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"I believe in you"

Shinsou x fem!reader from the general studies course

summary: pre-exam time, fluff, support, like a pre-relationship wc: 1,2k

author note: I wrote this a few months ago while preparing for one of my exams, and I fully understand the nerves of the main character (everything turned out well in the end, by the way). And I needed something good, that's why this text was made.

all pics in this post were taken from the pinterest

Shinsou is not used to the complete silence in your room. There was always something playing in the background, but today, it's like he got the wrong dorm. There was nothing to hear except the steady tapping of a pencil on the edge of the table. Shinsou smoothly closed the door and crept behind you. There were a lot of open notebooks on your desk and several sheets of paper completely covered with notes.

Yep, you warned him that the general studies course was in the middle of the exam week before the holidays. Your class wasn't sent for internships after, and you weren't going to stay in the dorm because you chose to go to your family this year. This week, or rather the rest of it, was your last opportunity to meet each other before you left. Shinsou understood that you were unlikely to spend much time together, because you were concerned about high scores and ranking.

But his only desire was just to rest. He was embarrassed to admit it, but he also wanted to look at you for an extra couple of hours, to discuss the latest gossip with you. He was always warm with you.

He got to your bed and settled on the edge of it. He had absolutely nothing to occupy himself with, but he stubbornly searched for something interesting on his phone.

"I don't think it's going to be really fun today," Shinsou slowly looked up from his phone and met your tired gaze.

You've definitely been preparing for several hours – fatigue was imprinted on your face, and your eyes barely kept open. You put the pencil aside and rested your head on a palm, carefully examining Shinsou. He looked tired 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, so it was impossible to understand whether the preparation for the hero tests affected him or not.

"I'm not here for fun," he shrugged, putting down his phone. "I'm here for you. Do what you need to, I'll just sit here quietly. As always."

"As always." You nodded in agreement, taking one last look at him, and returned to your studies.

In fact, the upcoming exam wasn't that difficult, it was your favourite subject, by the way. But the inner anxiety wouldn't stop, and you were afraid of just failing. You was afraid of not meeting expectations, of being at the bottom of the ranking again, of fighting for tenth points again. Again. Over and over. You should have continued to lead this useless race further in order to train your not-so-bright quirk. To stay in school. And not to appear weaker than others too.

You realized that you were clutching your hands too tightly on the notebook only when Shinsou carefully covered them with his own. He knew about your bouts of overthinking, witnessed them much more often than you would like. And he assumed that they might get you again. Especially in such a difficult time.

You slowly let go of the notebook. Shinso continued to squeeze your hands in his, not even paying attention to where he put the notebook. Stroking the knuckles of your gradually weakening hands with his thumbs, he looked everywhere but at you. You could see the slight blush on his cheeks even in the dimness of the room.

When he finally looked up at you, there was no trace of his previous nervousness. You looked up at him gratefully. A quick smile crossed his face, and he slowly released your hands. Something like embarrassment could be discerned in his gestures as he reached for his own neck.

"You're the smartest of them all," he awkwardly waved his hand to the side, alluding to your classmates in the neighboring rooms. He couldn't have known what you were thinking, but he still saw right through you.

"I know, thanks. But it doesn't make me feel any less afraid."

"I believe in you and your powers," he said it often. And only now you truly understand what he means.

You gratefully poked the top of your head somewhere in his stomach. You could have stayed like this forever, but you knew that there were still very long night of your studying. Shinsou timidly stretched out his arms, clasping your shoulders. In an old t–shirt, disheveled, sleepy, – you were more valuable to him than anything. He squeezed you into him, feeling you respond with the same tight hug.

You had to spend the rest of the night in the same silence, occasionally interrupted by the soft snuffling. Shinsou passed out literally half an hour after your sudden hug, and you felt sorry to wake him up. No matter how much he wanted to appear as a strong hero, he was still a human. He had constant trouble sleeping, which caused bruises under his eyes, and he also thought too much and ran forward with too much effort. He squeezed himself out by training, constantly honing his skills, and poring over books just to keep up with his cool classmates. You knew that. You knew, and you couldn't be mad at him for that. Because you were like copies of each other.

In the dead of night, you pushed back from the table and froze, watching the calm expression on Shinsou's face. You carefully covered him with a blanket, pulled his unusually drooping hair away from his eyes. He was so… strange and familiar at the same time.

Falling asleep at the table and waking up in bed is not the first time such a miracle has happened to you. You looked around, looking for the alarm clock that had woken you up. There were literally a few hours left before the exam, and you decided to get up early to repeat difficult topics.

There was a purple sticker on the notebook you left open. One of that you kept in a box on the edge of your desk in case you had any brilliant ideas to write down. There was something written on it in Shinsou's uneven, cursory handwriting that made you blush at first and then laugh stupidly:

"You really are the smartest person. In the classroom or at school, it doesn't matter. You're amazing. Your knowledge is much more than this exam. I don't know anyone who can match your intelligence. Believe in yourself because I believe in you. You can handle it."

For some reason you wanted to believe that Shinsou was right. You ran your fingers over the piece of paper and carefully put it on the table by the bed, returning to the revising. Maybe Shinsou was right. There was really nothing to worry about. Not when you had such support behind your back.

Not when you were so carefully cared for.

Shinsou didn't need to know that you weren't sleeping when he gently carried you from the table to bed. And even more so, he should not have known that you felt the touch of his cold lips on your forehead in an innocent, weak kiss before he turned off lamp and slipped out of the room, closing the door as quietly as possible. It wasn't worth it yet.

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special thankyou to kaz brekker and inej ghafa for helping me survive and for getting me through quite literally everything in one way or another. ilysm guys you mean the world to me

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The saddest thing I've ever read is Zoya growing flowers in memory of every friend who died. and the fact that she doesn't have enough space. she doesn't have enough space, she's let go of so many, she's lost so many, it's unbearable. but she's still the strongest girl, the strongest queen.

I naturally sobbed as I read this paragraph about every flower for every person, although nothing in the 7 books about Grishavers had ever touched me so much before (there was probably something else, but I don't remember)

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seventeen and nineteen

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found family

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Something about Matthias saying Kaz would drag Inej back from the depths of hell if he had to then looking at her on Vellgeluk like Orpheus looked back at Eurydice and then getting her back after Van Eck kidnapped her. Something about an Orpheus variant finally succeeding.

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Ofc he's fictional because something so beautiful can not be real

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being attached to characters that no one else cares about is so embarrassing wtf do you mean i’m obsessed with harshaw shadow and bone?

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i miss him. a lot

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THE SADDEST mha line ever existed

someone pls get him another one please-

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3rd hero film is awesome!! Idk it’s just a masterpiece of art, action, fighting scenes and concentrations of favorite characters. the previous films looked long, tedious, and not that interesting, but this one surpassed all expectations.

yeah, it may seem that the centrality on Midoriya is extreme here, but, in fact, we were shown everyone – Hawks, Ochako, Denki, Bakugou and Shoto, all the other guys – all their important contributions to the battle and to the final

and my wonderful Rody!!! will miss him very, very much in other episodes, because he is a very interesting character with his past, with his jokes and the slightest quirk

I like what happens in their relationship with Deku during the whole movie (hooray psychologist-Deku, I missed you)

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dude’s favourite fictional characters are definitely spider-man and nightcrawler

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very hard to realize that mha is about to end, and I've become attached to it all the time I've been watching.

I've been delaying the last two seasons, watching and rewatching movies and stuff, and trying not to think that all this really has an end.

have a big list of things that I want to watch too, but mha just got into my brain and won't come out. I like the setting, the characters, the atmosphere and... huuuuh I don’t want to finish it, but at the same time, I want to know how it ends. such is the paradox.

I read endless fanfiction and smaus here and prefer to postpone seasons 6 and 7… good for me, Idk…

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I like that there are a lot of variations of couples in the mha, everyone dodges as best they can and find light feelings in the relationship between anyone. it's really very nice!!

I usually pay attention to other things, but in the last few episodes (and after this opening) I very often look at Kirishima x Mina

and them!!!

I love how they match up, how they relate to each other, how friendly they are. and the fact that Mina came up with a new technique, inspired by Kirishima’s quirk, is just- out of words- so sweeeeet

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shinbaku request ♡ ´･ᴗ･ `♡

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