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Craving for this view

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Ibn al-Qayyim رحمه الله said:

‎“Whoever knows himself well, would keep himself busy reforming himself instead of talking about the faults of others.

‎Whoever knows his Lord, would keep himself busy trying to please Him instead of trying to please himself.”

‎[al-Fawā’id Pg.90]

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ugh why must I be always so repulsed by my own vulnerability but I find it very moving and impressive if other people are vulnerable with me????

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Can I please just sit on the edge of a crescent moon like once in my life

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“It’s 2025. Another year has passed how many more will you have? What have you done to please Allah? Every passing day is a step closer to your death. Reflect, repent, and turn back to Allah.”

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@sandra__faraway

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I’d like to go on a trip.. somewhere far, alone.. for a while.

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Among the ad’iyah of the Messenger ﷺ:

اللَّهُمَّ أَنْجِ الْمُسْتَضْعَفِينَ مِنَ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ

Allāhumma anji al-mustad’afīna mina al-muminīn

“O Allāh! Save the weak and oppressed among the Believers.”

[Sahīh Al-Bukhāri 6393]

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Every tedious or seemingly insignificant moment in your day can be an opportunity to practice patience, or presence, or discipline. Everything can teach you something, if you allow it to.

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O Allah, adorn my life with your love and satisfaction.

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"Knowledge is light"

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I am so done. Really. Of being someone that cries so easily. I can’t even begin to express how frustrating and humiliating it is to not be able to get through NORMAL life things/situations and not fight back tears only to fail in doing so. It is DRAINING. The physical and mental effort to catch it in my throat, to not be seen, to refocus on the task at hand, the constant apologising and having to attempt to explain myself - how EMBARRASSING. And then the frustration that comes with it - why am I like this? I literally want to punch myself in the face. Which only triggers more tears. It’s an endless cycle fgs. I thought I was beginning to get a better grasp on it but recent events tell otherwise - I don’t know why. They say it’s good to cry - it’s a release. If that’s the case I must be broken because in all of these situations all I’m left with is residual anger at myself. I’m really sick of it, I wish there was a switch. A permanent one.

It is so odd I can’t even expect anyone to be understanding of it. I don’t even understand it myself. Where almost any negative emotion can trigger me, mostly though it’s anxiety, nerves, embarrassment, shame and anger/frustration. Why does everything feel so intense? Why are some of the simplest things such a battle? Especially when you strive to be someone who’s resilient in life and then you have this… where you just appear as a cry baby. Weak. Sensitive. Too emotional. Ahh it pisses me off. Of course I’m in tears as I write this crap.

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Yesterday, I was overwhelmed by the feelings of being an underachiever at this stage of my life.

Today, I'm overwhelmed by the fear of what lies in the grave. The squeezing, the darkness, the horrors.

May Allah ease our affairs in this world and make our graves a pleasant abode

Ameen ya Rabb

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When your hyper-independence leads you to make dumb decisions because you don’t think to consult anyone because even communal things are yours to sort and now you gotta fix your mess 😭

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