findingmyhappyself

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accepting any intuitive advice about how to live someplace with little money and a need to connect with others & nature

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people love a pretty girl

they love seeing a woman smile brightly

“look at her!”

“she’s glowing!”

they love to see her show up

confidently (but poised)

friendly (but not too loud)

vibrantly (but with composure)

they don’t want to see her cry

“she’s too emotional”

“it’s not that serious”

everything taken at face value

but she’s so much more than a face to admire

she’s present even when it’s hard

she’s battling intrusive thoughts

she’s acting out of love even when met with hate

she’s simply living

in a world that constantly tells her she’s

“too much”

or

“not enough”

but maybe the rest of the world

isn’t ready for a love as deep as hers.

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One of the reoccurring stories I’ve been told in my life is that I’m “the problem” — the one that’s too emotional, too energetic, too expressive.

“Whatever her mood is, that’s the mood of the house,” my mom always said when I was young.

But what if I’m not the problem?

What if I trigger those around me because they are so suppressive and out of touch with their own emotions that mine seem completely overwhelming?

I am learning to love myself completely and I am honestly so grateful I get to go through life with such a wide range of emotions.

My life experience is so much more vibrant and vast because of my emotional capacity.

My emotions help me empathize and connect with others.

Yea, maybe it’d feel more consistent with less emotional energy but I am not here for consistency. I am here to experience all that I can in this time space reality.

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I don’t want to human anymore, I want to coastal deer with a little heard

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villains really are just misunderstood and alone in their trauma

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the Grand Canyon is such a magical place

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cheers to nearly two weeks of living in the great wide open

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home for the next 11 days

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sound bath card this week ✨

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📍Desert Botanical Garden

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roadtrip views 🛞

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being a vegetarian is punk

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designated dark sky space, Grand Canyon