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Note to self: Don’t f4st on the first day of your period.

This may be tmi but…

I was gonna do my first 24h f4st in a long time just because I was feeling super motivated.

But in the morning, I proceeded to faint like three times…knocked my head against a table as I over dramatically fell to the ground and now I have a huge bruise on my forehead. Great.

I was sweating like crazy (in the middle of winter with no pants) and the cramps were unbearable. I was in so much pain I couldn’t stand up or I’d faint again. I called my dad…then puked while on call with him. Fuuuuuuck it’s almost comical 😭

I literally thought I was gonna die. I kept thinking: not like this not like this not like this.

Anyways, he called my aunt to check on me, and as soon as she came, I WAS TOTALLY FINE. It’s so embarrassing. I felt so bad for making her come for nothing but it was at least nice catching up with her.

She brought me coke and soletti and that was the end of my 24h f4st 🥲

My mom just brought me a hot water bottle that she’s had since she was young and it’s the cutest thing ever.

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Sometimes the best motivation is being a horrible person and saying you deserve this

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i get so dizzy when i stand..its addicting

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The only reason you don't have what you want is because you didn't really want it.

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Why do I keep using recovery as an excuse to settle for mediocrity

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Sketching to curb the hunger>

ana art💗 (by me!)

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Drawing th1n$p0 genuinely helps me from constantly thinking about how hungry I am rn😫

Thank you to everyone who sent their fav th1n$p0! I hope I did them justice. (excuse the missing feet/hands lol)

I’ll probably be doing this a lot so I’d greatly appreciate more pics to draw :))

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Adding to this “You keep saying you’ll lose weight, but all you‘ve lost is time.”

Cuts deep.

Nah cuz “time will pass anyway, so u choose either be fat or skinny at the end of the year” goes harrddddd

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My digital scale said I was 52.6kg, which is literally impossible as I was ~56kg the day before.

I tripple checked before finally trying with our family’s physical scale.

I was in fact still 56kg…it’s ancient but reliable :’)

It sucks though cause I just bought the digital one a week ago😭

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Drawing th1nsp0 instead of eating>>>>>>

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i had no idea nora fawn was this tiny... and the way no one seems to think she looks disordered is triggering as fuck

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I’VE LOST THESE POUNDS BEFORE

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Looking in the mirror and seeing the potential…

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I’m going to leave my teen years without ever reaching my ugw.

Lil me thought she’d be over this by now haha…

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Threw some h4ndsp0 in there as well

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weight loss is simple, not easy.