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Sometimes I wish my brain would just shut up.

These thoughts are breaking me.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

That’s all.

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I’m not okay and I don’t know how to fix it.

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Y'all better be drinking water.

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So it’s been a long time since I’ve been an active member of the fitblr community. There are lots of reasons that I left.

Tonight, a dear friend posted the picture on the left. It’s the first time I’ve seen myself from the side in probably 5 years.

Now, I can’t lie and say it didn’t kill me. I went into shock, threw away my dinner, and cried.

Then I decided that was not going to help.

So, I looked up a quick, easy workout on Pinterest and actually did it. No, it wasn’t much, but it got me off the couch and moving. I feel better. I can feel better. It just takes som work...

Guess who’s back betches.

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I hate that I’m awake right now. I woke up from nightmares and every time I close my eyes, I’m back in the nightmare. Ugh.

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Can I just say that as a person with derma I would KILL for a friend who would grab my hand and demand petting when I start picking at my hands.

This is one of my favorite moments between them because I know Tan mentioned his nails bother him and I think Antoni was just helping him out.

Ufh I love them.

softies™™

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So @miss-bunny-who tagged me to sds. I have to be honest. I wasn’t going to do it. Then I realized it was a perfect opportunity to point out some mental health realism. This look is what I call my “summer depression/severe ocd” look. During the summer, I go from seeing my friends every day at work to not seeing them for 2 months unless I can convince myself that the day is worth getting out of bed for. This look is: - I haven’t had a reason to leave my house in 3 days. - I haven’t showered in 3 days. - I threw on gym clothes to get coffee yesterday. - I won’t ask my friends to hang out because I can’t stand the way I look right now. - my OCD is going haywire. You can’t tell in this picture really, but my dermatillomania is out of control right now. If you saw me in person, you wouldn’t want to talk to me. I timed myself just for fun the last time I was in the bathroom today. For 47 minutes, I leaned in to the mirror to pull the skin off of my face. Earlier today, I had to hold a tissue to my cheek for ten minutes because the bleeding wouldn’t stop. My skin is swollen and on fire. Dermatillomania is very real. It hurts and it’s not something I can stop just because you tell me to (trust me, my mother even tried putting post-it notes on the mirrors telling me to stop) and I just want people to realize it. I have to wear make up every single second of my life. On days that I don’t, I’ve caught people staring. I’ve been made fun of for my skin. I’ve had kids ask me why my face was bleeding. So...here’s a sds for you. Sorry to turn it into such a bummer.

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