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I thot i culd do better

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Fang: ohhh so you think your turning into a erase . Aree ohh noo uhmm what do you want me to do

Max (suicidal):

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Sometimes my old art here gets notes and i scream and cry and throw up so Nothings changed much

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So fax core

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Max hunched over the bathroom sink staring into the mirror I am straight I. Am straight. I am.

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Fearing for my life

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The reason max 2 n Maya are mentally well I'd bc they literally don't have a fang

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Miss when our biggest problem was putting one of angels hand wash plushie into the washing machine

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Your interpretation of Jeb is honestly so interesting (and such a guy) it's hard to see him become such a terror/emotional manipulator to Max. How do you think he got to that point in deciding to do All That? (Also do you have anything on Ari and Jeb beabebabbebabh 🥹) - faxness

thank you for your interest in my jeb i appreciate your question hehe

part of the problem is that i have perhaps painted too starry a picture of my jeb on this blog LOL. i find him comical and a bit silly at younger ages which makes it more fun for me to post about than The Horrors. and a lot of what i spend time writing and considering in my free time is the beginning of my prequel about him which is set when he's 15 and just kind of Some Kid. him at younger college age is also just kind of a guy. so yes.. they are more fun for me to draw pictures of etc etc.

but a lot of jeb's "corruption arc" ( is that how you use that phrase ? ) happens while he's in graduate school/an intern at itex, in his mid~later 20s. jeb is complicated bc there are things wrong with him that sort of... move forward this change in him tho those traits by themself do not a bad person make ( AT ALL ). namely, he's an alcoholic, he's incredibly isolated from other people, he has paranoia issues, and he dissociates A Lot.

the main driving force of my jeb is that his sister clyde, who he was very close to before she died when they were 16, died due to medical malpractice, lack of medical knowledge abt her condition, and inability to afford medical treatment. this death fucked up jeb irreparably for life... like... his brain soup was just permanently altered after that. [ dissociation, depression, maladaptive daydreaming, etc etc ]. for this reason, jeb starts pursuing an interest in genetics, the medical field, chronic and terminal illness, etc. he's a very smart guy. he gets super into that sort of thing from a young age.

i think what makes jeb ( or i guess my jeb ) interesting, is that at first, and then for most of the series, he thinks he's doing good. from his perspective he's doing the best for max that he can given the circumstances. he's improving medical and genetic research so that nobody has to go through what he went through. he's creating people that can not only survive an illness, but an apocalypse. he's helping to save the human race. he's mentoring their savior. its a HUGE case of a snowball that just gets bigger and bigger until he doesn't have control of it or his own perceptions any longer.

i think its important to add the perspective that a lot of manipulative or abusive people don't consider themselves to be that, and that's how jeb is. he doesn't necessarily consider himself the best father in the world. but he does think he's doing the best by max that's possible given the circumstances, because he prioritizes the world and his research over her life and self actualization. i think he's conscious of that. sort of a jeopardize one person to save everyone situation.

by the time jeb is in his early 30s and he's married to my oc dex who's ari's mom, and ari is born, he isn't necessarily at full evil mode yet, but he's on what i like to call auto pilot. he has very practiced things he does every day, every week. he goes to work. he comes home. he eats. he drinks. he goes to work. he spaces out. he does what he's told. he gets lost in the dissociation and monotony and overtime, being surrounded by other people who's morals are kind of fucked, he loses sight of himself. then it just gets worse, and worse, and he does more and more things he would never have thought himself capable of when he was younger.

but yeah TLDR; jeb thinks he is coming from a place of dedication and morality but he REALLY isn't and then he loses sight of where he was started and spirals into the sort of man who can do the things he's done. he's a tragic character bc he can't even see all of the devastation he's causing, and when he can see it, he says "oh well, that's necessary to the greater good". max didn't need him to care for the greater good, she needed him to be her dad.

interesting point that i will not extrapolate on bc i am writing too much: jeb didn't plan on becoming a parent ever, he had bad parents, this effects his parenting style

jeb and ari stuff under the cut sorry i am rambling lmfao

jeb and ari are complicated and irritating to my brain because in endeavoring to fix their storyline i have trouble keeping it close to canon. [ like i think him being turned into an eraser doesn't make sense and jeb would do/allow much different experiments that still fucked him up but nonetheless were not You Are A Werewolf ] [ or i think changing ari's age would be helpful to making things make more sense, but i like him being 7, but if he stays 7 then like... canon is just insane you know lol. he doesn't act 7 ] [ its confusing. and i cant figure out how to fix it, anyways-- ]

i think rewriting it to make more sense and be more poignant would require a huge change in plot which is honestly just something i don't want to do or endeavor to work that hard on bc i like for the original spirit / vaguely same plot of the books to remain.

but, loosely, where i stand now is that ari lives with jeb and dex for the first 3 years of his life, and jeb has gotten in more of a paranoid spiral about apocalypse, and he feels he needs to sequester his son away from the world at large, and help keep him safe. jeb and dex have a fucked up ass marriage so he's basically like "guess she'll die in the apocalypse. welp. there's other women." LASKOHDKLASHD. anyways he takes ari and sort of wipes traces of them off the face of the earth and dex is left to her grief.

the best way i know how to rectify the extremely poor writing of ari is to:

he's older but still younger than max, perhaps max is also older ??? man idk....

he has been sequestered by jeb most of his childhood and just sort of thinks that's normal

ari is found to have lupus like clyde ( when he’s a teen ? )

jeb freaks out about this even tho medical stuff is extremely way more advanced and really ari's life isn't in danger at all

he puts a go ahead on experimental testing on ari, but not eraser testing, just normal medical shit

he does the shit with the flock where he gets them away from the school

jeb's agreement is twisted and ari is eraser-fied in his absence

its not great. but it's where i stand now bc i am stumped on the topic of them LMAO.

but regarding jeb and ari's father son dynamic, i generally stick to the way ari feels toward jeb in canon [ abandoned, forgotten, etc etc ], though i think jeb wouldn't ignore him as much as he does in canon.

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When she died my life was ruined

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Max icon on discord and this is how I flop...

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Literally

The maximum ride manga is certainly something that exists and I'm GRATEFUL. Bc I get to look at max images when I'm mentally ill Abt her . And sometimes the artist makes her cute ok. Like she's cute. She's white but I can't forgive her. (Untrue

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The maximum ride manga is certainly something that exists and I'm GRATEFUL. Bc I get to look at max images when I'm mentally ill Abt her . And sometimes the artist makes her cute ok. Like she's cute. She's white but I can't forgive her. (Untrue

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My only hawk opinion is that angel should have raised hawk to continue the dreaded raised by someone mentally ill cycle started by jeb

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As much as I love Maya and max 2 and have fallen for Dylan. Clones. As just like a concept in Mr are soooooo. Stupid. They say time and time again that Max is some special chosen one and the flock is meant to save the world and their irreplaceable except no their not! Bc there are literally clones of all of them! Mentioned once and then thrown away forever! Angel, arguably the unique bc of her psychic ability. HAS A CLONE. UR TELLING ME THERES ANOTHER FOUR YR OLD W PSYCHIC POWERS IS RUNNING AROUND??? UNSUPERVISED? AND WE ARENT GONNA DO ANYTHING SBT IT??

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Dylan has his brain literally rewired and programed to like max so he gets this flood of chemicals every time he looks at her against his will and he's utterly confused by all of this and .Max is trying to kill him with his mind