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It's fascinating when purists are like, "All I'm finding is CP and incest on AO3! It's a hellhole!"

Like, dude... you know you pretty much curate your own experience on AO3, right? There's no algorithm. There's a good tagging system in place. If you keep finding these fics, I have to wonder what tags you're searching for.

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no Listen kevin is doing the least healing out of everyone andrew goes to therapy he trusts people in his life he confides in neil and neil coped by running and lying and now he’s Staying he’s trying to be honest and to confide in others and letting himself love even jean is going to therapy for his water phobia and is working to trust people and is getting to the point where he can admit what happened to him was awful and he didn’t deserve it but kevin?? kevin doesn’t talk about his feelings Ever the most vulnerable we see him is when he has panic attacks about riko and what does he do? talk to the people around him? NO he chugs vodka and shoves it all down that’s all he does repress repress repress I doubt he’s even vulnerable in therapy yes bee knows the facts of the situation but when I first got into therapy I would give my life history so rehearsed and robotic and detached he can’t acknowledge how the horrible things he went through Affected him part of him still thinks the abuse made sense!!! because it was punishment for not being perfect!!! and he still believes he has to be perfect above all else!!!!

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pro exy players jean and jeremy both in moreau jerseys and people/commentators/press referring to them as "the moreaus" or "jean and jeremy moreau" paps catching candid shots of them. jean with his lips to jeremy's temple, arm around his shoulders. jeremy laughing at something another teammate is saying. both in team jackets with "MOREAU" on the back and it's considerably bigger on him than usual so you just know he's in jean's jacket but what does it matter they're basically interchangeable

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Imagine being JD Vance, who makes such a huge part of his personality being catholic. The pope himself takes time to lecture you on compassion then promptly DIES. The pope uses one of his last hours on earth to tell you that you suck at your religion on EASTER. And then DIES. Anyway RIP Pope Francis

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mingi in off-white fw25 "state of resistance" 3/?

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A bit rushed..I deadass have no thought with art these days..

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A bit rushed..I deadass have no thought with art these days..

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a_us_noom 250407 instagram update 📸

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Me prepared to take this whole fandom on one by one: Kevin Day is not an asshole spoiled alcoholic he’s a traumatized man who uses unhealthy coping mechanisms to get through every day due to his severe ptsd you fucking gremlins.

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a_us_noom 250401 instagram update 📸

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reblog to reassure the next person who reads this that everything is going to be okay and it’s all going to get easier soon

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‼️moderate tgr + rainbow crate bonus content spoilers below‼️

u know sometimes i think about the specificity of aaron and andrew's deal. thinking about what he says in the bonus chapter when aaron says he won't give up katelyn

technically, yes, the deal is nobody except each other. but all of the monsters are exceptions, kevin most of all as the notable first non-family to make the group. it's specifically no partners, a rule andrew gets around by saying he and neil aren't dating (lies) and aaron hides katelyn for the most part by just being 'unofficial', which does work to some extent. but i wonder what actually made them get to this point. what happened that made andrew say no girlfriends at all, if this rule was possibly edited/reinforced the longer they spent in high school together. we know aaron broke that first deal, enough to make andrew resort to (implied) violence in order to keep people away from him, but in the bonus chapter andrew specifically says they were using him.

so. stay with me here but i am going to once again bring back the parallel between jeremy knox and aaron minyard. we know from TGR that the way jeremy handles his 'relationships' is inherently self destructive– he keeps seeing leo after the guy chose BMW over him, he justifies it when he comes back visibly hurt from faser, and he pushes away any attempts to talk through what's happening and why. it's a form of self harm, whether he realises it or not. given what we know about aaron's past, about his reaction to his mother's death, and what andrew tells us in the scene above, i think it's fairly likely that his early relationships could've been similarly toxic/abusive. with that and his mother's abuse and a budding addiction building, we can infer that aaron probably either couldn't identify an abusive relationship when he was in one, or he could and he just didn't care. like i said, it's inherently self destructive. there's a lot more to be said about this with the added context of the time period, toxic masculinity reinforced by the (false) ideas that men couldn't be abused in relationships, and in terms of comparisons, aaron didn't have a lot of healthy structures to look to at that age.

with all that said, i think it recontextualizes the twins' deal a bit. from aaron's perspective it feels like andrew's being controlling just for the sake of being in control, but from andrew's it's much more about protection. initially, yes, it's from his mother, but i think andrew sees the way aaron dates these girls who ruin him, maybe even tries to bring it up once but aaron doesn't care that he's getting hurt, and i think that's part of why andrew continues the deal. he doesn't trust aaron to recognise when he's getting hurt or not, and that's why he keeps him away from katelyn. andrew doesn't know exactly if katelyn's bad for him or not, he doesn't know enough about the two of them to know, but he knows aaron, so he's doing what he thinks he has to in order to keep him safe.

but i think katelyn is the first genuine relationship aaron is in, she's the first person who's actively there for him and puts effort into being with him, and so she shows him how they're supposed to work, how relationships feel when somebody loves you. that's why aaron fights so hard for her.

so, when they break the deal, that's not andrew deciding katelyn can be trusted, it's aaron asking andrew to trust him.

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Sorry if this is too kinky but can you hold my hand and tell me i mean a lot to you.

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i am not the bigger person. die immediately

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When you’re in the middle of a fic and realise you’ve missed a very critical tag