALL need rest, and based on the interview today I’m sure the members just want to go home too

It’s so frustrating that we literally can’t do anything bc that shit company just dgaf, just the fact that they posted the notice almost 24 hours later and we had the update bc of a fucking Japanese event. Seeing moas write him letters and planning to sing all his lines in the concert just breaks my heart. When I saw that they would have a comeback right after the concert I just knew this wouldn’t end well because that’s just inhumane.

Same😭 I wish they cancel at least some events because they need rest, I want them to be okay, in good physical and mental health. A comeback right after their 'act promise' concert is inhumane already. Plus they had to film, record and learn new choreos for the comeback between the breaks of their concert schedule too, cz so many things need time too right? And their comeback was right after, meaning their concert and preparing for comback overlapped. They are always overworked, that shitty company is leeching off then seriously, it might sound rude but it's true.

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I think we should talk about this. I found some weird similaries in the recent txt interview.

In the interview, Kai didn't look well at all. Beomgyu was constantly shifting on his feets, people do it when they are anxious, worried but don't know what to do. I think it's because he was concerned about kai, he kept glancing at him from time to time, was anxiously shifting on his feets, and even pated his back while heading back, which reminded me of when he patted Kai's back before when Kai was sick on their 1st day of Seoul performance. I felt similarities.

Again, I felt another similarity, you know the live they did when beomgyu was sick and Soobin was rubbing his hand and gave guesture the staff that he couldn't continue anymore? You saw how worried Soobin was that time his eyes showed. I saw the same worried look in Beomgyu's eyes while looking at Kai.

And Yeonjun didn't smile like he usually does, he rather looked like he was about to cry.

Taehyun is a person who doesn't show his emotions much in his expressions. He can hide his emotions really well, like how tired he is, if he's sad or angry, we never know cz he hides so well

And Soobin, poor baby is taking a break from so many activities, he is the same person who never misses a schedule. I can't imagine in how much torment he is in to stay away from so many activities (according to the notice in weverse). We don't even know what happened to him. He needs rest, ofc a break is necessary for him, for all of them actually. His message in weverse, when I was reading it, halfway through, I literally felt like he was leaving idol life. The way he expressed things, is the same way people say goodbye. I'm not joking, I honestly felt that and got so scared. But after reading the whole letter, I felt relieved that he wasn't at least leaving. But then I'm concerned because the things he said that he discussed with a lot with members to take the decision seems like he is in depression and is taking break for metal health. He needs rest, and I hope he rests well. And takes care of himself

I just hope they would all be okay.

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not only Soobin but Kai also looked under the weather at that interview, he was sweating and overall looked sick too, Beomgyu was by his side doing everything he could to help him, Yeonjun looked like he wanted to cry, Taehyun seemed tired too, still pushing himself for their leader

they are all exhausted, burnt out, they need proper rest omg, how bad is it that Soobin can't attend even future schedules? Soobin, the one who takes a lot of vitamins and takes care of his body as best as he can, Soobin who never skipped a schedule? and hybe didn't say anything until the very last minute, they've had concerts, encores, promotions, and then more events it's not enjoyable as a job anymore.

let's all wish for them to be able to rest, that Soobin feels better soon and takes all the time he needs for him to be healthy again, and also for the rest of the members, they really need to gain their strength back.

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Reblogging cz it had some issues. Also I changed the title bcz the previous one was apparently not relevant to the storyline.

Finding My Safe Space

(Regressed, Sick Taehyun)

Tw: angst, panic attack, vomit, *headspace/littlespace

*Headspace/ littlespace: it's a stage when a character who didn't have enough love and care in the childhood suddenly falls into a headspace and feels like a kid when he's too stressed or something triggers it.

Soobin and Taehyun were running some errands in the mall. They shopped necessary goods and discussed the upcoming comeback schedule, promoting and stuff. Everything was going well. Until Taehyun saw a little kid asking his mom to buy him a toy as they were exiting a shop. His eyes glittered. It was a train with rail tracks, that activates with batteries. He wanted that too.

Soobin felt a tug on his sleeves. "What is it Taehyun-ah?"

Taehyun didn't say anything, just kept his eyes fixated on that toy. Soobin shook him a bit. "Hey, Taehyun-ah-"

"Appa!" And Soobin mentally facepalmed at that. Not now please. He didn't want any trouble in the mall. But nonetheless he talked with the little in a gentle voice. "Yes, Taehyunie?"

Taehyun looked at him with puppy eyes, "Wan' that toy." Soobin held his hands tightly since Taehyun could escape at any moment. "Not now." Soobin retorted.

"I wan' it pweaseee," Taehyun pleaded.

Soobin crouched down a little to whisper so that only Taehyun could hear. "We're in the mall, be a good boy, we need to go home, okay?"

"I am bein good boy. I just wan the magic train!" the younger whined and tried to free himself from Soobin's grip as he had expected.

Soobin didn't want to be late, because he had a lot of work to do. Send the supplies home then go to the company for a meeting with the manager. He really didn't have time for all this. Moreover he didn't have enough money on him to buy the toy at that moment. As Soobin was immersed in thought, Taehyun freed himself and ran like a little kitty to where the shopkeeper was showing the other kid the train thing. He stood there and watched the battery-activated-train move along the rail traks with glittery eyes.

"We didn't come here to buy toys, Taehyunie. Let's go home, our members are waiting." he felt Soobin grab his hand and pull him towards the exit, but Taehyun won't budge. "Nooo!" He whined and pouted, "Appa only buy Kai plushies and toy. Taehyunie wants one too!" He looked at Soobin with wattery eyes.

People at the shop were looking at them. Soobin looked around and squeezed little Taehyun's hand a bit hard to warn him about the situation, and whispered, "We're at the mall. Behave."

In response Taehyun only looked at him with eyes brimming with tears, "appa never scowld Kai-ah, only Taehyunie. Why?" His lips quivering.

Soobin was frustrated, he didn't like the attention and glances the people were giving, it'd be a huge problem if fans know Taehyun is a little. Moreover, their new comeback 'Sanctuary' was near, so of course people were head over heels to find spoilers and stalking. So he tightened the grip on Taehyun's hand and dragged him out of the shop. "Owch, hurts." Taehyun whined but the leader didn't even react to it, just dragged him straight out of the mall. Little did he know, his grip was too hard, that was surely gonna leave a bruise.

As soon as they got out of the mall, Soobin hurried to the parking lot and opened the passengers seat door and literally shoved the little inside. Don't even ask how much that hurt Taehyun, not physically, but mentally, his heart was aching. Was he a burden? Unshed tears pooled his eyes as watched his hyung starting the car and start driving, not even looking at him.

Taehyun felt that Soobin hated him. He felt like crying but he had to hold his tears. Because if he cries now, Soobin will hate him more. So he sucked a deep breath and tried to calm down.

Once they were on the highway, Soobin glanced at Taehyun. He was leaning his head on the window seal, eyes closed with a frown on his face. "Taehyuniee, are you okay? Do you feel carsick?" He was asking that because when Taehyun was in his headspace, he usually got carsick.

Taehyun didn't reply. He was awake but decided to keep quiet. Yes, he was definitely feeling carsick but he didn't want to be a burden, so kept quiet. He pretended to sleep as Soobin called him, "Taehyun-ah you okay?"

Not getting a reply, Soobin thought Taehyun was asleep and focused on driving. As Soobin drove towards the dorms, Taehyun only got more nauseous on each turn and bump. Can I really tell appa? Appa already hates Taehyunie, Taehyunie don't wanna be hated more.

He fought the urge to whine to Soobin about how he felt so sick and kept pretending to be asleep. He just wanted to be his appa's good little. No matter how nauseous he felt, he didn't make a sound, just squeezed his eyes tight to cope up with the pain in his stomach.

When Soobin reached home, he shook Taehyun gently to wake him up, "Taehyun-ah, we're home." Little did he know Taehyun was awake the whole time and was waiting so eagerly to hear those words, 'we're home'. That meant he could finally get out of the suffocating car. He opened his eyes and quickly opened the car door to get out of the congested space.

They went inside the dorm as Yeonjun greeted them, and Taehyun literally ran to him, crashing on him with a hug. Yeonjun hugged back giggling at the younger's cuteness, "What's up?" Oh how much he wanted that comfort.

"Taehyunie missed papa."

"Aww is my baby little?" Yeonjun cooed, ruffling his hair. Taehyun was still hugging him, literally latching onto him, "Mnmm", that meant yes.

"Don't spoil him too much, hyung," Soobin's sharp voice cut through. "You don't know what he did at the mall." His voice was full of annoyance, at least that's what Taehyun felt.

Yeonjun caressed his hair, "Really little one? What did you do? Wanna share with papa?"

Soobin again started, harsher this time, "Oh hyung! You don't know how much he embarrassed me in front of so many people. If only you had seen their glances." Taehyun felt his heart clench, he felt much smaller, and insecure. Not to mention he was already feeling extremely nauseous from the car ride earlier.

To put it simply, he felt awful, both physically and mentally. He had never felt so insecure before, he literally shrunk in Yeonjun's hold as the elder was asking him gently, "What did you do baby?"

Taehyun did not answer, he just let go of him and walked over to Kai. Kai was playing with his plushies and toys. He was also in little space. Taehyun just sat quietly beside him and stared. He noticed Kai had more toys and plushies than he did. He felt jealous.

Taehyun noticed it multiple times that Soobin loves Kai more. As if to confirm his thoughts, Soobin started, "He is so troublesome hyung. I wish he was easy to handle like Kai."

He could hear their conversation, Yeonjun was saying, "Don't say like that, Soobin. Taehyun is adorable. Just let him be the kid he wants to be."

"So? Does letting him be the kid he wants to be means bringing us trouble?!" Soobin was really frustrated, it was clear from his tone. He made an exasperated sigh, "I wish he was a bit more sensible."

Taehyun's heart clenched in pain. He didn't realise his favourite appa hated him this much. Tears formed in the corner of his eyes. He felt so insecure, vulnerable, his stomach twisting in knots with anxiety, and the already slightly upset tummy from the previous car ride wasn't helping either.

All of a sudden, he didn't want to care about anything anymore. He just wanted to be a little happy in his prison of sorrows. The big, haunting walls of insecurity and loneliness he couldn't push away. He tried; really tried to get out of the suffocation in his mind.

He thought of focusing on good things. That's why, he took one of Kai's toys in his hands, a small train. It was kind of similar to the one he saw at the store earlier. He quietly played with it, carefully eyeing every single detail.

The toy was nothing fancy, Taehyun just felt so insecure and vulnerable that he wanted to block out the whole world; because he knew no one loved him. That's why he tried to find happiness in the toy in his hands right now, which was also not his. Soobin didn't buy him toys like he did to Kai. His face puffed up with unshed tears he tried so hard to control. He didn't want to break down and prove them he was indeed a pathetic little who deserved to be hated.

"Taehyun-ah!"

Taehyun looked up. It was Soobin.

"Do you know I'm calling for the 5th time right now?"

Taehyun really didn't realise he was being called. He tried to apologise but no words could escape his throat. Was it fear? He gulped. Couldn't utter a word, just stared as if he was frozen. He tried to find love and softness in Soobin's eyes but it only looked more fierce and scary. He didn't even realise he was shaking.

"Why aren't you answering? Is that the manners we taught you?!" Soobin yelled as Taehyun practically flinched. Yeonjun rushed to calm him down, "Soobin-ah, calm down. Why are you scolding him?"

Taehyun just watched in horror with wide eyes as the pit in him stomach grew larger. His heart ached as his breath hitched. He felt so scared.

Soobin totally ignored Yeonjun and asked, "Why did you steal Kai's toy?"

Steal? He didn't steal it. He was just playing with it. Did Kai complain about him stealing the toy?

Why? He felt betrayed.

Yeonjun asked, "wait, really?"

"He stwol it!" Kai pointed at him. He glanced at Kai. Why are you lying Kai? All of a sudden, Soobin grabbed his cheeks. It wasn't gentle like usual, way harsh. "I'm asking you a question!" Taehyun flinched again, eyes widening as his breathing became unstable.

He yanked him as his grip on his face tightened. It hurt. "Can't you talk?!" And that was the limit, Taehyun was so overwhelmed with fear as he felt the air knocked out of him; he wheezed. The toy dropped from his hands as he clutched his chest trying to breathe.

He couldn't breathe.

Soobin's eyes widened, realising what was happening. Before he could do anything, Yeonjun yanked his hand away protectively from Taehyun's face. "Don't touch him!" Yeonjun's eyes flared at him as he protectively wrapped his arms around Taehyun. Gently rubbing his arms and asking him to breathe slowly. Telling him to focus on his voice.

Soobin scooted away and just watched it with a throbbing heart. Was he responsible for this?

He watched as Taehyun gasped for air, clawing his throat. He was crying and whimpering, couldn't utter a single word; he was in too much pan to talk. He felt like dying. Rough memories of his childhood flashed through his mind, sending him chills and waves of nausea. Tears prickled his eyes and made their way flowing down his cheeks.

He couldn't hear anything, none of the comforting words the eldest was offering, he couldn't feel the eldest rubbing back and literally wrapping him in warm hold, guiding his head to his chest and stroking his hair. He couldn't feel any of that. He was trapped in his mind, pain and sorrows;detached from reality.

He choked, trying to breathe as he felt bile rising in the back of his throat. Taehyun lurched forward, putrid liquid mixed with an undigested slurry of breakfast splashed on the floor, some soiling his shirt and pants. Endless stream of tears flowed as he felt his stomach clawing at him. He whimpered as he felt the next wave coming. He gagged again bending forward as Yeonjun swiftly placed a trashcan under his chin. He rubbed the younger's back gently, offering comforting words. "It's okay Taehyun-ah, let it out. You're gonna be okay. I'm here." Although he didn't know the younger could process his words in that situation or not, he caressed him in the gentlest way possible, as if he was a fragile glass that could shatter anytime.

Taehyun coughed and heaved, bringing streams of vomit, he thought he'd pass out. Which he did soon after he had stopped throwing up.

Secured in Yeonjun's hold, he could finally breathe. The control his mind had over his physic fading, finally letting him have a break from the pain.

He was still shuddering and whimpering in his slumber of unconsciousness. Kai was already crying from what he had witnessed. He felt responsible for accusing Taehyun of stealing when he didn't.

Kai just wanted to prank him. It never crossed his mind that the outcome would be this dangerous. Kai was a little who liked to prank because it made him feel relieved from the stress. He didn't have any bad intentions though.

And Soobin on the other hand felt so guilty, he didn't know how he'd face Taehyun once he wakes up. Nonetheless he comforted Kai as the little was crying and helped Yeonjun in cleaning Taehyun up and putting him in bed.

"You know Soobin his psychiatrist said clearly to take care of Taehyun in his headspace gently because his trauma is way worse than Kai's? Yet you kept comparing him to Kai, and the worst thing is you said those words in front of him. He heard you say all that when you are the one he cherished the most in his headspace. Why? Because he felt comfortable with you, but what did you do? He was in headspace because he stressed and you stressed him even more to the point he had a panic attack"

Soobin listened hanging his head low, muttering sorries from time to time. He would surely apologise to Taehyun when he wakes up.

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Should I write a SECOND PART?

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Finding My Safe Space

(Regressed, Sick Taehyun)

Tw: angst, panic attack, vomit, *headspace/littlespace

*Headspace/ littlespace: it's a stage when a character who didn't have enough love and care in the childhood suddenly falls into a headspace and feels like a kid when he's too stressed or something triggers it.

Soobin and Taehyun were running some errands in the mall. They shopped necessary goods and discussed the upcoming comeback schedule, promoting and stuff. Everything was going well. Until Taehyun saw a little kid asking his mom to buy him a toy as they were exiting a shop. His eyes glittered. It was a train with rail tracks, that activates with batteries. He wanted that too.

Soobin felt a tug on his sleeves. "What is it Taehyun-ah?"

Taehyun didn't say anything, just kept his eyes fixated on that toy. Soobin shook him a bit. "Hey, Taehyun-ah-"

"Appa!" And Soobin mentally facepalmed at that. Not now please. He didn't want any trouble in the mall. But nonetheless he talked with the little in a gentle voice. "Yes, Taehyunie?"

Taehyun looked at him with puppy eyes, "Wan' that toy." Soobin held his hands tightly since Taehyun could escape at any moment. "Not now." Soobin retorted.

"I wan' it pweaseee," Taehyun pleaded.

Soobin crouched down a little to whisper so that only Taehyun could hear. "We're in the mall, be a good boy, we need to go home, okay?"

"I am bein good boy. I just wan the magic train!" the younger whined and tried to free himself from Soobin's grip as he had expected.

Soobin didn't want to be late, because he had a lot of work to do. Send the supplies home then go to the company for a meeting with the manager. He really didn't have time for all this. Moreover he didn't have enough money on him to buy the toy at that moment. As Soobin was immersed in thought, Taehyun freed himself and ran like a little kitty to where the shopkeeper was showing the other kid the train thing. He stood there and watched the battery-activated-train move along the rail traks with glittery eyes.

"We didn't come here to buy toys, Taehyunie. Let's go home, our members are waiting." he felt Soobin grab his hand and pull him towards the exit, but Taehyun won't budge. "Nooo!" He whined and pouted, "Appa only buy Kai plushies and toy. Taehyunie wants one too!" He looked at Soobin with wattery eyes.

People at the shop were looking at them. Soobin looked around and squeezed little Taehyun's hand a bit hard to warn him about the situation, and whispered, "We're at the mall. Behave."

In response Taehyun only looked at him with eyes brimming with tears, "appa never scowld Kai-ah, only Taehyunie. Why?" His lips quivering.

Soobin was frustrated, he didn't like the attention and glances the people were giving, it'd be a huge problem if fans know Taehyun is a little. Moreover, their new comeback 'Sanctuary' was near, so of course people were head over heels to find spoilers and stalking. So he tightened the grip on Taehyun's hand and dragged him out of the shop. "Owch, hurts." Taehyun whined but the leader didn't even react to it, just dragged him straight out of the mall. Little did he know, his grip was too hard, that was surely gonna leave a bruise.

As soon as they got out of the mall, Soobin hurried to the parking lot and opened the passengers seat door and literally shoved the little inside. Don't even ask how much that hurt Taehyun, not physically, but mentally, his heart was aching. Was he a burden? Unshed tears pooled his eyes as watched his hyung starting the car and start driving, not even looking at him.

Taehyun felt that Soobin hated him. He felt like crying but he had to hold his tears. Because if he cries now, Soobin will hate him more. So he sucked a deep breath and tried to calm down.

Once they were on the highway, Soobin glanced at Taehyun. He was leaning his head on the window seal, eyes closed with a frown on his face. "Taehyuniee, are you okay? Do you feel carsick?" He was asking that because when Taehyun was in his headspace, he usually got carsick.

Taehyun didn't reply. He was awake but decided to keep quiet. Yes, he was definitely feeling carsick but he didn't want to be a burden, so kept quiet. He pretended to sleep as Soobin called him, "Taehyun-ah you okay?"

Not getting a reply, Soobin thought Taehyun was asleep and focused on driving. As Soobin drove towards the dorms, Taehyun only got more nauseous on each turn and bump. Can I really tell appa? Appa already hates Taehyunie, Taehyunie don't wanna be hated more.

He fought the urge to whine to Soobin about how he felt so sick and kept pretending to be asleep. He just wanted to be his appa's good little. No matter how nauseous he felt, he didn't make a sound, just squeezed his eyes tight to cope up with the pain in his stomach.

When Soobin reached home, he shook Taehyun gently to wake him up, "Taehyun-ah, we're home." Little did he know Taehyun was awake the whole time and was waiting so eagerly to hear those words, 'we're home'. That meant he could finally get out of the suffocating car. He opened his eyes and quickly opened the car door to get out of the congested space.

They went inside the dorm as Yeonjun greeted them, and Taehyun literally ran to him, crashing on him with a hug. Yeonjun hugged back giggling at the younger's cuteness, "What's up?" Oh how much he wanted that comfort.

"Taehyunie missed papa."

"Aww is my baby little?" Yeonjun cooed, ruffling his hair. Taehyun was still hugging him, literally latching onto him, "Mnmm", that meant yes.

"Don't spoil him too much, hyung," Soobin's sharp voice cut through. "You don't know what he did at the mall." His voice was full of annoyance, at least that's what Taehyun felt.

Yeonjun caressed his hair, "Really little one? What did you do? Wanna share with papa?"

Soobin again started, harsher this time, "Oh hyung! You don't know how much he embarrassed me in front of so many people. If only you had seen their glances." Taehyun felt his heart clench, he felt much smaller, and insecure. Not to mention he was already feeling extremely nauseous from the car ride earlier.

To put it simply, he felt awful, both physically and mentally. He had never felt so insecure before, he literally shrunk in Yeonjun's hold as the elder was asking him gently, "What did you do baby?"

Taehyun did not answer, he just let go of him and walked over to Kai. Kai was playing with his plushies and toys. He was also in little space. Taehyun just sat quietly beside him and stared. He noticed Kai had more toys and plushies than he did. He felt jealous.

Taehyun noticed it multiple times that Soobin loves Kai more. As if to confirm his thoughts, Soobin started, "He is so troublesome hyung. I wish he was easy to handle like Kai."

He could hear their conversation, Yeonjun was saying, "Don't say like that, Soobin. Taehyun is adorable. Just let him be the kid he wants to be."

"So? Does letting him be the kid he wants to be means bringing us trouble?!" Soobin was really frustrated, it was clear from his tone. He made an exasperated sigh, "I wish he was a bit more sensible."

Taehyun's heart clenched in pain. He didn't realise his favourite appa hated him this much. Tears formed in the corner of his eyes. He felt so insecure, vulnerable, his stomach twisting in knots with anxiety, and the already slightly upset tummy from the previous car ride wasn't helping either.

All of a sudden, he didn't want to care about anything anymore. He just wanted to be a little happy in his prison of sorrows. The big, haunting walls of insecurity and loneliness he couldn't push away. He tried; really tried to get out of the suffocation in his mind.

He thought of focusing on good things. That's why, he took one of Kai's toys in his hands, a small train. It was kind of similar to the one he saw at the store earlier. He quietly played with it, carefully eyeing every single detail.

The toy was nothing fancy, Taehyun just felt so insecure and vulnerable that he wanted to block out the whole world; because he knew no one loved him. That's why he tried to find happiness in the toy in his hands right now, which was also not his. Soobin didn't buy him toys like he did to Kai. His face puffed up with unshed tears he tried so hard to control. He didn't want to break down and prove them he was indeed a pathetic little who deserved to be hated.

"Taehyun-ah!"

Taehyun looked up. It was Soobin.

"Do you know I'm calling for the 5th time right now?"

Taehyun really didn't realise he was being called. He tried to apologise but no words could escape his throat. Was it fear? He gulped. Couldn't utter a word, just stared as if he was frozen. He tried to find love and softness in Soobin's eyes but it only looked more fierce and scary. He didn't even realise he was shaking.

"Why aren't you answering? Is that the manners we taught you?!" Soobin yelled as Taehyun practically flinched. Yeonjun rushed to calm him down, "Soobin-ah, calm down. Why are you scolding him?"

Taehyun just watched in horror with wide eyes as the pit in him stomach grew larger. His heart ached as his breath hitched. He felt so scared.

Soobin totally ignored Yeonjun and asked, "Why did you steal Kai's toy?"

Steal? He didn't steal it. He was just playing with it. Did Kai complain about him stealing the toy?

Why? He felt betrayed.

Yeonjun asked, "wait, really?"

"He stwol it!" Kai pointed at him. He glanced at Kai. Why are you lying Kai? All of a sudden, Soobin grabbed his cheeks. It wasn't gentle like usual, way harsh. "I'm asking you a question!" Taehyun flinched again, eyes widening as his breathing became unstable.

He yanked him as his grip on his face tightened. It hurt. "Can't you talk?!" And that was the limit, Taehyun was so overwhelmed with fear as he felt the air knocked out of him; he wheezed. The toy dropped from his hands as he clutched his chest trying to breathe.

He couldn't breathe.

Soobin's eyes widened, realising what was happening. Before he could do anything, Yeonjun yanked his hand away protectively from Taehyun's face. "Don't touch him!" Yeonjun's eyes flared at him as he protectively wrapped his arms around Taehyun. Gently rubbing his arms and asking him to breathe slowly. Telling him to focus on his voice.

Soobin scooted away and just watched it with a throbbing heart. Was he responsible for this?

He watched as Taehyun gasped for air, clawing his throat. He was crying and whimpering, couldn't utter a single word; he was in too much pan to talk. He felt like dying. Rough memories of his childhood flashed through his mind, sending him chills and waves of nausea. Tears prickled his eyes and made their way flowing down his cheeks.

He couldn't hear anything, none of the comforting words the eldest was offering, he couldn't feel the eldest rubbing back and literally wrapping him in warm hold, guiding his head to his chest and stroking his hair. He couldn't feel any of that. He was trapped in his mind, pain and sorrows;detached from reality.

He choked, trying to breathe as he felt bile rising in the back of his throat. Taehyun lurched forward, putrid liquid mixed with an undigested slurry of breakfast splashed on the floor, some soiling his shirt and pants. Endless stream of tears flowed as he felt his stomach clawing at him. He whimpered as he felt the next wave coming. He gagged again bending forward as Yeonjun swiftly placed a trashcan under his chin. He rubbed the younger's back gently, offering comforting words. "It's okay Taehyun-ah, let it out. You're gonna be okay. I'm here." Although he didn't know the younger could process his words in that situation or not, he caressed him in the gentlest way possible, as if he was a fragile glass that could shatter anytime.

Taehyun coughed and heaved, bringing streams of vomit, he thought he'd pass out. Which he did soon after he had stopped throwing up.

Secured in Yeonjun's hold, he could finally breathe. The control his mind had over his physic fading, finally letting him have a break from the pain.

He was still shuddering and whimpering in his slumber of unconsciousness. Kai was already crying from what he had witnessed. He felt responsible for accusing Taehyun of stealing when he didn't.

Kai just wanted to prank him. It never crossed his mind that the outcome would be this dangerous. Kai was a little who liked to prank because it made him feel relieved from the stress. He didn't have any bad intentions though.

And Soobin on the other hand felt so guilty, he didn't know how he'd face Taehyun once he wakes up. Nonetheless he comforted Kai as the little was crying and helped Yeonjun in cleaning Taehyun up and putting him in bed.

"You know Soobin his psychiatrist said clearly to take care of Taehyun in his headspace gently because his trauma is way worse than Kai's? Yet you kept comparing him to Kai, and the worst thing is you said those words in front of him. He heard you say all that when you are the one he cherished the most in his headspace. Why? Because he felt comfortable with you, but what did you do? He was in headspace because he stressed and you stressed him even more to the point he had a panic attack"

Soobin listened hanging his head low, muttering sorries from time to time. He would surely apologise to Taehyun when he wakes up.

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Should I write a SECOND PART?

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Definitely one of my favourites😭

Found Me - R!Taehyun

tw: vomit & crying followed by lots of fluff

Taehyun was not feeling good. He was drained from just half a day of work after constantly waking up with stomach cramps and needing to use the bathroom. He wasn't sure if he ate something that upset his stomach or if he caught some sort of bug. No one else seemed to be having any troubles and they all ate the exact same things the day before.

Taehyun sighed to himself, resting his head on the wall behind him. The squeaking of Soobin and Yeonjun's shoes shifting along the polished floor made his ears unusually sensitive. He longed to be wrapped up in a cozy blanket after a nice warm shower. It was very chilly in the dance studio and his hoodie wasn't doing its job of keeping him warm. They had all agreed to lower the temperature of the room since they got sweaty from the strenuous activity, but now he was wishing he had objected.

There wasn't anything scheduled for them to do for a couple hours, so they were just messing around. Soobin and Yeonjun were making up stupid dances to entertain themselves and the other two boys had retreated to their phones. Taehyun wasn't interested in doing either. He was focused on the uncomfortable feeling settled in his abdomen and his heavy eyelids.

I want to go home already. My tummy hurts and I feel sick. Hyungies just notice already! He found his thoughts decreasing in vocabulary, subconsciously pouting at himself in the mirror.

Tummy hurts. Why did I think tummy?

"Uh oh."

Beomgyu turned his head towards Taehyun expectantly, waiting for him to continue.

"What?" He asked, after Taehyun blinked at him without another word.

"It's nothing. Do you- Do you think hyung will let me go home? I don't feel good." Taehyun half lied. He couldn't just start rambling about how he was mentally turning into a preschooler when the group hadn't any clue of what that was or why it happened.

He could just feel it within himself. The way his teeth chewed on his bottom lip, the room feeling bigger than before, his toes wiggling in his shoes, and the light haze starting to cloud his mind.

"Well, what's wrong? What's not feeling good?" Beomgyu asked. He could tell something was wrong by the anxious look in Taehyun's owl eyes. Again, it took longer than it should for him to respond.

"My stomach. I was up and down all night because of it, so I'm really tired now, too. I don't know." He added the last part to make it easier to just brush away if Beomgyu didn't take him seriously.

"Oh, sorry I didn't realize. I'm guessing practice made it worse?"

Taehyun nodded, suppressing a whimper from a sudden cramp around his middle.

"C-Can you tell Soobin hyung? 'm going to the bathroom." He said hastily, getting up from the floor and speed walking out the door.

"What was that about?" Huening kai asked.

"Taehyunnie feels sick." Beomgyu mumbled back. "Hey, Soobin hyung! Yah! Stop trying to touch each other's butts!" He called out.

"What do you want Gyu?" Yeonjun chuckled, his hands perched on his hips.

"Somethings wrong with Taehyun. He told me he doesn't feel good and wants to go home. Apparently, he was up most of the night." Beomgyu explained, side eyeing Kai, as he should've noticed his roommate getting up so much.

"Don't look at me! I slept like a corpse and had weird vivid dreams all night." Kai defended with hands up.

"I knew something was up." Soobin murmured. "Where'd he go?"

"Bathroom."

With that, Soobin exited the studio and walked to the mens bathroom. He stood outside the door for a moment, listening for anything out of the ordinary. What was the point in that? If Taehyun was sick he wouldn't be throwing a party in there. Soobin shook his head at himself and pushed the door open. The very first stall was the only one shut, with quiet crying coming from the other side.

"Taehyunnie? Are you okay?" He asked, taking a step closer. The noise stopped abruptly for a second and turned into what sounded like someone pretending they didn't need to catch their breath.

"If you want me gone that's fine, just tell me."

"N-No..."

Soobin's hands fidgeted with anxiety after hearing Taehyun's strained voice.

"Open the door for me, okay?" He encouraged, glancing to the side when another figured entered the space. It was just Yeonjun. He looked to Soobin to confirm if Taehyun was in there.

"Yeonjun hyung is here, too. You don't sound good in there, Taehyun."

Concern grew on Yeonjun's face when he heard Taehyun whine something incoherent and jumbled. It was followed by some shuffling and then sitting on the floor, Taehyun peaked his head around the door and looked up at the two. Unshed tears watered his eyes and his hoodie sleeves were spotted with saliva and vomit near the cuffs.

"Oh, honey." Soobin said sympathetically, sinking to his knees. He pushed Taehyun's hood back and felt the heat radiating from his body.

Taehyun whimpered nervously. He wasn't his normal self anymore, he was still Taehyun, just much smaller and more vulnerable. His big self refused to give into the way his little self wanted to be babied by his hyungs. It would completely blow his cover! But, he felt so awful, it was all he could think about.

"Hey, it's okay. We'll take care of you." Soobin said quietly when he saw Taehyun start to cry.

"Here, you can put my sweatshirt on instead." Yeonjun offered, tugging the fabric over his head.

"Let Binnie take yours off for you."

Taehyun gazed up at Soobin and lifted his arms so his hoodie could be taken off. He shuddered when the cold air hit his arms that were damp with sweat. He made grabby hands to Yeonjun, silently asking for his help. Soobin wiped his eyes and mouth with toilet paper before Yeonjun sacrificed his clothes. The hoodie was a couple sizes too big for Taehyun, but it made him feel much smaller, like a little baby.

"Baby.." He mumbled, putting his thumb in his mouth.

"Baby? I mean, you'll always be our baby." Yeonjun smiled, albeit confused at the random word.

"Mm- Tummy hurts. Wanna go ni' night."

Taehyun was so far gone that he didn't catch the quizzical stares observing him. Yeonjun and Soobin weren't sure how to approach what was happening with their friend. It wasn't everyday that they suddenly acted like a toddler. Well, maybe Kai, but that was just aegyo and his personality. This was different. Taehyun didn't seem fully present.

"Baba.." He whimpered, crawling into Soobin's lap and curling up against him.

"Hi, honey. Let's get you home now. You need your rest, yeah?" Soobin said. He thought the odd behavior was some strange symptom of Taehyun's fever, and he wanted to ask a lot of questions, but he didn't think it would do any good for the time being.

Soobin stood up carefully with Taehyun in his arms, supported on his hip. He suggested that Yeonjun gather the other boys and meet up back at home. Taehyun glued himself to Soobin the entire way back to the dorm, falling in and out of sleep. He grimaced now and then when a new smell passed his nose or his head throbbed a little too hard. Eventually, he woke up from the beeping of their highly secure front door and slid out of Soobin's arm to sit on the floor. He watched Soobin kick off his shoes and stared down helplessly at his laces.

"Need help, Baba." He murmured. Soobin smiled softly and kneeled to help him take off his shoes.

"There you go. Do you want something to eat?"

Taehyun shook his head, his tummy still felt weird and hurt a little bit. Soobin watched him slouch away to his bedroom and sent a text to the others that they were home. He could hear some thumping coming from Taehyun's room and went to investigate. Around the doorway, he saw Taehyun on the floor with his upper body under his bed. A pair of old shoes, some books and storage bins had been pulled out and sat messily beside him.

Taehyun kicked one leg up and made an accomplished squeak. The he pushed himself out from under his bed with a dark blue box about the size of two shoe boxes. He didn't acknowledge Soobin, only sparing him a glance before climbing into his bed. Soobin watched curiously as Taehyun popped the lid off his box. His eyebrows furrowed when the boy held a sippy cup up towards him. It was white with a green lid and had a cute graphic of a zebra, giraffe, and lion on the side.

"Where'd that come from?" He asked curiously. Taehyun pointed bluntly to the box which made Soobin smile.

"No, I meant why do you have that?"

Taehyun pointed to the cup and then himself.

"Juice..." He mumbled, lowering the cup and holding it in his lap.

"O-Okay, uhm I think we still have some. Unless Hyuka secretly chugged the rest of it."

A cute giggle came from Taehyun, as he slowly rocked back and forth with a smile. His special Soobie-hyung didn't say anything mean to him!

"I'll uh, be right back. You should change to something comfy." Soobin said, leaving the room promptly after. He had no idea what he was doing, but concluded that it would all be okay if he followed Tae's lead.

When he returned Taehyun was in the exact same spot, still in his regular clothes. He was shivering and his eyes were all droopy. Soobin had almost forgotten why they came home in the first place. Taehyun seemed to brighten up for a few minutes when they got home, but his energy had clearly diminished.

"Here's your juice." Soobin said softly, crossing the room and sitting down on the edge of Taehyun's bed.

Taehyun took the sippy cup back and held it up to his mouth to bite. Soobin watched curiously until he eventually took a couple small sips. The older got up and grabbed a clean sweatshirt and sweatpants to help him change into.

"Do you need help changing, baby? Is that why you stayed on your bed?" Soobin asked, as he guided the little out of bed.

"Need 'elp." Taehyun repeated. He whimpered when he was stood on two feet and got hit with a bad dizzy spell.

"It's okay. We'll be quick." Soobin reassured. "Arms up, tyunnie." Taehyun was very easy to change and clung to Soobin like a koala bear when they were done.

"Cutie. Would you like watch a movie?"

"Mhmp."

"I take that as a yes?"

"Movie." Taehyun whispered.

Soobin chuckled affectionately and picked Taehyun up into his arms. Like a nervous rabbit, Taehyun burrowed his face into Soobin's shoulder and remained that way until they were sat on the sofa. Soobin kissed his head, draped a soft starry blanket over his back and played with his hair. Taehyun was rarely this cuddly, so he was going to enjoy it while it lasted.

"There's a lot of movies to choose from. Do you have any ideas?" Soobin asked.

"One with kitties." He requested cutely.

"Hmmm kitties you say..." Soobin exaggerated his thinking expression by holding his chin.

"Aristocats? There's also Hello Kitty and The Cat Returns."

"A-istocats." Taehyun picked.

"Sounds good to me."

They cuddled together as the movie played out. About twenty minutes in, Soobin noticed Taehyun squirming around every so often. He suddenly started whimpering and urgently tried to get off of Soobin. He stumbled onto the floor and only took a few steps before collapsing.

"What's wrong?!" Soobin asked, a hint a fear in his worried voice.

Taehyun lurched, starting to heave and gag. Some sort of hidden Dad instincts Soobin didn't know he had kicked in and he snatched Taehyun off the floor and ran with him in his arms to the bathroom. They didn't make it to the toilet, instead Taehyun threw up into the bath tub. He sobbed between each round, his stomach aching and throat burning.

"Oh, I know sweetie. You're okay, Tyunnie. Just breathe, it's okay." Soobin cooed, taking down the shower head and turning on the water.

He avoided spraying Taehyun in the face and aimed the water so it rinsed the mess down the drain. Taehyun continued to cry, using the tub edge as a pillow. Soobin got him to sit up and collected some of the water in his hand to help him clean out his mouth. He felt like a father taking care of his child, he didn't care what mess was made, just that his baby was okay and taken care of.

When the tub was rinsed out Soobin shut off the water and gathered Taehyun in his arms. They sat on the floor together, letting the adrenaline slowly diminish. Taehyun sniffled, no longer sobbing. He was completely worn out from his day. Regressing out of no where was tiring in general, add a fever and tummy bug on top and Taehyun would say he felt like he was going to fall into a coma.

"I'm so sorry you're sick. You'll feel better soon. I told the others to grab some popsicles and medicine to help you feel better." Soobin said, taking Taehyun's mind off of throwing up.

"Baba bed." He murmured. "Tired."

"Honey, why are you calling me baba? I don't mind, I just don't know why you've been acting like this." Soobin asked. He was desperate to know what was going on with him. Taehyun whined and took a minute to gather his thoughts.

"I'm weird, I know it's weird. My mind turns little like-like a kid. It makes me feel better when everythin's too much." Taehyun confessed, breaking off into shoulder shaking sobs. Soobin hugged him closer while he let his words sink in.

"Shhh, it okay. Tell me more, love."

"I can't help it, hyung. I'm sorry! Please don't hate me! Little Taehyunnie needs you!" Taehyun couldn't stop crying. He was overcome with the fear of rejection.

"We'd never hate you. Never! I just need you to explain it a little more, it's okay." Soobin said, guiding Taehyun to rest his head on his shoulder.

"What do you do when you feel like a kid?"

"Borrow Ningies plushies and hide in my bed. If no one's there I watch kid shows all alone a-and wish someone would take care of me." Taehyun let the words tumble past his lips. It was so relieving to finally talk about his secret, but it was just as terrifying.

"I get so lonely and small that I just cry til it all goes away. Everything gets harder to do and more confusing...It's so scary telling you this."

"I know, but I'm so glad you did. It sounds familiar. I think my psychiatrist told me about it when we started going over trauma stuff. It's Age Regressing right?" Soobin spoke softly. Taehyun's heart filled with stars at his words. He knew. His hyung knew! It was like he had been falling for miles and just landed in a strong secure set of arms.

"Mhm."

"Aha, I can see how hard that would be to talk about. You're precious to us, Taehyun, and you always will be. You're never alone. You can always come to me when you feel little." Soobin said lovingly.

He coddled Taehyun for awhile longer, whispering sweet reassurances into his ear and rubbing his back. With the comfort of being taken care of and held, Taehyun quickly grew sleepy again.

"Bed." He murmured. "Tired."

"I'm sure you are. C'mon, you can sleep in my room."

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I don’t know how to send DMs 😭 is it okay if I tell you everything here?

Go to my profile and look at the top right corner, there will be a total of 4 icons. There is a '+' signed message icon (like the one we see on messenger), click on that and you can dm me. It's also okay if you tell me everything here, but it would be better for me if you dm, I'm asking cz I've never written or thought of writing a snz, and I don't have a kink for sneezes, so I don't read much snz fics, that's why I might need to discuss a few things I might get confused about while writing. It's okay if you say it here tho, I just prefer the other way

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do you write snz or just emeto? I was just thinking, these days most of the TXT sickfics are ab throwing up and i think I haven’t seen one about allergies smt like that since 2022 😭 Sneezy TXT fics come back 🙏🙏🙏🕯️🕯️🕯️

It's not just snz but as a whole TXT sickfic posts are really less compared to other kpop groups like SVT, SKZ or ATEEZ.

I hadn't thought about writing a snz but you seem like you badly want to read one. So I guess I'll write one. Allergies then? Like pollen allergy. And you can select which member you want to be the sick one, and if you want any specific member to be the sickie's main caretaker. It's better if you dm me and let me know your preferences or any plot you want. And don't worry, even if you dm me, I won't mention your id when I post it since you asked anonymously here.

(just a random pic I wanted to add cz he looked funny and cute at the same time lol)

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your soobin icon is so cute!! loved the pictures you chose <3

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Hey off topic but you need to change your pfp and banner bc people might think you're a bot

There are things like bots here? I didn't know lol. I'll change my pfp then, I just kept it since I thought the pyramid was kinda cute. Thanks for letting me know!

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No More Please- Sick Soobin (ft BTS Jin)

Part 2

Link to Part 1->

Sickie: Soobin

Content: fever, vomit/emeto, fever hallucinations, ignorance, hospitals, lots of angst and fluff, a little bit of BTS caring mainly Jin (this is after summing up all the parts)

A little recap of previous part and let's continue~

"What is your problem seriously, why are you so careless?! Does our time or schedule have no value to you?!! This is not expected from a leader."

Soobin tried so hard to hold back his tears. Nothing was going well. First he didn't feel well, his ears were ringing and now everyone was angry at him. Could it be any worse?

Soobin held back his tears, as he tried to explain. "I'm so sorry, hyung. I felt so sick-" before he could go any futher Yeonjun rolled his eyes and said, "Such a drama queen. Now that you can't do anything properly, you're pretending to be sick. What more stories are you gonna tell? You have fever, you threw up etc etc? Huh?!"

Soobin felt betrayed. Even Taehyun was taken aback at this point. He saw Soobin hanging his head low, shoulders tense the whole time Yeonjun was giving him a lecture. Taehyun couldn't just stand and watch. He turned to Yeonjun, "hyung, please stop. I think you're crossing the limits. Soobin hyung isn't like that."

Of course Yeonjun wasn't buying that. He glared at Taehyun and Taehyun gulped in fear. No one dared to speak over Yeonjun, the eldest. Moreover, Beomgyu was on Yeonjun's side. Kai wasn't present and only Taehyun wanted to argue to defend the leader; and Soobin, well he was just trying to find ways to make the situation better.

Finally, Soobin cut off the silence, "Let's start the practice." No one said anything and the dance practice started. Soobin felt exhausted when the practice hadn't even fully started yet. It was just doing warm-ups. But he felt miserable. His stomach was cramping and he felt heavy. Not to mention he was sweating bullets without even doing much workout. But he pushed himself. Because no one was ready to even listen to him.

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1 hour passed. As much as Soobin wanted, he couldn't ask for a break because he knew exactly what would happen if he did. Everyone would get angry at him again.

Soobin tried, he really tried hard to go on with the flow. But no matter what he did, he kept messing things up. The dance instructor had warned him a few times already. Not to mention Yeonjun and Beomgyu's constant flares. Taehyun didn't glare, his expression was something Soobin couldn't quite make out.

"Soobin what's wrong with you today? I've lost count of how many times you've made mistakes!" their dance instructor yelled.

"I'm sorry, I'll try more." Soobin muttered in a low voice. Yeonjun became even more annoyed at this. "Yah! Can't you even speak properly?!"

"I'm sorry, I'll do better," Soobin repeated himself, speaking clearly this time. Soobin was getting frustrated at himself. Why couldn't he get things right? He felt like crying but he couldn't cry; he could only look at his members like a pathetic, trying to find a little comfort which he couldn't find. His members didn't have any sympathetic or loving gazes towards him at that moment. He felt miserable.

Another few hours passed. Soobin was barely surviving. The music was playing, and he was dancing totally relying on muscle memory. He felt so hot, sticky and heavy. His stomach was aching more than he could withstand without groaning. At one point he felt like passing out, he wanted to at least sit down.

Soobin knew neither his members nor the dance instructor would let him take a break. But his body couldn't take it anymore as he sat down in the middle of the choreo, breathing heavily with eyes closed. He felt like throwing up.

Before anyone could utter a word or yell at him, he spoke up, "I n-need a break. J-just 5 minutes please." He trying his best not to stutter. He didn't want to be labelled again as a drama queen.

"You can't be serious right now Soobin, we just had a break an hour ago!" Yeonjun yelled.

Soobin didn't say anything, he got up and said, "I'll be back." He walked normally while exiting the practice room because he had to act like he was fine. Because everytime he wanted to say he wasn't feeling okay, or showed any signs of weakness, he'd be yelled at. He had no choice but to act normal in front of them.

They were 5 people who trusted each other like family, yet Soobin didn't know why he felt so lonely right now, when he needed their comfort the most. He felt like he was alone, struggling to do things properly.

As soon as he exited the practice room he was limping, clutching his stomach. As he made his way to the bathroom, at one point he didn't know if he could make it to the bathroom anymore. His stomach was churning painfully, his body felt so heavy he thought either he'd throw up on the floor right then or pass out. He took deep breaths to calm down, nothing was working. His world was swirling, even walking straight felt like an extremely hard task.

Soobin finally reached the washroom which he thought he wouldn't be able to make it. As soon as he got himself into a stall, he collapsed in front of the toilet, retching and vomiting violently. He squeezed his eyes and clutched his stomach in pain. He gagged and choked as his eyes widened. He coughed, and heaved again and again. Everything hurt. He started crying at some point.

When he finally finished, he slumped against the wall, closing his eyes, his breathing unstable and shaky. He had no energy left. He was sure he had a fever now, the weird stickiness and chills definitely indicated fever.

Soobin needed help, he wanted to call someone to help him but who? Everyone was mad at him, no one cared. Not a single one of his members cared. He felt so lonely. He thought of calling Kai once but immediately thought against it as the maknae was already sick and resting at home. That's when Soobin heard his phone ringing, 'Yeonjun Hyung' it read.

Should he pick it up?

After arguing with himself a thousand times, he picked it up. Soobin was so weak he didn't even have the energy to say hello or hold the phone to his ears. He put it on speaker and let it fall onto his lap.

Yelling was the first thing he heard. "CHOI SOOBIN! WHERE ARE YOU?! DO YOU KNOW AFTER SAYING 5 MINUTES HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPENT?!! HUH?!" it was Yeonjun. Much expected.

But Soobin didn't expect Beomgyu, who was younger than him, to yell at him too. "HYUNG WHY ARE YOU SO CARELESS? DO YOU EVEN HAVE ANY SHAMNE THAT THE WHOLE GROUP IS LAGGING BEHIND BECAUSE OF YOU?" As bad as Soobin felt because of sickness, he felt even worse to be treated like this by his own members. Endless tears were streaming down his face.

Taehyun was speaking now. They probably put the phone on speaker and now everyone was taking turns in scolding him.

"Hyung are you oka-" Soobin hung up. He didn't want to hear it anymore. He was so sick of being scolded. He didn't even know he was sobbing loudly until someone knocked on the door. He didn't answer, he knew it was Yeonjun. He hugged his knees and buried his head over it. He didn't want to be yelled at again.

Someone pushed open the door as it wasn't locked. Soobin thought it would be one of his angry members. He heard someone gasp. "Omg Soobin! Is that you?"

He felt someone placing their hand on his shoulder but he slapped it right away, sobbing even harder, "N-no m-more Please. No m-more- s-scolds."

He took a shaky breath. He felt a hand being placed on his shoulder again, "Soobin! Listen to me," Soobin slapped it away with all the energy he had, "NO!" He was stuttering badly. "Pl-please s-stop- scolding. I-I c-can't take it an-anymore." He was hyperventilating at this point. All of a sudden, his stomach turned as he lurched forward with gag, vomit pouring on his lap as he couldn't make it to the toilet bowl. He heaved again as Jin held him to keep him away from his own mess which didn't help much since Soobin had already vomited on his pants. "I-I'm s-sorry. I'm so sorry p-please d-don't yell." He was a crying, sobbing mess, traumatized in one word.

Soobin didn't know who the person was but that person didn't scold him, rather handed him with such gentle hands, rubbing his back and telling him it's going to be okay. He wanted warmth and this person's warmth pulled him close, making him relax as he was felt like he was freezing.

It was Jin from BTS. He was shocked to see Soobin like that. But before anything, he needed to help the younger out. He cradled Soobin in his arms, gently stroking his sweaty hair and giving back rubs. He could feel the intense heat rading from the younger, indicating the poor boy had a pretty high fever.

After Jin coaxing Soobin for a while, he had stopped crying but still violently shivering and slurring in a feverish delirium. Jin was so sure Soobin was mistreated either by his members, or the manager and whoever had done this to Soobin, he wasn't going to let them go so easily.

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1688 words.

Karma waiting in the next part🤧

[flashymoa]

Today went so bad. Two of my baby bunnies died due to cold, (bunnies are sensitive, can die if you bathe them with cold water) they got wet in the rain and I was out when that happened so I had no idea. Secondly, I have an exam tomorrow, I'm sick, and threw up a few times; my whole body hurts and every time I tried to read nothing was getting into my head. These are the exact same topics I've read and practiced before, and I was just revising but it's like my brain isn't working no matter how hard I tried. Tomorrow's exam is gonna be a mess. I just wanted to share bcz I don't know what to do. I'll go to sleep now

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A TXT omegaverse sickfic this time? What do you say? I was thinking of writing a sickfic in which one of the txt members would be an omega. And he's sick but members mistake it as heat because not long ago, they had some kind of vaccination, and a side effect made their pheromone identifying senses weak for a while. So, the members get really worried when the symptoms don't match with heat. So the question is....

Personally, I think Taehyun is the best suited person for that bcz he's so tiny compared to the other members, likes to cling to Soobin's arms like a cat and his occasional purrs are so damn cute.

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Migraine Becomes a Mess (Taehyun)

This was requested by an anon. Hope it finds the anon.

Sick: Taehyun

Caretaker: mainly Kai

Content: migraines, vomiting

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After long hours of practice, TXT finally got to get back to the dorms. Everyone was tired. They just wanted to eat something and go to sleep.

The members quickly washed up and settled down for dinner. Everyone was chatting; Kai occasionally burst out his devilishly loud laughs and Beomgyu being loud as always, thereby Yeonjun scolding Beomgyu and Soobin just quietly eating his food because it's nothing new and food matters first of course.

Everything was normal, except the fact that Taehyun felt annoyed of them. He had a headache and they were making it worse. He had had enough. He slammed his hands on the counter and snapped, "Kai can you stop laughing like that?!"

Kai frowned, "Like what?"

"Your damn loud laughter is annoying me to the guts! It's giving me a headache!"

Kai was offended.He glared at Taehyun, "I've always laughed like that Taehyun. What's your problem?"

"It's annoying me."

Kai just clicked his tongue and rolled his eyes, "Oh yeah? It's my natural laughter and if it annoys you I don't give a shit."

Soobin spoke up this time, "Manners Kai."

"Manners?! You tell me to bahave but not him?!! Didn't he pull on a fight first?!" Kai was raging at this point.

"Calm down, kai-ah," Yeonjun said. "What Taehyun said was kinda disrespectful but I'm sure he feels guilty. He'll apologize, right Taehyun?" Yeonjun tured to Taehyun for a response; an apology but Taehyun just got up from his seat without saying anything and walked away.

It wasn't intentional tho, his headache had evolved into a serious migraine. And he couldn't even focus on what they were saying right now. He just wanted to get out of the chaos. Go somewhere quiet and dark.

But Taehyun getting up without answering clearly added flame to the fire. Kai was furious, he turned to Soobin.

"Hyung, did you see that?! He is the one that doesn't have manners!!"

He got up from his seat as well, "Yah! Taehyun! Didn't you hear Yeonjun hyung told you to apologise?!" Taehyun winced at the loud voice. It felt like needles pinning his head. He flinched and slammed his palms against his ears, trying his best to block the voice.

Kai was so mad at this behaviour that he was speechless. First he walked away without answering and now he's pretending not to hear, even blocking his ears to show he doesn't care to listen.

"He's becoming a spoilt brat," Beomgyu commented. Soobin or Yeonjun couldn't even say anything in defense even if they wanted to. They guessed something was fishy, probably Taehyun was upset about something but they didn't give it much thought.

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Later that night, Kai insisted he won't sleep in the same bed as Taehyun. (Imagine they share a double bed instead of bunk beds)

"I'm not sleeping in the same room as him Soobin hyung. That's final!" Kai huffed.

"Don't be like this Kai. If you be stubborn and do not sleep in your shared room today, the fight would get even bigger."

"No, he started this. Until he apologises I have no business with him! I'm not talking to him, let alone sleep in the same bed."

Soobin put his hands on Kai's shoulder, "Look at me Kai-ah. I know what he did wasn't right. But, please listen to hyung this once?"

Kai just looked away, not knowing what to say. He was mad Taehyun but he couldn't reject Soobin when he was asking like that.

"Um.. okay, but just because you're telling me to. I obviously didn't forgive him."

Soobin smiled at him, "That's good Ning-ning. Go to sleep now. We have to leave early for practice tomorrow."

"Okay hyung."

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Kai opened his bedroom door to find it absolutely dark. Normally it'd be dimly lit at night, but it was completely dark. He didn't think much about it as he got ready for bed.

He sarcastically looked at Taehyun and whispered, "Huh. Now sleeping peacefully after insulting me."

Soon, Kai drifted off to sleep but little did he know, Taehyun couldn't sleep one bit. His head was killing him, not to mention the churning inside his stomach.

On top of that, there was a construction going on nearby, the sound of drilling machines increased the pain 10 folded and Taehyun couldn't do anything but cry silently. The pain didn't ease one bit, it was just increasing.

He didn't even know when he started whimpering. And when Kai woke up hearing his whimpers.

"Taehyun, are you okay?" he heard Kai's voice. Was he really asking? Or was it his confused brain setting hallucinations because he was yearning for comfort.

Taehyun looked at Kai's side of bed. It was dark, he couldn't see anything properly. But then he heard it again, "Taehyun? You okay?"

Taehyun only whimpered in response. Kai immediately figured something was wrong.

He hurriedly got off the bed and flicked on the lights to see things properly. Taehyun flinched at the brightness as he buried his head on his knees, hands clutching his head and hair tightly, whimpering louder. He was visibly shaking. Rocking himself back and forth to calm himself down but he was miserably failing.

Kai immediately rushed to his side in worry, "Taehyun-ah, are you crying? What's wrong?" Taehyun sobbed; he couldn't form any words or even look up at him. The pain was too much.

Huening Kai cradled him in his arms and guided his head to rest on his chest. He rubbed his arms gently; stroked his hair as he whimpered and cried. He won't stop clutching his head nor open his eyes. Kai tried talking to him again, "Taehyunie, can you tell me what's bothering you? Did you have a nightmare? Talk to me. I'm right here." But Taehyun won't say a word, he seemed in too much pain.

Kai started panicking, Taehyun won't talk to him or even look at him. He couldn't imagine how much Taehyun was suffering to act like that. He was shaking in his arms like a stray bird in a storm.

"Should I go tell Soobin hyung? But how can I leave him alone in this state?" As much as he wanted the leader's help, he couldn't leave Taehyun alone in that state.

Kai reassured Taehyun in the most gentle way possible but Taehyun couldn't focus on anything when the pain felt like needles piercing through his skull, when the nausea that had slightly settled down earlier increased ten folded all of a sudden; his stomach just wanted to leap out. Taehyun didn't know what to do.

"Taehyun-ah at least open your eyes, please tell me what's wrong. I can't help you if you don't tell me."

Taehyun tried to follow what he was told. But as soon as he opened his eyes the bright light made everything worse. He was stuck with a sudden wave of dizziness; the world seemed to spin and a wave of nausea hit him on full force.

He felt his throat tighten as he lurched forward with gag. He immediately clamped his hand over his mouth and tried to swallow it back. But it couldn't stop the inevitable as he gagged again and vomit seeped through the gaps of his fingers. Huening Kai's eyes widened at the sudden encounter; nevertheless he didn't let go of Taehyun, rather helped him position properly so that he doesn't get the vomit on himself.

Kai waited patiently for Taehyun to finish. When Taehyun finally stopped throwing up, the poor boy slumped against Kai, taking ragged breaths.

Taehyun was so dizzy and vulnerable at that point that if Kai didn't hold him he'd have fallen on his own vomit. Huening Kai could see it from the way Taehyun was shaking and just let his whole weight on Kai's arms. So he didn't risk getting up to get a trash can for easy clean-up later because Taehyun mattered first of course. It was his favourite penguin blanket Taehyun threw up on yet Kai didn't feel angry at all. All he felt was worry and sympathy.

He rubbed Taehyun's back gently as he retched, coughed and choked on vomit. He was throwing up uncontrollably, barely getting any space to breathe inbetween heaves. "It's okay. Let it out. It'll be over soon." Kai tried his best to soothe him. Tears rolled down his cheeks as his body tried to get everything out of his stomach.

"Done?" Kai asked as he brushed the bangs away from his forehead, now drenched in sweat.

Taehyun nodded, eyes closed. He was exhausted and embarrassed. "I'm sorry," those were the first words Taehyun said, after the whole argument they had at the dining table.

"It's okay. It happens." Kai said as he reached to grab the tissues box from the nightstand with one hand while supporting the sick boy to stay stable with the other. He gently wiped his mouth and nose. Took another tissue to wipe the stray tears. He wiped his hand as well since one of his hands got puke on it.

Taehyun didn't utter a single word the whole time. It wasn't like the throbbing in his head had totally subsided but he felt a lot better.

"Wanna tell what actually happened?"

"Migraine." Taehyun replied while sniffling. His previous crying had left him with occasional sniffles.

Kai noticed Taehyun won't look up, he kept his head hung low. "Is your head still hurting? I'll turn off the lights. But I need to put the blankets in wash first. Can you stay by yourself for a while?"

Taehyun nodded.

"I'm sorry." He apologised as tears formed in the corner of his eyes, "I'm so sorry. I didn't realise I'd throw up until it happened. I made such a mess."

Kai held his cheeks and made him look at him. "Hey, look at me. It's okay. It's not your fault. Don't feel guilty." He saw tears making their way down his cheeks again. Kai knew he was now crying in guilt, not pain. Taehyun's expression clearly showed how guilty and miserable he felt. Kai placed a forehead kiss and said, "It's not your fault. I can just clean it up, okay? I'll be back in a minute."

Kai carefully pulled off the blanket, careful not to spread the mess and left the room to put it in the wash.

Taehyun was beyond grateful that Kai wasn't mad at him. He felt so tired and miserable that he didn't even notice when Huening Kai re-entered the room. He was in a daze. The only thing he felt was a touch on his shoulder and he turned his head to find Kai standing with a glass of water.

"Here, drink this." Kai helped Taehyun drink the water, carefully not to spill since his hands were shaking. Taehyun felt relieved as the water took away the acidic taste and cooled his throat. Kai handed him two tablets. Taehyun didn't even know what it was. He just trusted him enough to take it without a question. "Thanks."

"You gotta wash your hands, I only wiped with tissues. Do you think you can walk?" He could guess the answer already. Taehyun looked ghostly pale and Kai knew how terrible Taehyun's migranes could be.

"Dunno"

Kai sighed, "it's okay, I'll get wet wipes."

Kai helped him get cleaned, turned the lights off since it was bothering Taehyun, even wiped his face and neck with a wet towel when he noticed the temperature had elevated.

Huening Kai guided Taehyun's head on his lap while he sat against the headboard, stroking his hair and messaging his head. He knew it won't help that much given the fact that migraines never go away with message, but he just wanted ease his discomfort even if it's a little bit.

Later on that night, Taehyun spiked a fever and Kai practically stayed up all night to take care of him.

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The next morning when Soobin went to wake the maknaes up, he found Kai sleeping while sitting, leaning on the headboard, and Taehyun sleeping on Kai's lap. He smiled inwardly, "Who can tell these two were fighting not even 24 hours ago?"

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If you do, would you mind writing a Sickfic about Taehyun?? Thank you!!!

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No More Please (txt Soobin)

Sickie: Soobin

Caretaker: other TXT members

Content: fever, vomit/emeto, fever hallucinations, ignorance, lots of angst and fluff (this is after summing up all the parts)

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Everyone was busy at the dorm because the maknae, Kai has had a fever since last night. Everyone was paying attention to Kai, basically doing anything to make him feel better.

"Taehyun, tell Soobin to call the manager and inform him that Kai has a bad fever and he can't come to practice today." Yeonjun said as changed the wet cloth on Kai's forehead. 

"Soobin hyung is asleep i guess." Taehyun replied.

Yeonjun's expression changed to an annoyed one. "Still sleeping?!"

Yeonjun immediately went to Soobin's room and opened the door with irritation. Their maknae was already sick and the leader was still sleeping. So careleess.

"Soobin! Wake up, right now!"

Soobin hummed in sleep and rubbed his eyes sleepily, pulling the covers more. "5 more minutes, hyung."

Yeonjun got angry and yanked the blanket off him, "Get up! Now! You're already late!"

Soobin got up slowly and pouted. Yeonjun closed the door with a loud thud and left.

Soobin winced at the sound and felt his head throbbing as soon as he sat up. He put his head down on his hands, it hurt. It was accompanied by a weird feeling in his stomach. But eventually he dragged himself down his bed and walked to the bathroom.

On the way, he bumped into Taehyun. "Good morning, hyung."

"Good morning tae."

"Wash up and come to the dining table. Beomgyu made your favourite waffles today." Taehyun said.

Usually Soobin would be happy to hear that but right now, the name food made his stomach churn. He just said, "Oh, okay."

Taehyun didn't suspect anything and went to the dining table while Soobin walked to the bathroom. The smell of waffles made Soobin gag into his fist, as he quickly ran towards the bathroom.

He hunched over the toilet and gagged. Nothing came up. He felt sick to stomach but nothing came up as he dry-heaved twice more. 

"What's wrong with me?" He thought as he walked to the sink, and splashed water on his face.

"Soobin! We're getting late!!" He heard yeonjun yelling. "Just a minute!" He replied. He quickly opened the shelf to find the thermometer but couldn't find it. That's when he remembered Kai had a fever last night, so probably it's in his room right now.

Soobin sighed and shrugged it off. Maybe he was fine.

Soobin got ready and left for practice with the members. He already woke up late so he barely had time for breakfast. Moreover his stomach was rebelling with him. He had no appetite, but forced himself to eat at least a toast because he was gonna need energy for practice.

Later on, during the car ride, Soobin deeply regretted it. His stomach wasn't giving him a break. It was cramping and he felt extremely nauseous. "Can you slow down a bit? I think you're going a little fast?" He said in a confused tone because he himself didn't know if the manager was driving was fast or not; he was too sick to focus on anything else.

"What Soobin seriously? We're late because of you! Of course he has to drive fast," Yeonjun snapped on an instant.

"I'm sorry."

Soobin closed his eyes and leaned back to rest his head. He felt so sick. He felt a hand light brushing his arm, "Are you okay?" Taehyun asked.

But before Soobin could answer, Yeonjun clicked his tongue in annoyance, "why would he not? He has slept the most today and didn't even help with taking care of Kai."

"I'm sorry," Soobin apologized again, he felt so sad. Why was Yeonjun snapping at him every now and then?

He felt Taehyun holding his hand and giving it a comforting squeeze. "I'm okay," Soobin assured Taehyun. It was such a lie. He didn't feel okay at all. He felt like he would hurl right then and there.

He took deep breaths to calm down the nausea. It helped a little.

Taehyun was worried about his hyung. Beomgyu was sleeping and Yeonjun was... well relatively annoyed and listening to music. And Kai was on leave.

Soon, the car came to a stop. Soobin was more than thankful that the car ride had finally come to an end. He hurried outside, in the process, he mistakenly stepped on Beomgyu's foot. He cursed under his breath but didn't have the time to apologise as he ran towards the building's bathroom.

Luckily he reached one of the stalls in time. His body lurched forward as a stream of vomit forcefully left his mouth. He couldn't even take a breath as he heaved again, bringing up another mouthful of vomit.

At this point he was shaking from the sheer force his body applied on every retch. He choked and coughed clutching his stomach in pain. He squeezed his eyes shut as tight as possible, hoping it would ease the pain a little as the light was making his head hurt. He rested his head on the toilet seat, he knew it was disgusting but he was too exhausted to care. He felt nausea building up at the back of his throat. Tears leaked his eyes and his body retched again, and again.

After about 5 minutes, it stopped. Soobin took deep, shaky breaths. His eyes still shut tight. He felt lightheaded but he had to get up and go to practice. He got up, his legs shaking as he supported himself leaning on the wall.

Soobin flushed the toilet, and washed his mouth and face in the sink. Oh no, I'm running late. Yeonjun hyung is gonna scold me again! I gotta hurry.

Soobin rushed to the practice room only to meet with an annoyed Beomgyu, a glaring Yeonjun and a worried-looking Taehyun.

Soobin prepared himself for the scolding. He thought Yeonjun would be the one to scold him but-

Beomgyu started, "Hyung, have you forgotten your manners? What kind of behaviour is this, you stepped on my foot earlier while vetting off the van and didn't even apologise?!"

Soobin looked down in guilt. "Sorry, I didn't mean to."

"Care to explain what took you so long?" It was Yeonjun this time. He was clearly not happy.

"I-" Soobin started but was cut off by Yeonjun yelling, "What is your problem seriously, why are you so careless?! Does our time or schedule have no value to you?!! This is not expected from a leader."

Soobin tried so hard to hold back his tears. Nothing was going well. First he didn't feel well, his ears were ringing and now everyone was angry at him. Could it be any worse?

-to be continued

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