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Pick Up the Phone

Pick Up the Phone

FRIDAY 2:36 A.M TO: BAE you must forget who I am or maybe you think I was lying I promised you’d never catch me crying not over you I’m no fool I’m no damsel in distress, missing her boo if you can ignore me, then I can too probably better than you you’ll be begging and pleading for me soon and I won’t answer I won’t come running you think you’re hurting me over small nothings it was never…

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Decisions

if you think about someone hard enough do they think about you? questions I ask myself whenever I can’t process were through are you sure? don’t you miss when it was just us? full of love, full of lust it was worth it once upon a time but I guess that all stopped once I couldn’t decide once you couldn’t rely on me once I couldn’t decide if you were enough for me it wasn’t as simple as you wanted…

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"All Grown Up" Excerpt...

“All Grown Up” Excerpt…

Hi guys! So, I’ve been really busy lately but in all the chaos I managed to finish my first novel! It’ll be a couple more months before everything is finalized but because I’m so excited, I’m realeasing an excerpt today. Below is where it all starts. I hope you all enjoy reading, as much as I enjoyed writing this. Thanks for the support thus far💜 (more…)

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All Grown Up, Excerpt...

First look inside new novel, "All Grown Up" by M.Kay.

Hello all! I’m excited to announce that I’m preparing to release my second book, which happens to be my very first novel! The title is “All Grown Up” and it follows a girl who moves to Atlanta for school. She has plenty and plenty of bumps along the road but more will be revealed closer to the book dropping. Today though, I’m releasing a chapter! I’m excited for you all to read, and I hope you…

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You aren't ok. But you will be...

You aren’t ok. But you will be…

It’s going to be ok. I know you’re lost. I know you don’t know how to do this anymore. I know you’ve lost your light, your direction. You want to be inspired, you want motivation. I know you feel like living is pointless. I know you’re thinking of death as an escape. “We all die anyway” is what you’re thinking right? You want to see if all the hype is real. You want to see if God is really there,…

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Say You Love Me

I never understood how two people who seemed so perfect for each other could leave one another. Love is a bunch of things, but I’ve learned that it’s mostly sacrifice. What happens when one person isn’t willing to let go of themselves enough in order for love to work? Is it fair to stay or to leave? Feel free to leave your comments below. I’m really interested to hear others thoughts…  In the…

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UNAPOLOGETIC

Listen, and listen to me well. If you think that you’re the shit: BE THE SHIT. Proudly. Lately, I’ve struggled with identity, self-worth, things like that. For the longest, I really felt like I wasn’t enough. I found myself changing for people. For example, I am not a big church goer. I grew up in church, as it was NOT a choice given to me by my grandparens. I was there seemed like 5 days out of…

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Table Read

Table Read...

why can’t I speak with so much to say looking at you for you to only look away pleading with you only wanting to be heard but now I’m staring at this table, struggling to find the words or maybe I have the words but I don’t know what they mean or how to express them without making you mean but to say that would cause you to burst at the seams you get so angry when you think that I’m blaming and…

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New Project: Journals

It is currently 2:12 AM. I’m in my bed, watching Dexter’s Laboratory. (Don’t ask). Anyway, I’m up working on my website. I was thinking to myself about the direction that I want to take Perks because I haven’t been as on top of it as I would like to be. I want this to be authentic. I want to write what I know for a fact other young girls feel, how I feel. So, I went looking for this old journal…

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Life After: Spelman

At the very last minute of my senior year in high school, I was accepted into the Illustrious Spelman College. I hadn’t done my research but I was excited because I had been lazy with applying to schools and this came right on time. I didn’t have to leave Atlanta or my family. It felt like the right choice at the time. At a later date, I realized it was not the right choice. Spelman is a great…

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3 years later 

So, back in 2013 I found the love of my life. I had learned to let go of the past and be optimistic about the future. I was strong, in a way everyone should have to be. But things change, and life goes on. Here’s an update.  First things first. I’ve been fighting an uphill battle since that day for someone. You know how you hold out hope for something? You know how no matter how bad something…

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December 22nd: 3 Years Later 

So, back in 2013 I found the love of my life. I had learned to let go of the past and be optimistic about the future. I was strong, in a way everyone should have to be. But things change, and life goes on. Here’s an update on where we are, 3 years after I fell head over heels.  First things first. I’ve been fighting an uphill battle since that day for someone who was never mines. You know how you…

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"Personal" LIVE STREAM!

“Personal” LIVE STREAM!

BEFORE I BEGIN, I just want to start by apologizing for my tardiness to my own party, lol. I realize that it has been awhile BUT I come bearing gifts. As some of you know, I published my first book. Yay, right? But yes, it is a book of my most intimate poems that do mean a lot to me. The name of it is “Personal”. It’s my journey over the past couple of years, revolving around one particular…

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Roller coaster 

“H.I.” I hate I gave so much  I hate I’m questioning trust all the while I lust for him like he’s the last thing on earth  I yearn for him as if he validates my worth  In every way. With every second, and every day that passes  He’s all that I can imagine, for him I’m nothing like the molasses  That I pour, for anyone else who knocks at my door Because it’s not him. That’s not him bringing me to…

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Know yourself

Know yourself... New post! #ThePerkofMe

Something that I feel is serious but never really talked about is our value in relationships. “Am I enough?” is something I find myself asking on multiple occasions. I’m not sure if it’s a jealousy thing, I feel that it deals more with self-esteem. It comes off as such a simple question, but it really isn’t. We drive ourselves crazy trying to figure out what we could do to make our significant…

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One and Only

New Post!!

Alone in a relationship with every negative thought possible running through your head. Ever been in the position where a conversation needs to be had but you can’t bring yourself to do it? You feel like saying anything will do more damage than good so you leave it alone because you’re in love. You act as if everything is okay when it’s now. I’ve been there. I have and the situation eats and eats…