f4cel3ss-qu1nn

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

25/08/2008

i'm never going to get better, am i?

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

20/08/2008

sorry for all the paranoiaposting yesterday i was just feeling really weird. i woke up, panicked and wrote all that, then passed out instantly. i went to my mum screaming about it as well, so today she’s taking me to a doctor. im in the car right now

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

19/08/2008

this isnt my body this isnt my brain this isnt me this isnt me this isnt me this isnt me

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

19/08/2008

NO ONE IS LISTENING

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

19/08/2008

hes going to kill me

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

19/08/2008

ITS HIM ITS HIM HES DOING THIS TO ME I DONT WANT TO BE NEAR HIM I WANT HIM GONE I WANT TO GO I DONT WANT TO BE HERE PLEASE

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

this body isnt even mine anymore it belongs to whatever god did this to me just kill me please i dont want to live like this anymore

17/08/2008

these days i dont even feel like a real person anymore theres so much change going on in my body that i just feel completely detached. its like im not even human anymore. my skin is covered with weird oils, i constantly have a headache and i can barely breathe without assistance anymore. frequent visits to the hospital arent helping at all either, i know my mums just trying to help but ive always hated hospitals. they feel so sterile and cold and unloving and being under all the lights and machines just makes me feel like im being experimented on 

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

17/08/2008

these days i dont even feel like a real person anymore theres so much change going on in my body that i just feel completely detached. its like im not even human anymore. my skin is covered with weird oils, i constantly have a headache and i can barely breathe without assistance anymore. frequent visits to the hospital arent helping at all either, i know my mums just trying to help but ive always hated hospitals. they feel so sterile and cold and unloving and being under all the lights and machines just makes me feel like im being experimented on 

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

i just feel like everythings going wrong in my life. my brothers being even weirder than usual and my mums not listening to anything about it, she thinks its just paranoia coming with whatever weird sickness i have. im just so over it at this point. dont get me wrong i love my mum and (its embarrassing to admit but) shes even been letting me sleep in her bed recently because iv been so scared of henry. the reason im scared of henry right now even more than usual is that i keep hearing my name in conversations hes having with people over the phone and i dont know whats going on or why hes talking about me to his friends. i doubt any of his friends even knew he had a sibling before i dont know why im randomly relevant im scared im scared im scared

#shut up quinn

okay i know that two days ago i said i was gonna take a break from this blog but i really need someone to vent to right now

#shut up quinn #i guess that someone will be the whole internet

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

17/07/2008

okay i know that two days ago i said i was gonna take a break from this blog but i really need someone to vent to right now

#shut up quinn #i guess that someone will be the whole internet

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

since then thingz have kinda only been getting worse tho, idk if ill b able to post as much anymore TwT

my weird heatstroke symptoms make it so i can barely step outside without feeling rlly dizzy or just str8 up passing out, i constantly need 2 be surrounded by cold air 

the sweating stopped but my porez r like always blocked and my skins constantly oily because of it so i have to shower a bunch anyway 

ive stopped going to school completely, i think my mums tryna arrange for a homeschool tutor thingy but shes been really busy between the last time i posted and now so 

i can barely eat anything, iv pretty much lost my appetite completely, sometimez it gets so bad that if i try to eat ill just puke instantly

one of the newer thingz is that i can barely breathe a lot of the time, my mum thinks it might be asthma but i have this weird feeling that its something else i think im going to take a break from blog for a while, it was fun tho !!! love all u guyz (*^▽^*)

#shut up quinn #baii guyz !! :3

15/07/2008

hello \(*￣︿￣*)

im reallyy really sorry i havent been posting theres just kinda been a lot going on and itz been kinda a lot

my health has been getting a lot worse in the past month or so and i just wanted 2 let you guyz know that im still alive lol

#shut up quinn

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

15/07/2008

hello \(*￣︿￣*)

im reallyy really sorry i havent been posting theres just kinda been a lot going on and itz been kinda a lot

my health has been getting a lot worse in the past month or so and i just wanted 2 let you guyz know that im still alive lol

#shut up quinn

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

12/06/2008

makin kandi is s0 fun i cant believ iv gone so long w out doin it 0_0

#shut up quinn #i mite as well make a buncha cuffz n otha c0ol stuff since im gonna b home 4 today again >.<

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

11/06/2008

okayy my mum said no skool 4 tmrw so im stayin home, AGAIN (￣へ￣)

at least its not the sweat dis time tho @_@ 

#shut up quinn

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

it wuz legit so draining n it only got worse when they got my mum 2 come pick meh up bcz shes already soo stressed abt work n i made her leave work early (;; ❛ д ❛.)

#shut up quinn

11/06/2008

zomg guys . ull neva guess what happened ….. 

ill start from da beginning 0_o

i wuz in PE liek normul (not doing anything LOLZ) wen and i was feeling rlly rlly hot liek i hav been since my weird sweat thing n i juzt started gettin reaaaally woozy and everythin wuz liek shifting n b4 i knew it i was in da nurses office with an icepack on meh head n liek 3 gazillion fanz pointin at me (・ε・)

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

11/06/2008

zomg guys . ull neva guess what happened ….. 

ill start from da beginning 0_o

i wuz in PE liek normul (not doing anything LOLZ) wen and i was feeling rlly rlly hot liek i hav been since my weird sweat thing n i juzt started gettin reaaaally woozy and everythin wuz liek shifting n b4 i knew it i was in da nurses office with an icepack on meh head n liek 3 gazillion fanz pointin at me (・ε・)

[f4cel3ss-qu1nn]

11/06/2008

uuuu i really dont wnna go 2 skool liek at ALL im so dizzzzy #shut up quinn