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It’s Been A Minute

It’s been a minute

Since I felt you in my arms

Lavender in your hair

My inner wolf to tame

Our bodies twisted roots

A candle wick in flames

It’s been days

Since we’ve spoken

Cargo of ideas and dreams

Lambent lips spilling passion

Empty hand once held

Escaping into oblivion

It’s been months

Since we’ve made plans

To meet in a strange city

Or familiar place to dine

To reflect on our lives

Over empanadas and wine

And now it’s been years

Since I’ve found comfort

Tossing sheets at our feet

To feel your desires on me

Rapid pulse and sighs of release

Something tells me I’ll wait, infinitely

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~ Eugenio Saenz Jr., It’s Been A Minute

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I can see my heart,

Sprinting the highway distance,

From hearing your voice,

Delights your laughter shepherds,

Fuels my heart eternally

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~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.

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Haiku 18074

Am I your island,

A life raft in an ocean,

Of indecision

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~ esj

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I can’t help myself

I want to scream

But I don’t want anyone to hear

To know

That randomly you fill my thoughts

Every moment we ever had

Every breath we shared

From our birth

Reaching out for you

To bring you closer

From our home to mountains

Through foreign countries

To day excursions

We ravaged, burned through life

And love

We were close and grew distant

Removed, remote, separate, apart

I was rowing towards

The view of sinking sun over Earths edge

Having random thoughts

Rummaging through letters

I never wanted to fight

Just wanted to love

Never give up

Never let go

Never lose control

Never wanted to leave your side

Never wanted to cry

But you left and I did

The day blackened

And you rid of me

And I held on

I hold on

To half a dream come true

To the other half I scream

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~ esj

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~ Eugenio Saenz Jr., Scream

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Tanka 18117

There are morning stars

Just above the horizon

Dancing over you

Across your morning smile

Rising mountains and valleys

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~ esj

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I have to stop blaming myself

For the lack of your words

For the absent goodbyes

I know I was there

God knows I tried

My name was not on your list

Of priorities I cried

And at the time I was blind

Investing in your soul

Planting memories

While you were seeking goals

Things I thought we do together

When all along you planned

On leaving, forever

But I have to stop blaming myself

For the way you left broken skies

And endless cries

For the lack of your words

And absent goodbyes

I don’t know why I didn’t see

When your messages did not return

I was nothing to you

While I lie awake yearning your voice

Now I know it wasn’t me

You were a star out of reach

And there wasn’t enough time

For us to to find each other

For lovers to make amends

To hold one another

And discard our inevitable end

But I have to stop blaming myself

For the way you left broken skies

And endless cries

For the lack of your words

And absent goodbyes

~ Eugenio Saenz Jr., Absent Goodbyes

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Haiku 18069

Discovered your soul,

My knees buckled with weakness,

Strength bound me to you

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~ esj

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I lifted the lid

Foam leveled with the rim

Damian Rice playing over speakers

Sitting across from you

A rendezvous

A few blocks from the sea

It’s how we spent our time

How I knew I was yours

How I knew you were mine

It’s how I pictured our life

Traveling from place to place

Collecting mugs and selfies

Making the world smaller

With every discovery

But as the years past

Your glance grew askew

A new phase took over

You on your phone and me on you

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~ esj

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Kiss 😘

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Tanka 18086 No one so gorgeous So filled with beauty has held Shackles to my soul As if I’d escape your love I’m yours forever willing ~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.

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You’re across from me, and I whisper. How are you? I was thinking about you. I’m lying. I’m always thinking about you. When I read, workout, study, explore, and eat, I think about you. I ask how your day was and you return with silence. I dig and ask how your project is coming; it's quiet. I compose your eyes, wincing and brown, your hair, tossed in waves, your fingers thin and interlaced, your lips in a smile, long, relaxed. The server comes over with tea, and I glance at it and whisper I missed you today, a salty tear gets caught in my lip before falling to the table. No one sees. And I whisper again so that others don’t think I’m losing sanity, imagining you. I look up, and you're gone. ~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.

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Haiku 18041 I consumed your love, Filled my heart’s glass to the rim, Vineyard of maraschinos ~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.

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Tanka 18062 From my fingers fell, A flower in the current, I tried to retrieve, Petals ignoring my reach, My voiceless screams not received ~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.

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Haiku 18038 I never gave up, Never once forgot our dreams, Long after you left ~ Eugenio Saenz Jr.