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"The Gift Onision Gave Me" Mali-Malware

Former Onision fan analyzes the way he would influence and manipulate young viewers and the effects his videos had on them personally.

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by the way, i don’t like nor do i support onision anymore. i haven’t in a long time.

here’s why:

1. he’s a narcissist.

2. he’s a groomer.

3. he’s an abuser.

i started watching him in middle school. his videos showed up in my youtube recommendation page, along with right-wing “liberals owned”, “ben shapiro owns whiny liberals,” “feminazis being owned pt.5”, and so on. i would watch videos like these for hours, slowly being soothed into believing far right ideologies. this all came to a halt when the “Unite the Right” rally happened in August of 2017.

i would watch onision for hours. i was subscribed to all of his youtube accounts, i followed all of his social media accounts, and i almost paid to be on his patreon. i wanted him to acknowledge me. i wanted him to pay attention to me. because of this, i defended him for hours online. even if i knew it was wrong, i was in the constant need for validation and attention from somebody.

this need for validation and attention, specifically from onision, was because he has all the same characteristics and personality traits of my abuser.

as well, i used onision’s videos to fuel the ED i had. do you remember the videos where he rated girls bodies? i would watch those videos every single day. i had days where i would do up to a 1,000 crunches and not eat for days on end- just so i could post my body on his reddit tag.

there’s probably more i could say about this ugly ass man-child; but, i hope this clears everything up.

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Since I've not posted anything original here in a while, I might as well share what got me to be his fan and how I've became an anti-o

I discovered his channel around 2014-2015 ish, when I was 14-15. I can't remember which videos specifically drew me in, but I found my humour was similar to his. I was subscribed to UhOhBro first before digging deeper into his other contents.

I was easily manipulated around that age that I believed in whatever he says, including him shaming on those who self harms. I would share those videos to my friend who was self harming, thinking that I could help them (not proud of it now when I think back about it). I was even considering to join his patreon (but didn't cuz I'm broke) and send pictures for him to rate (didn't cuz of low self-esteem) .

Fast forward to around 2017 ish. I unsubbed to his channels seeing that he was trying to out Dan Howell as being gay. (I'm not in the phandom but trying to out someone when they're not ready is a dick move). I found his humour is crude and basically I've grown more brain cells to be watching his videos.

I resubbed during the whole Jessie Paege coming out and SR trying to drag her down. Thought he changed when he "supported" both her and Jaclyn Glenn against SR. That lasted for only a few months till I unsubbed again when he harrassed EC and Jaclyn using the Sims.

Around mid-end 2019 when the accusations are all unveiling. I dug in deeper into it and discovered all that he has done. I was astonished by how blinded I was back then. Everything was out there but I was naive to believe it.

Here I am with this small side blog dedicated to sharing the things he has done and putting it in the light. Yes, I am ashamed of being his fan in the first place but I rather think of it as my own character development.

P.s. please do not harrass or shame any ex-fans or even fans of his. We were manipulated into believing in whatever lies he says.

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Ex fan

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everyone share their stories of how they found onision!!!!

I was 14 and his manipulative language got me to believe that I was just a stupid entitled teen! I genuinely believed the sadness i felt when I watched his videos was because I couldn't handle the truth! Instead of getting help for my depression I hid it for years because it was implanted in my brain early on that I couldn't have depression!

And then, <3, the great and mighty greg started harassing people! I saw him manipulate and lie and do all sorts of shady stuff, and his narcissistic, violent nature is actually quite dangerous!

And now it turns out he's a predator! A filthy, disgusting predator who grooms vulnerable young teens to be his sex toys.

He is such a vile, disgusting human being.

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Because when you care about someone and you're proud of them, you make videos belittling and mocking them. Not fooling most people.

It's good to see that this now ex fan caught on! It happens more and more all the time.

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No longer a banana

I was a fan of Onision growing up. I was consuming youtube videos to overcome my boredom and he was one of the ones I came across who was popular. I watched some of his videos with his characters and thought they were kinda good, and he could very occasionally be funny.

Then later I continued watching as he started a new phase where he began inserting his opinion on the so-called "attractiveness" of hundreds of girls. His rating obviously reflected what a shallow person he is as it eroded my own self esteem. He told normal people that they were hideous numerous times and that deeply hurt me. 

After he made light of self harm, and talked down self harming individuals was when I left out of frustration. The amount of hate this man has for others can't be measured. I will never defend him, or follow him again like I did when I was younger. 

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When I Was an Onion Fan

I don’t exactly remember how I became a fan, but I was probably 13/14 when I found him. I remember finding him relatively funny (so weird to look back on now, but it’s what I thought). I would always watch his videos on things like depression, religion, feminism, veganism, ect. I thought he brought up some good points and thought Onion was genuine. Then the forum & Billie things happened…

I first questioned Onision when he did the video series back in 2016 of him rating underage girls from the forum. I thought it was a little bit creepy (as any rational human would think so). While I did actually make an account on the forum, I made like 3 posts and none of them involved my face or my body. I do also remember watching these videos, seeing him calling the girls who had a similar body to me as “fat” and making comments about “muffin topping” or whatever, and I’d get extremely self conscious.

Fast forward to like a few weeks later (?), and the Billie drama unfolded. I was sick and tired of how all of his channels literally was just abt all the drama. So, I stopped watching. And this was less than a year after I started watching his content.

Not long after, I stumbled across numerous videos about these situations, and finally realized how awful of a human being he is. I watched videos on him and read up on his past relationships and it amazes me of how oblivious I was to everything.

Even though this only occurred like 3 yrs ago, it still shocks me sometimes that I used to actually enjoy his content.

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I first started watching onision back when he was with Shiloh. I somehow came across his video which was called shower song if I remember correctly.

I thought it was a funny video so I started watching a bunch if his videos. I wasn't that big of a fan of his skits, so I mostly watched his speaks channel.

I was a huge fan of him and Shiloh together and shipped them so hard. (Yikes) I was almost kind of jealous cause at the time I thought they were so cute together and that he was such a good boyfriend. Boy was I so wrong.

I recently looked at one of their old videos and say my old comment from years ago saying how cute they were. (Cringe)

So fast forward to a couple months later and they broke up. And then I lost interest in him sense Shiloh wasn't in the picture anymore. After that I didn't watch him for a long time until I started seeing his uhoh bro videos on YouTube. So I decided to give him a try again and binged watched a lot of his videos. It wasn't until he started doing his rating my fans videos and talking about how he didn't like bigger women and was repulsed by them that I had to stop watching.

I'm not big by any means but every time he mentioned how gross overweight women are it just made me feel so shitty and made me wonder if that's how other people saw me.

Now being 23 years old I can't believe I ever was a fan of him and feel so bad that I shipped him and Shiloh so hard after all the horrible shit he put her through.

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Anonymous ex-banana

I watched gerg when I was 12 and 13 back in 2008-09. As a 23 year-old woman with a degree, I’m totally horrified. I went vegan in 2010 as a depressed 14-year-old with an eating disorder. I remember his OnionSpeaks–his controversial topics covered mostly veganism, religion, and his opinions on the U.S. military. I remember when he divorced Skye, I remember alimony videos. Then the Shiloh footage leaked and by the time I was 15, I had outgrown him. I have not watched his videos or engaged with him, but I remember that most people left after the Shiloh thing. I’m so sorry for all the people he’s dragged down. I’m glad people are publicly shaming him. His downfall is well-documented. I used to love checking in every few years, but I never thought it would get this bad for him. I hope his partner 

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I watch the onion man during my middle school years when I was super insecure and going through my emo phase. His cutting videos made me feel so awful like I was selfish for being depressed and hurting myself. It only made me hate myself even more. His “body positivity” videos didn’t help as I had only a little chub but it was the kinda of chub this man said was ugly. I felt like a disgusted pig and did things that have messed up my body. I hate that I was so stupid to listen to him. I wish I could go back and stop stop myself from ever watching him. I’m in college now so I know a lot better. I’m a lot happier but sadly I still suffer from my mistakes. However I’m trying to fix it so it isn’t as bad anymore. Thank you for reading

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I dmed onion man in crisis (really bad one but I don't want to go into detail) and was really desperate. I really thought I'd get a response. Never did. Years later I get the spam message that I should copy myessage to his forums. I was out of the fandom and got reminded I wanted to take advice from onion man. 😞

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I started to watch Onision around age 12 or 13. I considered myself emo and edgy so I guess it was pretty natural that I found his channel.

I liked that he was “honest” and that he didn’t care about what anyone else had to say about him. I liked his dark humor. I liked that he shared the same opinions as me. But he started to make me have the same opinions as him. He tricked me into not liking many YouTubers (example: Eugenia Cooney) without giving them a chance. He made me think that self harm was something you could just get over. Then the opinions got more personal. He made me hate my violin hips. He made me hate my size even though I look like an average teenage girl. Even though I didn’t have stretch marks a few years ago I can only assume he has a part in me being about insecure them.

After a while Billie came on to the scene. I liked Billie. I thought she was sweet. I did not, however, like how Greg treated her in his videos. Whenever she was with him it seemed like he was ignoring her or just using her as a prop. When the weed/being chained up in a basement thing happened I actually looked at both points of view and sided with Billie. I thought it was sick what Greg wanted to do to her. I unsubscribed and stopped watching his videos. I’m so glad I got out of that mindset.

A few months ago I discovered the anti onision community through Strange Aeons and it’s been a blast ever since. I love seeing the memes and jokes that everyone shares. And hey, hating on Greg is pretty fun too. It’s just really cool to feel like you’re not alone. Thank you.

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Hello! I’m attempting to revive this blog.

This is a place for people that were fans of Onision or people that had interesting encounters with Onision fans to share their stories. If you’re interested in submitting, check out the rules and guidelines.

(I changed the name of this blog again. It’s now Ex Banana Stories.Hopefully this will be that last name change lol.)

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