f1letters

[f1letters]

it's been a long time coming...

it has been 1 year, 9 months, and 8 days since my last story.

and it still feels a bit unreal to be here again. I feel so many mixed emotions, you know? I feel nostalgic and proud of a lot I put into this blog, I feel scared and anxious to write my feelings out, I feel confused and lost when it comes to the future.

when I started f1letters, I was a lonely kid, with a love for writing and an immense desire to get my creativity out in a safe space. I managed to gather all of my inspiration into this lovely little bubble, with amazing people around me and a lot of support from the f1 community, and I will never be able to put into words how supported and content I felt with what I built.

I was so dedicated to this work. I spent hours writing, thinking of new story ideas, listening to music, designing the banners and photos I used, etc. I loved this, with all of me.

But then, things changed. I started to get hateful, disrespectful, disgusting comments, as I previously expressed to you. and as time went on, I lost my spark and gave up.

1 year, 9 months, and 8 days. damn, that's long.

and so much happened! I'm a year older. I'm in a better place mentally. I found an amazing partner I've been with for a year and a half. I went to the Eras Tour even!

life is good, but I found myself constantly saying: I miss having a creative escape.

today I was by myself, listening to music when You're On Your Own, Kid started playing, and my heart brought me back here: so with this... hi again, I suppose? haha

I missed all of this, the good and the bad. but especially you guys! I would love to work on some things for you all, but I need a littleeee bit of help from you all in finding my place back in this world...

should I finish the midnights series and continue the same type of Taylor Swift-inspired stories?

should I start from scratch and find another niche?

I would love to know what you lovely human beings think about all of this!

but for now, I'm so glad to be back! 🫶🏻

- f1letters, also known as just cat

[f1letters]

Links are finally fixed on my midnights masterlist!

Also opening anon asks again, hopefully I won't have to turn them off again - please be kind 💜

midnights (3am edition) - masterlist

A collection of stories inspired by lyrics of the one and only, miss Taylor Swift.

note: regarding the stories, some of them are not inspired by the entirety of the song but only by some loose verses (due to their content) PLEASE check the warnings before reading (as there are stories with some tw)

lavender haze | mv1 (2.8k)

"I been under scrutiny, you handle it beautifully"

summary: after winning his second championship in another controversial way, max needed her by his side more than ever as the media tried to tear him apart

maroon | cs55 (4.3k)

"how the hell did we lose sight of us again? sobbing with your head in your hands, ain't that the way shit always ends?"

summary: they both knew their relationship would ruin them both, but they couldn't stop themselves from running back to each other every goddamn time

anti-hero | cl16 (3.6k)

"I wake up screaming from dreaming, one day, I'll watch as you leaving"

summary: no matter how many times charles told her she was more than enough, this misogynistic world kept giving her reasons to run away (driver!reader)

snow on the beach | ls18 (3.2k)

"you wanting me tonight feels impossible, but it's coming down"

summary: nothing would ever compare to the feeling of simultaneously falling in love with each other

you're on your own, kid | pg10 (4.1k)

"I wait patiently, he's gonna notice me. it's okay, we're the best of friends"

summary: after what she thought was the best night of her life, she came to the realization that she was nothing but one more girl on his list

midnight rain | gr63 (3.1k)

"chasing that fame, he stayed the same, all of me changed like midnight"

summary: what happens when he decides his career will always be more important than their relationship?

question…? | ls18 (3.4k)

"did you wish you'd put up more of a fight when she said it was too much?"

summary: she was just planning a fun night out with her best friends, but an unexpected reunion changes everything

vigilante shit | pg10 x cl16 (3.4k)

"you did some bad things, but I'm the worst of them"

summary: revenge is served cold and it tastes especially sweet when it involves his best friend

bejeweled | ln4 (2.7k)

"and I miss you, but I miss sparkling"

summary: after a triple-header where they couldn't see each other, things got even stranger when her boyfriend seemed totally uninterested in spending time with her. so, she took matters into her own hands

labyrinth | aa23 (3.9k)

"uh-oh, I'm falling in love. oh no, I'm falling in love again"

summary: it's safe to say she wasn't expecting to fall in love so quickly after just ending a five-year relationship, but alex albon was just everything she needed without even realizing it (russell!reader)

karma | lh44 (3.6k)

"karma is the guy on the screen coming straight home to me"

summary: seeing her toxic ex was never fun, but maybe it was less fun for him when he realized she was currently dating the GP winner on the screen, who happened to be his favourite driver

sweet nothing | sv5 (3.0k)

"all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing"

summary: after years of battling infertility, seb was still by her side. he didn't need anything else but her... but maybe their lives were about to get a little more crowded

mastermind | cs55 (3.8k)

"what if I told you none of it was accidental?"

summary: it all started when she saw him across the room and she knew right away she wouldn't give up until he was hers

the great war | dr3 (3.9k)

"my hand was the one you reached for all throughtout the Great War"

summary: after the media was filled with cheating rumours involving her husband, she faced hard times trying to rebuild what was left of their relationship

bigger than the whole sky | ms47 (2.9k)

"i'm never gonna meet what could've been, would've been, what should've been you"

summary: guilt consumed her alive when she lost the baby she initially didn't plan on having... maybe the outcome could've been better if she did something different, she thought

paris | eo31 (3.2k)

"romance is not dead if you keep it just yours"

summary: maybe their family and friends didn't understand all the secrecy of their relationship, but why risk ruining what they had when they lived happier than ever inside of their own bubble?

high infidelity | mv1 x ln4

"do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?"

summary: she knew it was a mistake getting involved with her boyfriend's best friend from the beginning, but she only realized how wrong it really was when she got confronted by the one person she should've been faithful to

glitch | ms47

"we were supposed to be just friends"

summary: they were supposed to be just friends with benefits, but things started to feel real when they found themselves travelling to each other constantly... behind her brother's back (vettel!reader)

would've, could've, should've | dr3

"and I damn sure never would've danced with the devil"

summary: when daniel thought his career was about to skyrocket in mclaren, he chose not to have anything to do with her anymore. two years later, regretting everything, he looked for her, only to find out she was a single mom to a beautiful curly-haired girl

dear reader | cl16 (2.8k)

"to a house, not a home, all alone cause nobody's there"

summary: when two strangers meet by fate in the same bar with the same goal - to drink their feelings - maybe they discover that they are actually two halves that fit together perfectly

[f1letters]

Hi lovie! Hope you are doing somewhat better after all the crape you've been sent your way! Keep your head up and light shinning, they shouldn't have any control over you. They are fucking yucky people. I'm proud of you for keeping on going and keeping your head held high in times of shit things, for keeping fighting battles that you shouldn't and for battling something no one deserves to deal with, mental health is important you are important. Take all the time you need away from this God forsaken app, I'll be here waiting, and all of the people who love you and your work will be waiting. Keep going, cat. FEA 😘

Ily, jj xx

Hey babe! I'm so, so sorry for not answering sooner but I was taking some time off 😊 Thank you for always checking in and for being so kind ❤️ How I wish there were more loving people like you, ilysm 🥹🫶🏻

[f1letters]

Hey Cat,

I’m so sorry to read you’ve been receiving so many unkind/unhelpful anon messages, sending you the biggest hug! As a fellow mental health sufferer, please know you’re not alone. Creative burnout is a real thing, and it somehow sucks even more when it’s a creative escape from the horrors as I like to call them. Take care of yourself, I know I will still be here when you’re ready 🧡

Hi my darling! ❤️ Thank you so, so much for reaching out! It's always nice to know some people still understand what I'm going through and don't feel disappointed in me for taking some time apart 🥹 Your support means the world! 🫶🏻

[f1letters]

i’ve also had depression for years, and i understand what it’s like to struggle with the demands of everyday life. even engaging in a creative outlet can be nearly impossible, nevertheless when you choose to share your creativity on a public platform.

thank you for allowing us to read your works; they are always beautiful and well-written. you never deserve to be treated as subhuman because you’re a creator. the fact that some people have the audacity to demand you to spit out content 24/7, despite having a very real life outside of the internet, is OUTRAGEOUS.

stories like yours are a gift and should be treated as such.

please take care of yourself; your life is precious and multi-faceted. some people’s main perception of you may be that you’re an author, and while that is true, you are so much more in addition to that.

reading your post just absolutely infuriated me, especially as someone who empathizes with your situation. you and a lot of other authors on here deserve so so much better from your followers.

love you!

This literally brought tears to my eyes! 🥹

Thank you for sharing your own experience with mental health, and for understanding my struggles. You said it better than I ever could: "even engaging in a creative outlet can be nearly impossible" - I truly see myself in that. I chose to start this as a fun escape from reality, doing one of the things I love the most (even if I feel a bit burnout right now) but when people try to make it one of my obligation instead of a hobby, it just feels like going to work, and writing in here doesn't even pay my bills lol

I appreciate you so, so much. Thank you for reaching out, and for being so sweet and kind. The world really needs more people like you 🥹🫶🏻

[f1letters]

Living for the rant, babe! 🤣❤️ In all honesty, it does mean the world to me! It saddens me so much how I've seen multiple writers on this app going through this... Thank you for always having my back and for caring so much, ilysm 🥹🫶🏻

It's unbelievable how people will ALWAYS find a way to bully people for what they want.

I've talked about the constant harassment I was getting in a previous post but apparently, it wasn't enough and it kept on going. So in a last effort, I'm officially turning off anon asks.

I struggle deeply with anxiety and depression, I've been struggling for almost 10 years by now. I've opened up about my health issues many times as well. And it's absolutely unbelievable how some people just don't care AT ALL about other people's feelings (not only mine, but of a lot of writers in this app) and think bullying them will make them write again ?!!

Waking up morning after morning with questions and straight-up rude comments about me not posting stories... It does something to someone's mental health, you know? I try to ignore it and be kind to everyone but it comes to a time where you have to stand up for yourself and just say it how it is.

I'm a fucking adult. I have a job. I have a house I have to maintain by myself. I have a family. I have friends.

The only thing you are accomplishing with these types of asks is making my anxiety worst and making me want to delete this blog once and for all tbh so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Well, that's it. Be kind, people. You never know how much people are really struggling on the other side. - cat

[f1letters]

I’m so sorry people are being such assholes and inconsiderate of your time and personal life. Don’t let them get to you and discourage you from writing just because they get off being an anonymous bully. Take as much time as you need and never apologize for setting boundaries. I can’t wait to read more of your writing you’re such a good writer!! Also as a fellow Taylor stan “The worst kind of person is someone who makes someone feel bad, dumb or stupid for being excited about something.” -TS

This means a lot ❤️ I know it has been months since I posted but life has been crazy lately. I can understand people want me to finish the series but when they are straight-up rude and disregard me as a human being with responsibilities and feelings, the only thing they are accomplishing is me being even LESS excited for this blog than I already am.

With this being said, I'm so thankful for kind people like you, who make it all worth it! ❤️‍🩹

[f1letters]

Hope you are having a good day darling xx

Here's a precious black cat clutching their owner🐈‍⬛️

And here's a song I've been loving, usually a swiftie only but found this by accident xx

Sorry for taking so long to answer, but as you can tell by my previous post... Your girl has been through it with the asks lol

Hope you have a lovely day! And thank you for the song rec, always love to know new songs! ❤️✨

[f1letters]

It's unbelievable how people will ALWAYS find a way to bully people for what they want.

I've talked about the constant harassment I was getting in a previous post but apparently, it wasn't enough and it kept on going. So in a last effort, I'm officially turning off anon asks.

I struggle deeply with anxiety and depression, I've been struggling for almost 10 years by now. I've opened up about my health issues many times as well. And it's absolutely unbelievable how some people just don't care AT ALL about other people's feelings (not only mine, but of a lot of writers in this app) and think bullying them will make them write again ?!!

Waking up morning after morning with questions and straight-up rude comments about me not posting stories... It does something to someone's mental health, you know? I try to ignore it and be kind to everyone but it comes to a time where you have to stand up for yourself and just say it how it is.

I'm a fucking adult. I have a job. I have a house I have to maintain by myself. I have a family. I have friends.

The only thing you are accomplishing with these types of asks is making my anxiety worst and making me want to delete this blog once and for all tbh so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore.

Well, that's it. Be kind, people. You never know how much people are really struggling on the other side. - cat

[f1letters]

omg!! e ainda és swiftie e gostas de F1? wow 😔💛💜 que incrível

escreves muito bem btw 💖

Manifestando Eras Tour na Europa as we speak! 🤣 Obrigada! Significa imenso ouvir isso mesmo! 🥺❤️

[f1letters]

omg és portuguesa? slay 💜💛

Sou, sim senhora! Com muito orgulho! 😂❤️💚

[f1letters]

Hope you are having a good day darling! I'm gonna get to sleep now it's been a hetic day, had a uni essay due that I somehow forgot to submit so I literally just started crying and submitted it and wrote an email to my professor begging her to not penalise me for lateness (it was just under 30 mins late) but she's super kind and so I'm praying and hoping that she's kind in not penalising me. Will talk to her Wednesday in our lecture and hopefully 🙏 thank her for her kindness if not restate my reasoning for it being late (panic attacks all day) and pray she is lenient. So hopefully your day has/is going better than mine! Ily xox

Hi darling! ❤️ Uni can be so hard sometimes, especially when it comes to essays and deadlines, but thank God for people like your teacher! 👏🏻 Hope you get some well-deserved rest after that, love you too! 🥰

[f1letters]

HELLLO BESTIE! SORRY ITS LATE, UNI WAS HETIC TODAY! BUT JUST WANTED TO CHECK IN AND TELL YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING DAY AND DO THE DAMN THING! I'm gonna try and go to sleep now it's late but meh... gotta go vote tomorrow in the local election hopefully vote these suckers out. Then I got a mini uni essay due Sunday night so that'll be fun 😭

A song for you xx

Hi lovely! ✨ Hope you had an amazing day! It's always amazing to hear from you ❤️ Also living for the Taylor song of course! 🥰

[f1letters]

Question time :

How much do you love me? On a scale of 1 to infinity?

Cause personally I love you to infinity babes mwahhhhh xx

(p.s how are you feeling? better?)

honestly, ily soooo much darling, makes me smile so much every time i see a message from you ❤️😍 and I'm feeling really good actually! I think my health issues are officially over, thank god! thank you so so much for asking, you're the sweetest and one of my absolute fav people on this app ��

[f1letters]

38. What story of yours are you surprised that people liked as much as they did? 💘

38. What story of yours are you surprised that people liked as much as they did?

1000% 'karma'! it blows my mind to this day how it has more than 1,600 notes! 🤯🤯 it's the power of sir lewis hamilton, i guess! 😂❤️

[f1letters]

Fanfic asks: 4,20,25 and 39😊

4. Did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut? 

'anti-hero' had a whole different plot actually! 😅 it was supposed to be a story focused more on the consequences of bullying and hate, where in the end she would've chosen herself and left him for her mental health but in the end, I was not feeling it and I thought inserting the driver!reader aspect would make it better so I changed it completely! haha

 20. What feedback makes you the happiest to hear?

honestly, I'm going to give the vaguest, most boring answer but anything! interacting with you guys, seeing your opinions and theories, knowing how you felt reading the stories - it's the best part of writing and the part I miss the most nowadays 💕

25. What scene took the longest to write? What was difficult about it? 

I remember being so stuck in my head while writing 'lavender haze' and I can't even explain why but I struggled so much to put my idea into words 🤦‍♀️

another story I took a lot of time to write was 'bigger than the whole sky', it meant (and means) so much to me and i wanted to do my best and give it my all... 💘

39. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

omg, i hate having to compliment myself 😂 but in general I would say that my strength is having ideas, planning the plots, the details I want to add! the creative process has always come easier to me than the writing process itself!

even now that I've been away, I'm constantly coming up with ideas for new stories: while listening to music, while walking down the street, etc. - I feel constantly inspired by the world around me every day ❤️

[f1letters]

Going to keep answering to your questions from yesterday's reblog later when I get home from work! ✨ Feel free to ask anything if you feel like it btw, even if it's not from that list, I love interacting with you guys! 🥹❤️