flashymoa

[flashymoa]

I’m not even a MOA but seeing that guy (idk his name 😓) crying because he misses his bestie is so 🥹🥹🥹🥹 i feel like it’s very rare to see idols crying on live, I’ve only seen a few, but you could literally see his shoulders and his throat shaking 😭😭😭 like I said I don’t Stan them but when I saw that clip I felt a weird sensation on my chest like I’m genuinely sad for him and I hope things get better, also hope he has someone that can comfort him

His name is Beomgyu (the one who cried), and he missed Soobin. Don't worry, even if he's sad, he has his members to comfort, although the emptiness he feels without Soobin won't go away. But at least he has his members to give him hope and comfort him through.

Beomgyu once said, "We all have our roles in a family. Soobin-hyung is like mom, Yeonjun-hyung is dad, Taehyunie is the elder brother (although Taehyun is younger than Beomgyu, he referred to Taehyun as his elder brother bcz Taehyun is mature and caring) and Huening kai is the dog." And the fun fact, Huening Kai even agreed even tho Beomgyu said he was the family's dog. They have a strong bonding, always caring for each other. So, don't worry, the other members are there to comfort Beomgyu, but the fact is, all of them miss Soobin and ofc Soobin misses them too.

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BEOMGYU STARTED CRYING ON LIVE BC HE MISSES SOOB SO MUCH I’M AB TO EXPLODEEEDEFTRDTED 😭😭😭😭😭😭

IKR THEIR BONDING IS JUST SO PRECIOUS😭😭😭😭 I LOVE TXT TOO MUCH AT THIS POINT, TRUST ME I'VE NEVER SEEN SUCH AMAZING BONDING IN ANY OTHER GROUP😭😭

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Here is what Taehyun and Soobin said regarding their previous work with the T&D team (before they debuted)-

🐿️: While I was working with the T&D team, I could really see myself improving.

🐰: They really understood everything about me like they knew everything. I felt like they knew me better than I did. They were so reliable and dependable. The T&D members brought in all the monthly evaluation scores. They told me I could succeed

Soobin had also mentioned that he cried a little when he got to know they won't be working with them after debut.

I just hope they treat them well😭😭😭

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REQUEST!

What if you wrote a sickfic about the picture of Kai sleeping on the floor that Soobin posted for his birthday, like Kai had been sick all day and Soobin found him on the floor in one of their rooms sleeping bc he was sick and didn’t want to be alone. Like a emeto fic, and they take care of him 😛

Sorry it took so long. It might be better than my other ones because my friend helped me with this one. I wanted to add humor but was struck, she helped me with that. And she suggested some sentence structures as well❤️

•°Upset Maknae°•

Huening Kai felt off from the moment practice began. It wasn’t something he could pinpoint exactly—just a vague unease that made his movements feel heavier than usual. Sweat rolled down his temples as he missed a step again, catching the faint glances of his members. Were they annoyed? Worried? He couldn’t tell, but he assumed annoyance was the more likely option. Why wouldn’t they be? After all, they’d been rehearsing for hours, perfecting every beat and angle, and here he was, struggling to keep up.

Kai gritted his teeth and pushed through. Yet, as the choreography grew more demanding, his stomach twisted uncomfortably with every sharp turn. He felt drained, his head starting to spin. The growing pain in his abdomen made it harder to focus. He just wanted to go home.

After arguing with himself for the hundredth time, he turned to the leader during a short break. “Hyung,” he muttered softly, his voice barely above a whisper. “Can you ask the manager if I can leave early today?”

Soobin frowned, immediately sensing something wasn’t right. “What’s wrong?"

“I’m just… too tired.” Kai avoided meeting his eyes.

Before Soobin could respond, Beomgyu sauntered over, overhearing the conversation. “Tired?!” he said, narrowing his eyes. “Do you think we’re not tired too? We’ve all been dancing for hours. Come on, Kai, you can’t just leave because you’re tired. Pull yourself together.”

Kai flinched at the sharpness in Beomgyu’s voice. Before he could reply, Yeonjun stepped in, his tone gentler but firm. “I get that you’re tired, Kai, but Beomgyu’s right. We don’t have time to slack off. Just two more hours, and we’ll be done. You can rest then, okay?” He placed a reassuring hand on Kai’s back, as if to calm him.

Kai glanced at Taehyun, who stayed silent, simply observing the exchange with his usual sharp eyes. Turning back to Soobin, Kai silently pleaded for understanding.

Soobin hesitated for a moment, then placed a hand on Kai’s forehead. “You don’t have a fever,” he said, his voice sympathetic but firm. “And I don’t think the manager will let you off just because you’re tired.”

Reluctantly, Kai nodded and trudged back to practice, his stomach still in knots.

By the time practice ended, Kai was utterly spent. On the ride home, he leaned his head against the cool window, pretending to sleep to avoid conversation. His stomach churned uncomfortably, but he convinced himself it was nothing serious—just exhaustion.

The members, unaware of his state, chattered like usual around him. Beomgyu was the loudest, talking about a new gadget he wanted to buy. “I swear it’s life-changing,” he insisted, his hands moving dramatically. Yeonjun rolled his eyes. “You said the same thing about that waffle maker, and it broke in two weeks.”

Beomgyu gasped in mock offense. “That’s because Soobin-hyung tried to make kimchi pancakes in it!”

“I was experimenting!” Soobin shot back. "And it didn't turn out that bad though?"

Beomgyu made a face, a little bit overreacting, "Not that bad? It was terrible!" And Soobin playfully slapped his arm.

Taehyun chimed in taking Soobin's side cz beomgyu really annoyed the shit out of him earlier, "99% possibility is the waffle maker broke because it couldn’t handle Beomgyu-hyung's 'life-changing’ cooking skills.”

"Yah!"

Kai couldn’t help but smile faintly at their banter, even as he fought the wave of nausea creeping up. His breath hitching as the car bumped on speed breakers.

When they reached the dorms, Kai headed straight to his room, skipping dinner. He barely managed to lie down on the floor before sleep overtook him.

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It was dinner time. Taehyun was setting up the plates, Yeonjun helping him serve food for the members. Soobin was the first one who noticed Kai's absence. “Where’s Kai?” he asked, glancing around the table.

“He went to his room,” Taehyun replied. “Should I check on him?”

Soobin shook his head. “I’ll go.”

He knocked on Kai’s door, but there was no response. “Kai?” he called out, knocking again. When silence greeted him, he slowly opened the door.

The sight of Kai asleep on the floor made him chuckle softly. “Aigoo, our maknae is too cute,” he murmured. But as he stepped closer, his smile faded. Kai’s brows were furrowed, his face pale and damp with sweat.

“Kai-ah,” Soobin said softly, crouching down and patting his shoulder. “Wake up. Taehyun made us dinner.”

Kai whimpered in his sleep, his hand latching onto Soobin’s arm like a lifeline. Soobin’s heart melted at the sight, and he gently stroked Kai’s hair. “Come on, Kai-ah, wake up,” he urged gently.

When Kai finally stirred, his eyes fluttered open, glassy and filled with unshed tears. “Hyung…” he whined weakly.

“Is something wrong, Kai-ah?”

Kai hesitated before whispering, “Stomach hurts.”

Soobin’s heart tightened at the confession. “Is it like a cramping pain or nausea?” he asked softly, brushing stray strands of hair away from Kai’s forehead.

“Both,” Kai admitted, his eyes closing again as he shifted to rest his head on Soobin’s lap. Soobin continued stroking his hair. “Should I get you some water? Maybe it’ll help.”

Kai shook his head faintly. “No… Just wanna lay down.”

“Okay,” Soobin murmured, his voice filled with quiet reassurance. “I’ll stay right here, okay? Just rest.”

Soobin’s fingers moved gently through Kai’s hair, offering the younger boy whatever comfort he could. The rhythmic stroking seemed to help, as Kai’s tense body relaxed ever so slightly. Soobin hoped the soothing motion could ease Kai’s pain or at least distract him. And it was working.

But not long after, Kai’s stomach flipped, a new wave of nausea crashing over him with unbearable force. His eyebrows furrowed deeply as he clutched his stomach, a pained whimper escaping his lips. He felt terrible. He thought staying still and taking deep breaths will help him calm down. But as time passed, the painful, nauseated feeling only worsened.

Suddenly, his entire body tensed, and he jolted upright. “Hyung��” he managed to gasp before darting out of the room, hitting the doorframe on one side in the process.

“Kai!” Soobin called, immediately chasing after him. The other members, still seated at the dining table, exchanged confused glances as they watched the two disappear. Beomgyu tilted his head in confusion, about to make a comment, but stopped when a faint, unmistakable sound met their ears—retching.

Their eyes widened in realization. “He was feeling sick all day,” Taehyun whispered, guilt flickering in his calm expression.

Yeonjun rubbed his face, groaning. “That’s why he wanted to go home earlier. Argh I shouldn't have scolded him.”

In the bathroom, Kai hovered over the toilet, clutching the edge of the porcelain bowl as his body convulsed. The first wave brought up a large stream of half-digested lunch, knocking the air out of him as he coughed violently. The coughs turned into a gag as he gripped the rim of the bowl tightly yet again.

Soobin winced in sympathy, "Let it out, Kai. It's okay, you'll be fine." His hand firmly rubbing the maknae’s back. The other hand rested on Kai’s shoulder, steadying him as the younger boy trembled.

Sweat coated his pale face, his chest heaving as he gasped for air. He gagged again, his stomach lurching violently as he retched into the toilet. The sheer force of it made his entire body shake, and Soobin felt the weight of Kai leaning more heavily onto him.

“Hyung,” Kai whimpered weakly between breaths, his voice barely audible. "It hurts," he sniffled.

“It'll be over soon, Kai-ah. Hold on just a little more. I'm here,” Soobin reassured, his voice steady despite the worry etched across his face. He pressed a bit harder against Kai’s back, offering support as another wave hit.

Kai trembled under the strain, his body visibly weakening as the retching continued. At one point, he began to slump forward, his arms losing their strength. Soobin acted quickly, gently pulling him back by the shoulders and keeping him upright. “Easy,” Soobin whispered, his voice calm but deeply worried. “Lean on me if you need to.”

Kai just nodded faintly but regretted at the next moment as it left a dizzy spell, so couldn't but lean on Soobin with full weight. The dizziness brought another wave of nausea as he gagged again, his stomach spasming painfully as another torrent of vomit spilled into the toilet.

Before he could inhale properly, another gag hit him, his stomach lurching painfully as he heaved into the toilet. The sound was raw, and the force of it made his body jerk forward uncontrollably. Tears welled up in his eyes, spilling down his flushed cheeks as his breaths turned into quiet, shuddering sobs.

Soobin’s heart broke at the sight. “Oh, Kai-ah…” he whispered, his voice trembling slightly. “Hyung is here. I know this feels awful, but you’re doing so well.” Without hesitation, he shifted closer, one arm wrapping around Kai’s shoulders to steady him as the younger boy leaned against him, trembling.

"Do you think you're done?" Soobin asked when Kai was just leaning against him, breathing shallow and no longer gagging. Kai's voice trembled as he answered, "I- I don't know. I feel so awful." Tears spilled from his eyes as he spoke. He was not only feeling sick but guilty because Soobin had to take care of him. "I'm sorry hyung," he cried out.

"Shh, it's okay. No need to apologise. It's not your fault." Soobin whispered as he brushed Kai's sweaty bangs, grabbed tissue papers and wetting it to wipe the younger's face.

At that moment, a shadow appeared in the doorway. Soobin looked up to see Yeonjun standing there, worry etched across his face.

“Is he okay?” Yeonjun asked, his voice quiet but filled with regret.

Soobin met his eyes, understanding the unspoken guilt behind the question. Yeonjun didn’t need to say it—Soobin knew he was kicking himself for being harsh on Kai earlier.

“He’ll be fine,” Soobin replied softly. “Can you grab some water for him?”

Yeonjun nodded immediately and hurried off, leaving Soobin to focus on Kai, who was still slumped over the toilet, exhausted and trembling.

“You did well, Kai,” Soobin whispered, continuing to rub his back. “It’s over now. Just breathe.”

Kai let out a shaky exhale, leaning further into Soobin for support as he closed his eyes, too drained to even respond.

Yeonjun was back with the water. He crouched down beside the duo, "Drink a little bit of water. You'll feel better." Kai's lips trembled as he looked at Yeonjun with teary eyes, "N-no, I'll just throw it back up." Yeonjun's heart sank as he realised how sick Kai was feeling that he was scared to even drink water.

"It's okay. Whenever you're ready." Soobin reassured.

In the end, Soobin had to carry him to bed. Although Kai didn't want to trouble Soobin more, he just let the elder take care of him.

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Also, many many kmoas are assuming that soobin said he had motion sickness so moas wouldn’t be worried and it makes sense but i’m still in shock honestly, first in November 2023 he got into a big scandal bc of misinformation and people were wanted him to go on hiatus, now in November 2024 he’s actually in hiatus and it feels horrible.. mostly because soobin’s the member that updates the most like he’s always posting Selcas and making lives and talking thru weverse dm… Everything just feels so quiet now it’s so sad

I feel the same😢 it was so sudden and unexpected. And how sick he is to not participate in any other year-ending shows? I feel kind of scared. Or maybe it isn't some physical sickness, maybe he is taking a mental break?

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No bc me too, It honestly felt so weird and everything was so sudden I never expected this. Atp I wish they cancel the encore or smt bc they ALL need rest, and based on the interview today I’m sure the members just want to go home too

It’s so frustrating that we literally can’t do anything bc that shit company just dgaf, just the fact that they posted the notice almost 24 hours later and we had the update bc of a fucking Japanese event. Seeing moas write him letters and planning to sing all his lines in the concert just breaks my heart. When I saw that they would have a comeback right after the concert I just knew this wouldn’t end well because that’s just inhumane.

Same😭 I wish they cancel at least some events because they need rest, I want them to be okay, in good physical and mental health. A comeback right after their 'act promise' concert is inhumane already. Plus they had to film, record and learn new choreos for the comeback between the breaks of their concert schedule too, cz so many things need time too right? And their comeback was right after, meaning their concert and preparing for comback overlapped. They are always overworked, that shitty company is leeching off then seriously, it might sound rude but it's true.

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I think we should talk about this. I found some weird similaries in the recent txt interview.

In the interview, Kai didn't look well at all. Beomgyu was constantly shifting on his feets, people do it when they are anxious, worried but don't know what to do. I think it's because he was concerned about kai, he kept glancing at him from time to time, was anxiously shifting on his feets, and even pated his back while heading back, which reminded me of when he patted Kai's back before when Kai was sick on their 1st day of Seoul performance. I felt similarities.

Again, I felt another similarity, you know the live they did when beomgyu was sick and Soobin was rubbing his hand and gave guesture the staff that he couldn't continue anymore? You saw how worried Soobin was that time his eyes showed. I saw the same worried look in Beomgyu's eyes while looking at Kai.

And Yeonjun didn't smile like he usually does, he rather looked like he was about to cry.

Taehyun is a person who doesn't show his emotions much in his expressions. He can hide his emotions really well, like how tired he is, if he's sad or angry, we never know cz he hides so well

And Soobin, poor baby is taking a break from so many activities, he is the same person who never misses a schedule. I can't imagine in how much torment he is in to stay away from so many activities (according to the notice in weverse). We don't even know what happened to him. He needs rest, ofc a break is necessary for him, for all of them actually. His message in weverse, when I was reading it, halfway through, I literally felt like he was leaving idol life. The way he expressed things, is the same way people say goodbye. I'm not joking, I honestly felt that and got so scared. But after reading the whole letter, I felt relieved that he wasn't at least leaving. But then I'm concerned because the things he said that he discussed with a lot with members to take the decision seems like he is in depression and is taking break for metal health. He needs rest, and I hope he rests well. And takes care of himself

I just hope they would all be okay.

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not only Soobin but Kai also looked under the weather at that interview, he was sweating and overall looked sick too, Beomgyu was by his side doing everything he could to help him, Yeonjun looked like he wanted to cry, Taehyun seemed tired too, still pushing himself for their leader

they are all exhausted, burnt out, they need proper rest omg, how bad is it that Soobin can't attend even future schedules? Soobin, the one who takes a lot of vitamins and takes care of his body as best as he can, Soobin who never skipped a schedule? and hybe didn't say anything until the very last minute, they've had concerts, encores, promotions, and then more events it's not enjoyable as a job anymore.

let's all wish for them to be able to rest, that Soobin feels better soon and takes all the time he needs for him to be healthy again, and also for the rest of the members, they really need to gain their strength back.

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Reblogging cz it had some issues. Also I changed the title bcz the previous one was apparently not relevant to the storyline.

Finding My Safe Space

(Regressed, Sick Taehyun)

Tw: angst, panic attack, vomit, *headspace/littlespace

*Headspace/ littlespace: it's a stage when a character who didn't have enough love and care in the childhood suddenly falls into a headspace and feels like a kid when he's too stressed or something triggers it.

Soobin and Taehyun were running some errands in the mall. They shopped necessary goods and discussed the upcoming comeback schedule, promoting and stuff. Everything was going well. Until Taehyun saw a little kid asking his mom to buy him a toy as they were exiting a shop. His eyes glittered. It was a train with rail tracks, that activates with batteries. He wanted that too.

Soobin felt a tug on his sleeves. "What is it Taehyun-ah?"

Taehyun didn't say anything, just kept his eyes fixated on that toy. Soobin shook him a bit. "Hey, Taehyun-ah-"

"Appa!" And Soobin mentally facepalmed at that. Not now please. He didn't want any trouble in the mall. But nonetheless he talked with the little in a gentle voice. "Yes, Taehyunie?"

Taehyun looked at him with puppy eyes, "Wan' that toy." Soobin held his hands tightly since Taehyun could escape at any moment. "Not now." Soobin retorted.

"I wan' it pweaseee," Taehyun pleaded.

Soobin crouched down a little to whisper so that only Taehyun could hear. "We're in the mall, be a good boy, we need to go home, okay?"

"I am bein good boy. I just wan the magic train!" the younger whined and tried to free himself from Soobin's grip as he had expected.

Soobin didn't want to be late, because he had a lot of work to do. Send the supplies home then go to the company for a meeting with the manager. He really didn't have time for all this. Moreover he didn't have enough money on him to buy the toy at that moment. As Soobin was immersed in thought, Taehyun freed himself and ran like a little kitty to where the shopkeeper was showing the other kid the train thing. He stood there and watched the battery-activated-train move along the rail traks with glittery eyes.

"We didn't come here to buy toys, Taehyunie. Let's go home, our members are waiting." he felt Soobin grab his hand and pull him towards the exit, but Taehyun won't budge. "Nooo!" He whined and pouted, "Appa only buy Kai plushies and toy. Taehyunie wants one too!" He looked at Soobin with wattery eyes.

People at the shop were looking at them. Soobin looked around and squeezed little Taehyun's hand a bit hard to warn him about the situation, and whispered, "We're at the mall. Behave."

In response Taehyun only looked at him with eyes brimming with tears, "appa never scowld Kai-ah, only Taehyunie. Why?" His lips quivering.

Soobin was frustrated, he didn't like the attention and glances the people were giving, it'd be a huge problem if fans know Taehyun is a little. Moreover, their new comeback 'Sanctuary' was near, so of course people were head over heels to find spoilers and stalking. So he tightened the grip on Taehyun's hand and dragged him out of the shop. "Owch, hurts." Taehyun whined but the leader didn't even react to it, just dragged him straight out of the mall. Little did he know, his grip was too hard, that was surely gonna leave a bruise.

As soon as they got out of the mall, Soobin hurried to the parking lot and opened the passengers seat door and literally shoved the little inside. Don't even ask how much that hurt Taehyun, not physically, but mentally, his heart was aching. Was he a burden? Unshed tears pooled his eyes as watched his hyung starting the car and start driving, not even looking at him.

Taehyun felt that Soobin hated him. He felt like crying but he had to hold his tears. Because if he cries now, Soobin will hate him more. So he sucked a deep breath and tried to calm down.

Once they were on the highway, Soobin glanced at Taehyun. He was leaning his head on the window seal, eyes closed with a frown on his face. "Taehyuniee, are you okay? Do you feel carsick?" He was asking that because when Taehyun was in his headspace, he usually got carsick.

Taehyun didn't reply. He was awake but decided to keep quiet. Yes, he was definitely feeling carsick but he didn't want to be a burden, so kept quiet. He pretended to sleep as Soobin called him, "Taehyun-ah you okay?"

Not getting a reply, Soobin thought Taehyun was asleep and focused on driving. As Soobin drove towards the dorms, Taehyun only got more nauseous on each turn and bump. Can I really tell appa? Appa already hates Taehyunie, Taehyunie don't wanna be hated more.

He fought the urge to whine to Soobin about how he felt so sick and kept pretending to be asleep. He just wanted to be his appa's good little. No matter how nauseous he felt, he didn't make a sound, just squeezed his eyes tight to cope up with the pain in his stomach.

When Soobin reached home, he shook Taehyun gently to wake him up, "Taehyun-ah, we're home." Little did he know Taehyun was awake the whole time and was waiting so eagerly to hear those words, 'we're home'. That meant he could finally get out of the suffocating car. He opened his eyes and quickly opened the car door to get out of the congested space.

They went inside the dorm as Yeonjun greeted them, and Taehyun literally ran to him, crashing on him with a hug. Yeonjun hugged back giggling at the younger's cuteness, "What's up?" Oh how much he wanted that comfort.

"Taehyunie missed papa."

"Aww is my baby little?" Yeonjun cooed, ruffling his hair. Taehyun was still hugging him, literally latching onto him, "Mnmm", that meant yes.

"Don't spoil him too much, hyung," Soobin's sharp voice cut through. "You don't know what he did at the mall." His voice was full of annoyance, at least that's what Taehyun felt.

Yeonjun caressed his hair, "Really little one? What did you do? Wanna share with papa?"

Soobin again started, harsher this time, "Oh hyung! You don't know how much he embarrassed me in front of so many people. If only you had seen their glances." Taehyun felt his heart clench, he felt much smaller, and insecure. Not to mention he was already feeling extremely nauseous from the car ride earlier.

To put it simply, he felt awful, both physically and mentally. He had never felt so insecure before, he literally shrunk in Yeonjun's hold as the elder was asking him gently, "What did you do baby?"

Taehyun did not answer, he just let go of him and walked over to Kai. Kai was playing with his plushies and toys. He was also in little space. Taehyun just sat quietly beside him and stared. He noticed Kai had more toys and plushies than he did. He felt jealous.

Taehyun noticed it multiple times that Soobin loves Kai more. As if to confirm his thoughts, Soobin started, "He is so troublesome hyung. I wish he was easy to handle like Kai."

He could hear their conversation, Yeonjun was saying, "Don't say like that, Soobin. Taehyun is adorable. Just let him be the kid he wants to be."

"So? Does letting him be the kid he wants to be means bringing us trouble?!" Soobin was really frustrated, it was clear from his tone. He made an exasperated sigh, "I wish he was a bit more sensible."

Taehyun's heart clenched in pain. He didn't realise his favourite appa hated him this much. Tears formed in the corner of his eyes. He felt so insecure, vulnerable, his stomach twisting in knots with anxiety, and the already slightly upset tummy from the previous car ride wasn't helping either.

All of a sudden, he didn't want to care about anything anymore. He just wanted to be a little happy in his prison of sorrows. The big, haunting walls of insecurity and loneliness he couldn't push away. He tried; really tried to get out of the suffocation in his mind.

He thought of focusing on good things. That's why, he took one of Kai's toys in his hands, a small train. It was kind of similar to the one he saw at the store earlier. He quietly played with it, carefully eyeing every single detail.

The toy was nothing fancy, Taehyun just felt so insecure and vulnerable that he wanted to block out the whole world; because he knew no one loved him. That's why he tried to find happiness in the toy in his hands right now, which was also not his. Soobin didn't buy him toys like he did to Kai. His face puffed up with unshed tears he tried so hard to control. He didn't want to break down and prove them he was indeed a pathetic little who deserved to be hated.

"Taehyun-ah!"

Taehyun looked up. It was Soobin.

"Do you know I'm calling for the 5th time right now?"

Taehyun really didn't realise he was being called. He tried to apologise but no words could escape his throat. Was it fear? He gulped. Couldn't utter a word, just stared as if he was frozen. He tried to find love and softness in Soobin's eyes but it only looked more fierce and scary. He didn't even realise he was shaking.

"Why aren't you answering? Is that the manners we taught you?!" Soobin yelled as Taehyun practically flinched. Yeonjun rushed to calm him down, "Soobin-ah, calm down. Why are you scolding him?"

Taehyun just watched in horror with wide eyes as the pit in him stomach grew larger. His heart ached as his breath hitched. He felt so scared.

Soobin totally ignored Yeonjun and asked, "Why did you steal Kai's toy?"

Steal? He didn't steal it. He was just playing with it. Did Kai complain about him stealing the toy?

Why? He felt betrayed.

Yeonjun asked, "wait, really?"

"He stwol it!" Kai pointed at him. He glanced at Kai. Why are you lying Kai? All of a sudden, Soobin grabbed his cheeks. It wasn't gentle like usual, way harsh. "I'm asking you a question!" Taehyun flinched again, eyes widening as his breathing became unstable.

He yanked him as his grip on his face tightened. It hurt. "Can't you talk?!" And that was the limit, Taehyun was so overwhelmed with fear as he felt the air knocked out of him; he wheezed. The toy dropped from his hands as he clutched his chest trying to breathe.

He couldn't breathe.

Soobin's eyes widened, realising what was happening. Before he could do anything, Yeonjun yanked his hand away protectively from Taehyun's face. "Don't touch him!" Yeonjun's eyes flared at him as he protectively wrapped his arms around Taehyun. Gently rubbing his arms and asking him to breathe slowly. Telling him to focus on his voice.

Soobin scooted away and just watched it with a throbbing heart. Was he responsible for this?

He watched as Taehyun gasped for air, clawing his throat. He was crying and whimpering, couldn't utter a single word; he was in too much pan to talk. He felt like dying. Rough memories of his childhood flashed through his mind, sending him chills and waves of nausea. Tears prickled his eyes and made their way flowing down his cheeks.

He couldn't hear anything, none of the comforting words the eldest was offering, he couldn't feel the eldest rubbing back and literally wrapping him in warm hold, guiding his head to his chest and stroking his hair. He couldn't feel any of that. He was trapped in his mind, pain and sorrows;detached from reality.

He choked, trying to breathe as he felt bile rising in the back of his throat. Taehyun lurched forward, putrid liquid mixed with an undigested slurry of breakfast splashed on the floor, some soiling his shirt and pants. Endless stream of tears flowed as he felt his stomach clawing at him. He whimpered as he felt the next wave coming. He gagged again bending forward as Yeonjun swiftly placed a trashcan under his chin. He rubbed the younger's back gently, offering comforting words. "It's okay Taehyun-ah, let it out. You're gonna be okay. I'm here." Although he didn't know the younger could process his words in that situation or not, he caressed him in the gentlest way possible, as if he was a fragile glass that could shatter anytime.

Taehyun coughed and heaved, bringing streams of vomit, he thought he'd pass out. Which he did soon after he had stopped throwing up.

Secured in Yeonjun's hold, he could finally breathe. The control his mind had over his physic fading, finally letting him have a break from the pain.

He was still shuddering and whimpering in his slumber of unconsciousness. Kai was already crying from what he had witnessed. He felt responsible for accusing Taehyun of stealing when he didn't.

Kai just wanted to prank him. It never crossed his mind that the outcome would be this dangerous. Kai was a little who liked to prank because it made him feel relieved from the stress. He didn't have any bad intentions though.

And Soobin on the other hand felt so guilty, he didn't know how he'd face Taehyun once he wakes up. Nonetheless he comforted Kai as the little was crying and helped Yeonjun in cleaning Taehyun up and putting him in bed.

"You know Soobin his psychiatrist said clearly to take care of Taehyun in his headspace gently because his trauma is way worse than Kai's? Yet you kept comparing him to Kai, and the worst thing is you said those words in front of him. He heard you say all that when you are the one he cherished the most in his headspace. Why? Because he felt comfortable with you, but what did you do? He was in headspace because he stressed and you stressed him even more to the point he had a panic attack"

Soobin listened hanging his head low, muttering sorries from time to time. He would surely apologise to Taehyun when he wakes up.

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Should I write a SECOND PART?

[flashymoa]

Finding My Safe Space

(Regressed, Sick Taehyun)

Tw: angst, panic attack, vomit, *headspace/littlespace

*Headspace/ littlespace: it's a stage when a character who didn't have enough love and care in the childhood suddenly falls into a headspace and feels like a kid when he's too stressed or something triggers it.

Soobin and Taehyun were running some errands in the mall. They shopped necessary goods and discussed the upcoming comeback schedule, promoting and stuff. Everything was going well. Until Taehyun saw a little kid asking his mom to buy him a toy as they were exiting a shop. His eyes glittered. It was a train with rail tracks, that activates with batteries. He wanted that too.

Soobin felt a tug on his sleeves. "What is it Taehyun-ah?"

Taehyun didn't say anything, just kept his eyes fixated on that toy. Soobin shook him a bit. "Hey, Taehyun-ah-"

"Appa!" And Soobin mentally facepalmed at that. Not now please. He didn't want any trouble in the mall. But nonetheless he talked with the little in a gentle voice. "Yes, Taehyunie?"

Taehyun looked at him with puppy eyes, "Wan' that toy." Soobin held his hands tightly since Taehyun could escape at any moment. "Not now." Soobin retorted.

"I wan' it pweaseee," Taehyun pleaded.

Soobin crouched down a little to whisper so that only Taehyun could hear. "We're in the mall, be a good boy, we need to go home, okay?"

"I am bein good boy. I just wan the magic train!" the younger whined and tried to free himself from Soobin's grip as he had expected.

Soobin didn't want to be late, because he had a lot of work to do. Send the supplies home then go to the company for a meeting with the manager. He really didn't have time for all this. Moreover he didn't have enough money on him to buy the toy at that moment. As Soobin was immersed in thought, Taehyun freed himself and ran like a little kitty to where the shopkeeper was showing the other kid the train thing. He stood there and watched the battery-activated-train move along the rail traks with glittery eyes.

"We didn't come here to buy toys, Taehyunie. Let's go home, our members are waiting." he felt Soobin grab his hand and pull him towards the exit, but Taehyun won't budge. "Nooo!" He whined and pouted, "Appa only buy Kai plushies and toy. Taehyunie wants one too!" He looked at Soobin with wattery eyes.

People at the shop were looking at them. Soobin looked around and squeezed little Taehyun's hand a bit hard to warn him about the situation, and whispered, "We're at the mall. Behave."

In response Taehyun only looked at him with eyes brimming with tears, "appa never scowld Kai-ah, only Taehyunie. Why?" His lips quivering.

Soobin was frustrated, he didn't like the attention and glances the people were giving, it'd be a huge problem if fans know Taehyun is a little. Moreover, their new comeback 'Sanctuary' was near, so of course people were head over heels to find spoilers and stalking. So he tightened the grip on Taehyun's hand and dragged him out of the shop. "Owch, hurts." Taehyun whined but the leader didn't even react to it, just dragged him straight out of the mall. Little did he know, his grip was too hard, that was surely gonna leave a bruise.

As soon as they got out of the mall, Soobin hurried to the parking lot and opened the passengers seat door and literally shoved the little inside. Don't even ask how much that hurt Taehyun, not physically, but mentally, his heart was aching. Was he a burden? Unshed tears pooled his eyes as watched his hyung starting the car and start driving, not even looking at him.

Taehyun felt that Soobin hated him. He felt like crying but he had to hold his tears. Because if he cries now, Soobin will hate him more. So he sucked a deep breath and tried to calm down.

Once they were on the highway, Soobin glanced at Taehyun. He was leaning his head on the window seal, eyes closed with a frown on his face. "Taehyuniee, are you okay? Do you feel carsick?" He was asking that because when Taehyun was in his headspace, he usually got carsick.

Taehyun didn't reply. He was awake but decided to keep quiet. Yes, he was definitely feeling carsick but he didn't want to be a burden, so kept quiet. He pretended to sleep as Soobin called him, "Taehyun-ah you okay?"

Not getting a reply, Soobin thought Taehyun was asleep and focused on driving. As Soobin drove towards the dorms, Taehyun only got more nauseous on each turn and bump. Can I really tell appa? Appa already hates Taehyunie, Taehyunie don't wanna be hated more.

He fought the urge to whine to Soobin about how he felt so sick and kept pretending to be asleep. He just wanted to be his appa's good little. No matter how nauseous he felt, he didn't make a sound, just squeezed his eyes tight to cope up with the pain in his stomach.

When Soobin reached home, he shook Taehyun gently to wake him up, "Taehyun-ah, we're home." Little did he know Taehyun was awake the whole time and was waiting so eagerly to hear those words, 'we're home'. That meant he could finally get out of the suffocating car. He opened his eyes and quickly opened the car door to get out of the congested space.

They went inside the dorm as Yeonjun greeted them, and Taehyun literally ran to him, crashing on him with a hug. Yeonjun hugged back giggling at the younger's cuteness, "What's up?" Oh how much he wanted that comfort.

"Taehyunie missed papa."

"Aww is my baby little?" Yeonjun cooed, ruffling his hair. Taehyun was still hugging him, literally latching onto him, "Mnmm", that meant yes.

"Don't spoil him too much, hyung," Soobin's sharp voice cut through. "You don't know what he did at the mall." His voice was full of annoyance, at least that's what Taehyun felt.

Yeonjun caressed his hair, "Really little one? What did you do? Wanna share with papa?"

Soobin again started, harsher this time, "Oh hyung! You don't know how much he embarrassed me in front of so many people. If only you had seen their glances." Taehyun felt his heart clench, he felt much smaller, and insecure. Not to mention he was already feeling extremely nauseous from the car ride earlier.

To put it simply, he felt awful, both physically and mentally. He had never felt so insecure before, he literally shrunk in Yeonjun's hold as the elder was asking him gently, "What did you do baby?"

Taehyun did not answer, he just let go of him and walked over to Kai. Kai was playing with his plushies and toys. He was also in little space. Taehyun just sat quietly beside him and stared. He noticed Kai had more toys and plushies than he did. He felt jealous.

Taehyun noticed it multiple times that Soobin loves Kai more. As if to confirm his thoughts, Soobin started, "He is so troublesome hyung. I wish he was easy to handle like Kai."

He could hear their conversation, Yeonjun was saying, "Don't say like that, Soobin. Taehyun is adorable. Just let him be the kid he wants to be."

"So? Does letting him be the kid he wants to be means bringing us trouble?!" Soobin was really frustrated, it was clear from his tone. He made an exasperated sigh, "I wish he was a bit more sensible."

Taehyun's heart clenched in pain. He didn't realise his favourite appa hated him this much. Tears formed in the corner of his eyes. He felt so insecure, vulnerable, his stomach twisting in knots with anxiety, and the already slightly upset tummy from the previous car ride wasn't helping either.

All of a sudden, he didn't want to care about anything anymore. He just wanted to be a little happy in his prison of sorrows. The big, haunting walls of insecurity and loneliness he couldn't push away. He tried; really tried to get out of the suffocation in his mind.

He thought of focusing on good things. That's why, he took one of Kai's toys in his hands, a small train. It was kind of similar to the one he saw at the store earlier. He quietly played with it, carefully eyeing every single detail.

The toy was nothing fancy, Taehyun just felt so insecure and vulnerable that he wanted to block out the whole world; because he knew no one loved him. That's why he tried to find happiness in the toy in his hands right now, which was also not his. Soobin didn't buy him toys like he did to Kai. His face puffed up with unshed tears he tried so hard to control. He didn't want to break down and prove them he was indeed a pathetic little who deserved to be hated.

"Taehyun-ah!"

Taehyun looked up. It was Soobin.

"Do you know I'm calling for the 5th time right now?"

Taehyun really didn't realise he was being called. He tried to apologise but no words could escape his throat. Was it fear? He gulped. Couldn't utter a word, just stared as if he was frozen. He tried to find love and softness in Soobin's eyes but it only looked more fierce and scary. He didn't even realise he was shaking.

"Why aren't you answering? Is that the manners we taught you?!" Soobin yelled as Taehyun practically flinched. Yeonjun rushed to calm him down, "Soobin-ah, calm down. Why are you scolding him?"

Taehyun just watched in horror with wide eyes as the pit in him stomach grew larger. His heart ached as his breath hitched. He felt so scared.

Soobin totally ignored Yeonjun and asked, "Why did you steal Kai's toy?"

Steal? He didn't steal it. He was just playing with it. Did Kai complain about him stealing the toy?

Why? He felt betrayed.

Yeonjun asked, "wait, really?"

"He stwol it!" Kai pointed at him. He glanced at Kai. Why are you lying Kai? All of a sudden, Soobin grabbed his cheeks. It wasn't gentle like usual, way harsh. "I'm asking you a question!" Taehyun flinched again, eyes widening as his breathing became unstable.

He yanked him as his grip on his face tightened. It hurt. "Can't you talk?!" And that was the limit, Taehyun was so overwhelmed with fear as he felt the air knocked out of him; he wheezed. The toy dropped from his hands as he clutched his chest trying to breathe.

He couldn't breathe.

Soobin's eyes widened, realising what was happening. Before he could do anything, Yeonjun yanked his hand away protectively from Taehyun's face. "Don't touch him!" Yeonjun's eyes flared at him as he protectively wrapped his arms around Taehyun. Gently rubbing his arms and asking him to breathe slowly. Telling him to focus on his voice.

Soobin scooted away and just watched it with a throbbing heart. Was he responsible for this?

He watched as Taehyun gasped for air, clawing his throat. He was crying and whimpering, couldn't utter a single word; he was in too much pan to talk. He felt like dying. Rough memories of his childhood flashed through his mind, sending him chills and waves of nausea. Tears prickled his eyes and made their way flowing down his cheeks.

He couldn't hear anything, none of the comforting words the eldest was offering, he couldn't feel the eldest rubbing back and literally wrapping him in warm hold, guiding his head to his chest and stroking his hair. He couldn't feel any of that. He was trapped in his mind, pain and sorrows;detached from reality.

He choked, trying to breathe as he felt bile rising in the back of his throat. Taehyun lurched forward, putrid liquid mixed with an undigested slurry of breakfast splashed on the floor, some soiling his shirt and pants. Endless stream of tears flowed as he felt his stomach clawing at him. He whimpered as he felt the next wave coming. He gagged again bending forward as Yeonjun swiftly placed a trashcan under his chin. He rubbed the younger's back gently, offering comforting words. "It's okay Taehyun-ah, let it out. You're gonna be okay. I'm here." Although he didn't know the younger could process his words in that situation or not, he caressed him in the gentlest way possible, as if he was a fragile glass that could shatter anytime.

Taehyun coughed and heaved, bringing streams of vomit, he thought he'd pass out. Which he did soon after he had stopped throwing up.

Secured in Yeonjun's hold, he could finally breathe. The control his mind had over his physic fading, finally letting him have a break from the pain.

He was still shuddering and whimpering in his slumber of unconsciousness. Kai was already crying from what he had witnessed. He felt responsible for accusing Taehyun of stealing when he didn't.

Kai just wanted to prank him. It never crossed his mind that the outcome would be this dangerous. Kai was a little who liked to prank because it made him feel relieved from the stress. He didn't have any bad intentions though.

And Soobin on the other hand felt so guilty, he didn't know how he'd face Taehyun once he wakes up. Nonetheless he comforted Kai as the little was crying and helped Yeonjun in cleaning Taehyun up and putting him in bed.

"You know Soobin his psychiatrist said clearly to take care of Taehyun in his headspace gently because his trauma is way worse than Kai's? Yet you kept comparing him to Kai, and the worst thing is you said those words in front of him. He heard you say all that when you are the one he cherished the most in his headspace. Why? Because he felt comfortable with you, but what did you do? He was in headspace because he stressed and you stressed him even more to the point he had a panic attack"

Soobin listened hanging his head low, muttering sorries from time to time. He would surely apologise to Taehyun when he wakes up.

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Should I write a SECOND PART?

[flashymoa]

Definitely one of my favourites😭

Found Me - R!Taehyun

tw: vomit & crying followed by lots of fluff

Taehyun was not feeling good. He was drained from just half a day of work after constantly waking up with stomach cramps and needing to use the bathroom. He wasn't sure if he ate something that upset his stomach or if he caught some sort of bug. No one else seemed to be having any troubles and they all ate the exact same things the day before.

Taehyun sighed to himself, resting his head on the wall behind him. The squeaking of Soobin and Yeonjun's shoes shifting along the polished floor made his ears unusually sensitive. He longed to be wrapped up in a cozy blanket after a nice warm shower. It was very chilly in the dance studio and his hoodie wasn't doing its job of keeping him warm. They had all agreed to lower the temperature of the room since they got sweaty from the strenuous activity, but now he was wishing he had objected.

There wasn't anything scheduled for them to do for a couple hours, so they were just messing around. Soobin and Yeonjun were making up stupid dances to entertain themselves and the other two boys had retreated to their phones. Taehyun wasn't interested in doing either. He was focused on the uncomfortable feeling settled in his abdomen and his heavy eyelids.

I want to go home already. My tummy hurts and I feel sick. Hyungies just notice already! He found his thoughts decreasing in vocabulary, subconsciously pouting at himself in the mirror.

Tummy hurts. Why did I think tummy?

"Uh oh."

Beomgyu turned his head towards Taehyun expectantly, waiting for him to continue.

"What?" He asked, after Taehyun blinked at him without another word.

"It's nothing. Do you- Do you think hyung will let me go home? I don't feel good." Taehyun half lied. He couldn't just start rambling about how he was mentally turning into a preschooler when the group hadn't any clue of what that was or why it happened.

He could just feel it within himself. The way his teeth chewed on his bottom lip, the room feeling bigger than before, his toes wiggling in his shoes, and the light haze starting to cloud his mind.

"Well, what's wrong? What's not feeling good?" Beomgyu asked. He could tell something was wrong by the anxious look in Taehyun's owl eyes. Again, it took longer than it should for him to respond.

"My stomach. I was up and down all night because of it, so I'm really tired now, too. I don't know." He added the last part to make it easier to just brush away if Beomgyu didn't take him seriously.

"Oh, sorry I didn't realize. I'm guessing practice made it worse?"

Taehyun nodded, suppressing a whimper from a sudden cramp around his middle.

"C-Can you tell Soobin hyung? 'm going to the bathroom." He said hastily, getting up from the floor and speed walking out the door.

"What was that about?" Huening kai asked.

"Taehyunnie feels sick." Beomgyu mumbled back. "Hey, Soobin hyung! Yah! Stop trying to touch each other's butts!" He called out.

"What do you want Gyu?" Yeonjun chuckled, his hands perched on his hips.

"Somethings wrong with Taehyun. He told me he doesn't feel good and wants to go home. Apparently, he was up most of the night." Beomgyu explained, side eyeing Kai, as he should've noticed his roommate getting up so much.

"Don't look at me! I slept like a corpse and had weird vivid dreams all night." Kai defended with hands up.

"I knew something was up." Soobin murmured. "Where'd he go?"

"Bathroom."

With that, Soobin exited the studio and walked to the mens bathroom. He stood outside the door for a moment, listening for anything out of the ordinary. What was the point in that? If Taehyun was sick he wouldn't be throwing a party in there. Soobin shook his head at himself and pushed the door open. The very first stall was the only one shut, with quiet crying coming from the other side.

"Taehyunnie? Are you okay?" He asked, taking a step closer. The noise stopped abruptly for a second and turned into what sounded like someone pretending they didn't need to catch their breath.

"If you want me gone that's fine, just tell me."

"N-No..."

Soobin's hands fidgeted with anxiety after hearing Taehyun's strained voice.

"Open the door for me, okay?" He encouraged, glancing to the side when another figured entered the space. It was just Yeonjun. He looked to Soobin to confirm if Taehyun was in there.

"Yeonjun hyung is here, too. You don't sound good in there, Taehyun."

Concern grew on Yeonjun's face when he heard Taehyun whine something incoherent and jumbled. It was followed by some shuffling and then sitting on the floor, Taehyun peaked his head around the door and looked up at the two. Unshed tears watered his eyes and his hoodie sleeves were spotted with saliva and vomit near the cuffs.

"Oh, honey." Soobin said sympathetically, sinking to his knees. He pushed Taehyun's hood back and felt the heat radiating from his body.

Taehyun whimpered nervously. He wasn't his normal self anymore, he was still Taehyun, just much smaller and more vulnerable. His big self refused to give into the way his little self wanted to be babied by his hyungs. It would completely blow his cover! But, he felt so awful, it was all he could think about.

"Hey, it's okay. We'll take care of you." Soobin said quietly when he saw Taehyun start to cry.

"Here, you can put my sweatshirt on instead." Yeonjun offered, tugging the fabric over his head.

"Let Binnie take yours off for you."

Taehyun gazed up at Soobin and lifted his arms so his hoodie could be taken off. He shuddered when the cold air hit his arms that were damp with sweat. He made grabby hands to Yeonjun, silently asking for his help. Soobin wiped his eyes and mouth with toilet paper before Yeonjun sacrificed his clothes. The hoodie was a couple sizes too big for Taehyun, but it made him feel much smaller, like a little baby.

"Baby.." He mumbled, putting his thumb in his mouth.

"Baby? I mean, you'll always be our baby." Yeonjun smiled, albeit confused at the random word.

"Mm- Tummy hurts. Wanna go ni' night."

Taehyun was so far gone that he didn't catch the quizzical stares observing him. Yeonjun and Soobin weren't sure how to approach what was happening with their friend. It wasn't everyday that they suddenly acted like a toddler. Well, maybe Kai, but that was just aegyo and his personality. This was different. Taehyun didn't seem fully present.

"Baba.." He whimpered, crawling into Soobin's lap and curling up against him.

"Hi, honey. Let's get you home now. You need your rest, yeah?" Soobin said. He thought the odd behavior was some strange symptom of Taehyun's fever, and he wanted to ask a lot of questions, but he didn't think it would do any good for the time being.

Soobin stood up carefully with Taehyun in his arms, supported on his hip. He suggested that Yeonjun gather the other boys and meet up back at home. Taehyun glued himself to Soobin the entire way back to the dorm, falling in and out of sleep. He grimaced now and then when a new smell passed his nose or his head throbbed a little too hard. Eventually, he woke up from the beeping of their highly secure front door and slid out of Soobin's arm to sit on the floor. He watched Soobin kick off his shoes and stared down helplessly at his laces.

"Need help, Baba." He murmured. Soobin smiled softly and kneeled to help him take off his shoes.

"There you go. Do you want something to eat?"

Taehyun shook his head, his tummy still felt weird and hurt a little bit. Soobin watched him slouch away to his bedroom and sent a text to the others that they were home. He could hear some thumping coming from Taehyun's room and went to investigate. Around the doorway, he saw Taehyun on the floor with his upper body under his bed. A pair of old shoes, some books and storage bins had been pulled out and sat messily beside him.

Taehyun kicked one leg up and made an accomplished squeak. The he pushed himself out from under his bed with a dark blue box about the size of two shoe boxes. He didn't acknowledge Soobin, only sparing him a glance before climbing into his bed. Soobin watched curiously as Taehyun popped the lid off his box. His eyebrows furrowed when the boy held a sippy cup up towards him. It was white with a green lid and had a cute graphic of a zebra, giraffe, and lion on the side.

"Where'd that come from?" He asked curiously. Taehyun pointed bluntly to the box which made Soobin smile.

"No, I meant why do you have that?"

Taehyun pointed to the cup and then himself.

"Juice..." He mumbled, lowering the cup and holding it in his lap.

"O-Okay, uhm I think we still have some. Unless Hyuka secretly chugged the rest of it."

A cute giggle came from Taehyun, as he slowly rocked back and forth with a smile. His special Soobie-hyung didn't say anything mean to him!

"I'll uh, be right back. You should change to something comfy." Soobin said, leaving the room promptly after. He had no idea what he was doing, but concluded that it would all be okay if he followed Tae's lead.

When he returned Taehyun was in the exact same spot, still in his regular clothes. He was shivering and his eyes were all droopy. Soobin had almost forgotten why they came home in the first place. Taehyun seemed to brighten up for a few minutes when they got home, but his energy had clearly diminished.

"Here's your juice." Soobin said softly, crossing the room and sitting down on the edge of Taehyun's bed.

Taehyun took the sippy cup back and held it up to his mouth to bite. Soobin watched curiously until he eventually took a couple small sips. The older got up and grabbed a clean sweatshirt and sweatpants to help him change into.

"Do you need help changing, baby? Is that why you stayed on your bed?" Soobin asked, as he guided the little out of bed.

"Need 'elp." Taehyun repeated. He whimpered when he was stood on two feet and got hit with a bad dizzy spell.

"It's okay. We'll be quick." Soobin reassured. "Arms up, tyunnie." Taehyun was very easy to change and clung to Soobin like a koala bear when they were done.

"Cutie. Would you like watch a movie?"

"Mhmp."

"I take that as a yes?"

"Movie." Taehyun whispered.

Soobin chuckled affectionately and picked Taehyun up into his arms. Like a nervous rabbit, Taehyun burrowed his face into Soobin's shoulder and remained that way until they were sat on the sofa. Soobin kissed his head, draped a soft starry blanket over his back and played with his hair. Taehyun was rarely this cuddly, so he was going to enjoy it while it lasted.

"There's a lot of movies to choose from. Do you have any ideas?" Soobin asked.

"One with kitties." He requested cutely.

"Hmmm kitties you say..." Soobin exaggerated his thinking expression by holding his chin.

"Aristocats? There's also Hello Kitty and The Cat Returns."

"A-istocats." Taehyun picked.

"Sounds good to me."

They cuddled together as the movie played out. About twenty minutes in, Soobin noticed Taehyun squirming around every so often. He suddenly started whimpering and urgently tried to get off of Soobin. He stumbled onto the floor and only took a few steps before collapsing.

"What's wrong?!" Soobin asked, a hint a fear in his worried voice.

Taehyun lurched, starting to heave and gag. Some sort of hidden Dad instincts Soobin didn't know he had kicked in and he snatched Taehyun off the floor and ran with him in his arms to the bathroom. They didn't make it to the toilet, instead Taehyun threw up into the bath tub. He sobbed between each round, his stomach aching and throat burning.

"Oh, I know sweetie. You're okay, Tyunnie. Just breathe, it's okay." Soobin cooed, taking down the shower head and turning on the water.

He avoided spraying Taehyun in the face and aimed the water so it rinsed the mess down the drain. Taehyun continued to cry, using the tub edge as a pillow. Soobin got him to sit up and collected some of the water in his hand to help him clean out his mouth. He felt like a father taking care of his child, he didn't care what mess was made, just that his baby was okay and taken care of.

When the tub was rinsed out Soobin shut off the water and gathered Taehyun in his arms. They sat on the floor together, letting the adrenaline slowly diminish. Taehyun sniffled, no longer sobbing. He was completely worn out from his day. Regressing out of no where was tiring in general, add a fever and tummy bug on top and Taehyun would say he felt like he was going to fall into a coma.

"I'm so sorry you're sick. You'll feel better soon. I told the others to grab some popsicles and medicine to help you feel better." Soobin said, taking Taehyun's mind off of throwing up.

"Baba bed." He murmured. "Tired."

"Honey, why are you calling me baba? I don't mind, I just don't know why you've been acting like this." Soobin asked. He was desperate to know what was going on with him. Taehyun whined and took a minute to gather his thoughts.

"I'm weird, I know it's weird. My mind turns little like-like a kid. It makes me feel better when everythin's too much." Taehyun confessed, breaking off into shoulder shaking sobs. Soobin hugged him closer while he let his words sink in.

"Shhh, it okay. Tell me more, love."

"I can't help it, hyung. I'm sorry! Please don't hate me! Little Taehyunnie needs you!" Taehyun couldn't stop crying. He was overcome with the fear of rejection.

"We'd never hate you. Never! I just need you to explain it a little more, it's okay." Soobin said, guiding Taehyun to rest his head on his shoulder.

"What do you do when you feel like a kid?"

"Borrow Ningies plushies and hide in my bed. If no one's there I watch kid shows all alone a-and wish someone would take care of me." Taehyun let the words tumble past his lips. It was so relieving to finally talk about his secret, but it was just as terrifying.

"I get so lonely and small that I just cry til it all goes away. Everything gets harder to do and more confusing...It's so scary telling you this."

"I know, but I'm so glad you did. It sounds familiar. I think my psychiatrist told me about it when we started going over trauma stuff. It's Age Regressing right?" Soobin spoke softly. Taehyun's heart filled with stars at his words. He knew. His hyung knew! It was like he had been falling for miles and just landed in a strong secure set of arms.

"Mhm."

"Aha, I can see how hard that would be to talk about. You're precious to us, Taehyun, and you always will be. You're never alone. You can always come to me when you feel little." Soobin said lovingly.

He coddled Taehyun for awhile longer, whispering sweet reassurances into his ear and rubbing his back. With the comfort of being taken care of and held, Taehyun quickly grew sleepy again.

"Bed." He murmured. "Tired."

"I'm sure you are. C'mon, you can sleep in my room."

[flashymoa]

I don’t know how to send DMs 😭 is it okay if I tell you everything here?

Go to my profile and look at the top right corner, there will be a total of 4 icons. There is a '+' signed message icon (like the one we see on messenger), click on that and you can dm me. It's also okay if you tell me everything here, but it would be better for me if you dm, I'm asking cz I've never written or thought of writing a snz, and I don't have a kink for sneezes, so I don't read much snz fics, that's why I might need to discuss a few things I might get confused about while writing. It's okay if you say it here tho, I just prefer the other way

[flashymoa]

do you write snz or just emeto? I was just thinking, these days most of the TXT sickfics are ab throwing up and i think I haven’t seen one about allergies smt like that since 2022 😭 Sneezy TXT fics come back 🙏🙏🙏🕯️🕯️🕯️

It's not just snz but as a whole TXT sickfic posts are really less compared to other kpop groups like SVT, SKZ or ATEEZ.

I hadn't thought about writing a snz but you seem like you badly want to read one. So I guess I'll write one. Allergies then? Like pollen allergy. And you can select which member you want to be the sick one, and if you want any specific member to be the sickie's main caretaker. It's better if you dm me and let me know your preferences or any plot you want. And don't worry, even if you dm me, I won't mention your id when I post it since you asked anonymously here.

(just a random pic I wanted to add cz he looked funny and cute at the same time lol)

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your soobin icon is so cute!! loved the pictures you chose <3

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Hey off topic but you need to change your pfp and banner bc people might think you're a bot

There are things like bots here? I didn't know lol. I'll change my pfp then, I just kept it since I thought the pyramid was kinda cute. Thanks for letting me know!

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No More Please- Sick Soobin (ft BTS Jin)

Part 2

Link to Part 1->

Sickie: Soobin

Content: fever, vomit/emeto, fever hallucinations, ignorance, hospitals, lots of angst and fluff, a little bit of BTS caring mainly Jin (this is after summing up all the parts)

A little recap of previous part and let's continue~

"What is your problem seriously, why are you so careless?! Does our time or schedule have no value to you?!! This is not expected from a leader."

Soobin tried so hard to hold back his tears. Nothing was going well. First he didn't feel well, his ears were ringing and now everyone was angry at him. Could it be any worse?

Soobin held back his tears, as he tried to explain. "I'm so sorry, hyung. I felt so sick-" before he could go any futher Yeonjun rolled his eyes and said, "Such a drama queen. Now that you can't do anything properly, you're pretending to be sick. What more stories are you gonna tell? You have fever, you threw up etc etc? Huh?!"

Soobin felt betrayed. Even Taehyun was taken aback at this point. He saw Soobin hanging his head low, shoulders tense the whole time Yeonjun was giving him a lecture. Taehyun couldn't just stand and watch. He turned to Yeonjun, "hyung, please stop. I think you're crossing the limits. Soobin hyung isn't like that."

Of course Yeonjun wasn't buying that. He glared at Taehyun and Taehyun gulped in fear. No one dared to speak over Yeonjun, the eldest. Moreover, Beomgyu was on Yeonjun's side. Kai wasn't present and only Taehyun wanted to argue to defend the leader; and Soobin, well he was just trying to find ways to make the situation better.

Finally, Soobin cut off the silence, "Let's start the practice." No one said anything and the dance practice started. Soobin felt exhausted when the practice hadn't even fully started yet. It was just doing warm-ups. But he felt miserable. His stomach was cramping and he felt heavy. Not to mention he was sweating bullets without even doing much workout. But he pushed himself. Because no one was ready to even listen to him.

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1 hour passed. As much as Soobin wanted, he couldn't ask for a break because he knew exactly what would happen if he did. Everyone would get angry at him again.

Soobin tried, he really tried hard to go on with the flow. But no matter what he did, he kept messing things up. The dance instructor had warned him a few times already. Not to mention Yeonjun and Beomgyu's constant flares. Taehyun didn't glare, his expression was something Soobin couldn't quite make out.

"Soobin what's wrong with you today? I've lost count of how many times you've made mistakes!" their dance instructor yelled.

"I'm sorry, I'll try more." Soobin muttered in a low voice. Yeonjun became even more annoyed at this. "Yah! Can't you even speak properly?!"

"I'm sorry, I'll do better," Soobin repeated himself, speaking clearly this time. Soobin was getting frustrated at himself. Why couldn't he get things right? He felt like crying but he couldn't cry; he could only look at his members like a pathetic, trying to find a little comfort which he couldn't find. His members didn't have any sympathetic or loving gazes towards him at that moment. He felt miserable.

Another few hours passed. Soobin was barely surviving. The music was playing, and he was dancing totally relying on muscle memory. He felt so hot, sticky and heavy. His stomach was aching more than he could withstand without groaning. At one point he felt like passing out, he wanted to at least sit down.

Soobin knew neither his members nor the dance instructor would let him take a break. But his body couldn't take it anymore as he sat down in the middle of the choreo, breathing heavily with eyes closed. He felt like throwing up.

Before anyone could utter a word or yell at him, he spoke up, "I n-need a break. J-just 5 minutes please." He trying his best not to stutter. He didn't want to be labelled again as a drama queen.

"You can't be serious right now Soobin, we just had a break an hour ago!" Yeonjun yelled.

Soobin didn't say anything, he got up and said, "I'll be back." He walked normally while exiting the practice room because he had to act like he was fine. Because everytime he wanted to say he wasn't feeling okay, or showed any signs of weakness, he'd be yelled at. He had no choice but to act normal in front of them.

They were 5 people who trusted each other like family, yet Soobin didn't know why he felt so lonely right now, when he needed their comfort the most. He felt like he was alone, struggling to do things properly.

As soon as he exited the practice room he was limping, clutching his stomach. As he made his way to the bathroom, at one point he didn't know if he could make it to the bathroom anymore. His stomach was churning painfully, his body felt so heavy he thought either he'd throw up on the floor right then or pass out. He took deep breaths to calm down, nothing was working. His world was swirling, even walking straight felt like an extremely hard task.

Soobin finally reached the washroom which he thought he wouldn't be able to make it. As soon as he got himself into a stall, he collapsed in front of the toilet, retching and vomiting violently. He squeezed his eyes and clutched his stomach in pain. He gagged and choked as his eyes widened. He coughed, and heaved again and again. Everything hurt. He started crying at some point.

When he finally finished, he slumped against the wall, closing his eyes, his breathing unstable and shaky. He had no energy left. He was sure he had a fever now, the weird stickiness and chills definitely indicated fever.

Soobin needed help, he wanted to call someone to help him but who? Everyone was mad at him, no one cared. Not a single one of his members cared. He felt so lonely. He thought of calling Kai once but immediately thought against it as the maknae was already sick and resting at home. That's when Soobin heard his phone ringing, 'Yeonjun Hyung' it read.

Should he pick it up?

After arguing with himself a thousand times, he picked it up. Soobin was so weak he didn't even have the energy to say hello or hold the phone to his ears. He put it on speaker and let it fall onto his lap.

Yelling was the first thing he heard. "CHOI SOOBIN! WHERE ARE YOU?! DO YOU KNOW AFTER SAYING 5 MINUTES HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPENT?!! HUH?!" it was Yeonjun. Much expected.

But Soobin didn't expect Beomgyu, who was younger than him, to yell at him too. "HYUNG WHY ARE YOU SO CARELESS? DO YOU EVEN HAVE ANY SHAMNE THAT THE WHOLE GROUP IS LAGGING BEHIND BECAUSE OF YOU?" As bad as Soobin felt because of sickness, he felt even worse to be treated like this by his own members. Endless tears were streaming down his face.

Taehyun was speaking now. They probably put the phone on speaker and now everyone was taking turns in scolding him.

"Hyung are you oka-" Soobin hung up. He didn't want to hear it anymore. He was so sick of being scolded. He didn't even know he was sobbing loudly until someone knocked on the door. He didn't answer, he knew it was Yeonjun. He hugged his knees and buried his head over it. He didn't want to be yelled at again.

Someone pushed open the door as it wasn't locked. Soobin thought it would be one of his angry members. He heard someone gasp. "Omg Soobin! Is that you?"

He felt someone placing their hand on his shoulder but he slapped it right away, sobbing even harder, "N-no m-more Please. No m-more- s-scolds."

He took a shaky breath. He felt a hand being placed on his shoulder again, "Soobin! Listen to me," Soobin slapped it away with all the energy he had, "NO!" He was stuttering badly. "Pl-please s-stop- scolding. I-I c-can't take it an-anymore." He was hyperventilating at this point. All of a sudden, his stomach turned as he lurched forward with gag, vomit pouring on his lap as he couldn't make it to the toilet bowl. He heaved again as Jin held him to keep him away from his own mess which didn't help much since Soobin had already vomited on his pants. "I-I'm s-sorry. I'm so sorry p-please d-don't yell." He was a crying, sobbing mess, traumatized in one word.

Soobin didn't know who the person was but that person didn't scold him, rather handed him with such gentle hands, rubbing his back and telling him it's going to be okay. He wanted warmth and this person's warmth pulled him close, making him relax as he was felt like he was freezing.

It was Jin from BTS. He was shocked to see Soobin like that. But before anything, he needed to help the younger out. He cradled Soobin in his arms, gently stroking his sweaty hair and giving back rubs. He could feel the intense heat rading from the younger, indicating the poor boy had a pretty high fever.

After Jin coaxing Soobin for a while, he had stopped crying but still violently shivering and slurring in a feverish delirium. Jin was so sure Soobin was mistreated either by his members, or the manager and whoever had done this to Soobin, he wasn't going to let them go so easily.

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1688 words.

Karma waiting in the next part🤧

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Today went so bad. Two of my baby bunnies died due to cold, (bunnies are sensitive, can die if you bathe them with cold water) they got wet in the rain and I was out when that happened so I had no idea. Secondly, I have an exam tomorrow, I'm sick, and threw up a few times; my whole body hurts and every time I tried to read nothing was getting into my head. These are the exact same topics I've read and practiced before, and I was just revising but it's like my brain isn't working no matter how hard I tried. Tomorrow's exam is gonna be a mess. I just wanted to share bcz I don't know what to do. I'll go to sleep now