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called my sister, peace and love on planet earth

never bringing up politics with my family ever again !

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never bringing up politics with my family ever again !

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wish i didn't get sudden bouts of irrational anxiety cause it really puts a damper on my day :/

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had a deeply enlightening conversation with my mother the other day. we were discussing which would be worse: to have had something awful happen that affects your life and to remember it, or to have had something awful happen that affects your life and you don’t remember. To have trauma with a clear understanding of why, or to have trauma and not know the reason behind it.

I figured it would be worse to not remember. To have something wrong, to have some sort of unaddressed trauma, but to not know why. And she thought it would be worse to remember.

“I wouldn’t want to know” she told me. And like. This just applies to everything in life for her I think. If something bad happens, she doesn’t want to know. And in some way, I get it. Like, if there’s nothing to be done, if there’s nothing you can do to fix it, what’s the point in knowing? But at the same time it just strikes me as. Idk, wrong?

Idk something something prioritizing comfort over knowledge something something ignorance is bliss IDK just something about the whole concept rubs me the wrong way

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i think if i cut all my hair off that would fix me. alas my hair is my number 1 stim toy

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currently being consumed by evil thoughts. what would happen if i substituted the vegetable oil in my brownie recipe with beef tallow

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NOT TO MENTION the way he was talking about medicine being witchcraft??? Like literally he was saying "they were using natural substances to try to hasten the body's natural healing... interrupting God's plan for how the human body heals.... scary stuff. that's why pharmaceutical companies can't be trusted, they're doing witchcraft"

like sorry i missed the memo but when did i get transported to medieval times 😭 literally this SAME GUY. EARLIER THAT DAY. WAS TALKING ABOUT TAKING MEDICINE FOR ACID REFLUX.

MY BROTHER IN CHRIST

YOU ARE BENEFITING FROM MEDICINE RIGHT NOW

how do you even communicate with christian conspiracy theorists without losing your mind. like genuinely i felt like i was the only sane person in the room. they just walk around without using their brains?? and then they have the gall to act like IM the one who's not thinking clearly?? like sorry honey I don't think that just hearing a word will invite demons into my soul or whatever. like genuinely how do you get to this point? i think my main issue was that i was outnumbered (literally 1 person in a group of 9) and they kept switching the goal posts every time i started digging into their idiocy. and every time i used Actual Historical Sources they would counter with some made up bullshit?? all of their arguments were 'well this SOUNDS like THIS THING' like. ok excellent argument why don't you back that up with a source.

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Like this guy was ostensibly a teacher in this group!! You're throwing all this shit out at people who have been primed to listen to you and believe what you have to say!! I'm glad i was there at least, cause while I was the only one openly questioning, i don't think everyone else was buying into it (at least not as much as the guys that were already conspiracy theorists). i don't think i can go back, though. like for the sake of my sanity i don't think i can spent any more time around those people. i think they might just be lost causes. also im a woman so they won't want to listen to me either way!

how do you even communicate with christian conspiracy theorists without losing your mind. like genuinely i felt like i was the only sane person in the room. they just walk around without using their brains?? and then they have the gall to act like IM the one who's not thinking clearly?? like sorry honey I don't think that just hearing a word will invite demons into my soul or whatever. like genuinely how do you get to this point? i think my main issue was that i was outnumbered (literally 1 person in a group of 9) and they kept switching the goal posts every time i started digging into their idiocy. and every time i used Actual Historical Sources they would counter with some made up bullshit?? all of their arguments were 'well this SOUNDS like THIS THING' like. ok excellent argument why don't you back that up with a source.

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conspiracy theorist: "You know that drug store down the road? It was called ABC Spirits. You know why they called it spirits?"

me, still mistakenly under the impression I'm talking to a reasonable adult: "oh i think i read about this once! it was because of the fumes the alcohol gave off while it was being made :)"

conspiracy theorist: *huffing* "well that's what they'll say it was historically, but spiritually it was because they knew that alcohol gave you access to the spirit world"

me: what

how do you even communicate with christian conspiracy theorists without losing your mind. like genuinely i felt like i was the only sane person in the room. they just walk around without using their brains?? and then they have the gall to act like IM the one who's not thinking clearly?? like sorry honey I don't think that just hearing a word will invite demons into my soul or whatever. like genuinely how do you get to this point? i think my main issue was that i was outnumbered (literally 1 person in a group of 9) and they kept switching the goal posts every time i started digging into their idiocy. and every time i used Actual Historical Sources they would counter with some made up bullshit?? all of their arguments were 'well this SOUNDS like THIS THING' like. ok excellent argument why don't you back that up with a source.

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how do you even communicate with christian conspiracy theorists without losing your mind. like genuinely i felt like i was the only sane person in the room. they just walk around without using their brains?? and then they have the gall to act like IM the one who's not thinking clearly?? like sorry honey I don't think that just hearing a word will invite demons into my soul or whatever. like genuinely how do you get to this point? i think my main issue was that i was outnumbered (literally 1 person in a group of 9) and they kept switching the goal posts every time i started digging into their idiocy. and every time i used Actual Historical Sources they would counter with some made up bullshit?? all of their arguments were 'well this SOUNDS like THIS THING' like. ok excellent argument why don't you back that up with a source.

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me, a fool: haha hanging out with the other 20-something’s from church won’t be too bad, they’re nice people :)

*takes -500pts psychic damage before the end of the night*

I am going to end up on the fucking news

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Ok I screamed in my car the entire way home I’m feeling less murderous

I am going to end up on the fucking news

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I am going to end up on the fucking news

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rrrRRRRAAAA I LOVE MY SISTER ❤️❤️🔥🔥🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣

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being forcibly reintroduced to all the things that make me hate going to church

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just solved an interpersonal dilemma via open and honest communication when my first instinct was avoidance and deception, i am growing as a person!!!!!

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anybody else get asked “what’s wrong? you seem upset” and instead of telling the truth (not upset, literally just standing there), you cast around for an answer like “oh I think I’m just tired” or “just missing my friends” or something?

Like, it’s easier to let the other person think they know what’s going on in your head instead of trying to argue that you’re fine, since you know they won’t take your word for it and will just keep asking until they get the answer they want. So you just get ahead of it and lie at the start to avoid the fuss.