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I think He Xuan and Shen Jiu could have had a situationship.........

They just both have this throughline on always being hungry for more, never being satisfied, taking. Shen Jiu feels he's inherently unlovalble; receiving affection from He Xuan, after he's already been so rough with him (it's a fwb kinky sex type situation) makes him feel secure, like he knows what the condition, the catch is to recieving that affection. He Xuan is also very strong: Shen Jiu doesn't think that he'll ever have the need to choose to abandon Shen Jiu for his own safety (that 'danger' is ostensibly coming from his position in the sect, but actually it's the trauma of Qi-ge abandoning him) - Shen Jiu doesn't think he'd ever be chosen, but if that type of situation never occurs, he's safe. He's allowed to feel safe because He Xuan is strong (que his competency kink?)

Also, Shen Jiu feels understood. Nothing is ever enough for him. Nothing is ever enough for He Xuan, also. At that point in life, he doesn't have anyone else he can confide this to, and he's lonely. Having just one person understand, to an extent, what drive his behaviour, has to be significant. I hc Shen Jiu having made food stashes 'just in case'. He Xuan, who had starved, would get why he does that, even though he can have all the food that he wants, now.

He Xuan himself is also lonely: he's focused on his goal and he tells himself that everything else isn't inportant. But he allows himself this. Shen Jiu is so alive, so present. He's not a ghost, or a demon, but he's just as resentful, just as desperate. He fights for He Xuan's affection, tooth and nail. After he'd become a demon. All the love belongs to the life 'before' - to his family, his bride. Now he exists only to avenge them. He deliberatly reduces himself to that. But there's Shen Jiu, wanting him anyway, just as he is. He can let his scholarly side show - Shen Jiu can keep up. Shen Jiu is never surprised at a new dimention of him: most people on his peak only see one dimention of Shen Jiu, too. He's impressed by his acting: just by the skill, not the usefulness. He Xuan has someone he can take care of, after so long.

I just think they're neat.............. Its not like i wrote a fic about them reconciling............ Who said that thats crazy...........

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Wrote monsterfucking horror porn. It was great and i can actually just do anything forever, huh