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being a polyfragmented plural is pretty stressful. we have a lot of fragments that front once (or never) and then disappear forever, so we constantly stress over whether we should even add them to SP/PK or delete their profiles, or whether theyll come back, or whether we should pursue finding them again because we need them (all alters are equal in importance, but by this i mean whether or not the fragment had a needed role such as a really needed symptom holder), or whether it would just be more trouble than its worth (or if its even possible to find them again). having a shared memory and having new fragments know that theyre probably going to disappear can really stress them out and its heartbreaking to watch. and we split so frequently but we struggle to find new sysmates, until itll be 2 months later after a longterm 'big split' and suddenly theres 20 people coming out of the woodworks which feels really awkward to explain to our friends. when you know theres someone new but all you know is their vibes and theyre so similar to others anyways you dont even know if itd be worth it to differentiate yourselves. and that just , really weird feeling where you know your own plurality is vaster than you know and will probably ever know.

then you start feeling invalid about calling yourself polyfragmented because you dont have a headspace . what the hell!!!!!

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i've been on testosterone for nearly 6 months (years 1st will be 6 months) and after reflecting, it's like it was my destiny to start it.

i was outted at a doctor's appointment, more so my mom finally realizing i was trans at a routine checkup, and everything fell into place there. i really thought my doctor sent me to a conversation therapist or something when we made an appointment with an adolescent doctor. it was so funny and exciting. i stated medicine that stopped my period, got a gender dysphoria diagnosis, and on july 1st, 2024, i started testosterone and on february 10th, 2025, i will have my top surgery consultation

i say all this because, genuinely, if my mom didn't realize i was trans that day, i don't know where i would've been now. it literally saved my life through and through and im happy im slowly becoming the little man dyke i imagined myself like 7 years ago. the fact people want to take this away from transgender people is appalling and murder. it is a killing us, making our mental health horrible, stressing us out. the fact that those people want to take hrt away from us do not understand the joy, transgender joy from getting gendered correctly in public to affirming your gender through medical, physical, or social means, they will never understand it, they're scared and afraid of it, so they want to control us

legislation, laws, and transphobia will never make us go away. me, like many people, transition still under this stress because we are PROUD of who we are. no lawmaker or government will stop that. EVER. stay strong through these times.

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Nascisnowleopard!

A nascime term for being a snow leopard since one came into existence! whatever this means in context is up to the user!

Coined by Angeline, requested anonymously.

Nascime was coined here, tagging @radiomogai & @dimensen !

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by the way, i found this post very helpful during this

the past few days / weeks has been filled with coming to terms with the fact that we've been neglected and quite honestly abused, emotionally and mentally. acknowledging that we are abused when its not physical has been very hard, and i assume its hard for others too to feel valid in their nonphysical abuse.

right now its baby steps, focusing on that its ok to not remember, focusing on making ourselves feel safe. we got this

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the past few days / weeks has been filled with coming to terms with the fact that we've been neglected and quite honestly abused, emotionally and mentally. acknowledging that we are abused when its not physical has been very hard, and i assume its hard for others too to feel valid in their nonphysical abuse.

right now its baby steps, focusing on that its ok to not remember, focusing on making ourselves feel safe. we got this

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nothing is better than watching individual headmates heal and recover and improve as people

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his lips are sealed

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no other option. trinary.

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today's daily is: blehhh!!!

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today's daily is: big stretch

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this animal

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lotsa godly kisses !!!

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CAT!? :

Species term for when one is a cat, but in a very excited way. A cat that people point at and go "CAT!?"

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actually, I'm just wondering. how is it so hard for people to just believe each-other about their lived experiences? what's so hard in believing someone when they say they are what they are? are you gonna question someone when they say they're trans? accuse them of being delusional? so why do you do it when they say they're plural?

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  . STRAWBERRYBASKETIC !! ✿  #  A Xenogender related to strawberry baskets, sitting in the park and eating fresh strawberries in the spring.

🍓 → Requested by nobody . Coined by me, this flag is completely free to use.