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i feel disconnected from literally everyone and everything.

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do u ever miss your own energy. like damn what happened to me

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my favorite childhood memory is having energy

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Officially in my quiet era i don't have much to say about anything anymore it is what it is and life goes on

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do u ever miss your own energy. like damn what happened to me

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I have a terrible habit of leaving things unsaid for the sake of peace

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What a waste..

We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything - what a waste!

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2023 is the worst year so far , Every year it keeps worsening and worsening..

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Just Stare and Remember.

It's October 2008

You just woke up at 6:30AM and it is raining heavily outside, your mom asked you to not attend school today, you are happy under a blanket and wake up again at 8:00 AM. It is still raining and the weather is cold, you are watching it rain through your window. You feel so good, you sit on your bed and turn on your tv, Your mom just made you breakfast, you are watching Cartoon Network. You don't have any depression, You are living your life with an urge to grow older as soon as possible. Life was so good, man.

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وصلت لمرحلة في حياتي بقرا فيها حاجات قديمة كتبتها وأنا مش عارف كتبتها ليه، ولا أقدر أعيد كتابتها دلوقتي، وبقيت حاسس إن فيه مني نسخ كتير بتعيش وتموت من غير ما أحس، بتتخلق، وتتقتل، وأنا مش واخد بالي، وعايش في الحياة على أني نفس الشخص اللي كنته من 10 سنين

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Selective amnesia is the secret of life ..

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Turned 27 and Still nothing..

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"Why, mother, nothing happens as we wish? Why? Why does one have to rot in silence torn between pain and desire? Why did I live my life in exile. Tell me mother, why can't one learn to love?" Eternity and a day (1988)

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The value of peace is priceless. Life is better alone..

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Nothing scares me more than the idea of trying to survive my whole life. Trying to survive a job that I hate, an unhappy marriage, a country that only drains me of all my potentials, forced friendships, my insecurities or aging. I look around me, and all I see are adults who are only trying to survive and it breaks my heart that life ends up becoming about surviving rather than living to way, way too many people. If there are 10 things I am sure of, the fact that we aren't created to just survive is one of them.

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I don't know if I miss u or miss those days when we're together , but I miss being happy with u , It's the best time I've ever spent , I also don't know if we'll be happy if we got back togrther again like the past time , What I know right now that I really miss being happy from the deep of my heart.

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