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being someone who's passionate about their interests when you're a horror fan really is a special layer of hell because every interaction you have with another person where the conversation turns to your hobbies and personal entertainments is a trial where if you show too much unrepentant glee at getting an opportunity to talk about your preferred subject you get to watch them mentally move you onto their list of untrustworthy individuals to avoid in the future in real time

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A note from someone who's graduating thesis for their literature degree was about how horror novels explore psychology.

"Horror books usually only become successful, or impactful if the main character isn't a good person. If the person doesn't have the ability to crack under pressure half the point of a horror piece goes out the window."

Why do I say this: well I'm just so sick of horror/psychological thriller fandoms.

Comments like "that relationship is so toxic and codependent why would you write something like that" Or "this character is so problematic" or "why are you romanticising ...." are honestly proof that either you don't understand the genre or you can't handle it.

Don't get me wrong, yes good can prevail in horror texts, yes there can be healthy relationships and good people in horror but I'm not talking about those, I'm talking about the specific psychological thriller sub genre of horror. Which makes up a large percentage of horror texts.

In psychological horror texts, characters are used to explore how a mind can corrupt due to trauma and stress. Mental illness, delusion, paranoia, all these things that make up an unreliable narrator thrive in horror because in these situations, that is how the human mind would react. It is very rare that a person would experience this stuff and come out fine. Sure some people may not crack to the extreme but that's what makes the novel interesting.

People generally don't enjoy reading about daily life , it's the same reason why people like to read about the apocalypse or heroes etc. we like to see what happens when a person is in a situation where they are broken

They always treat the text like the protagonists are not supposed to be good people and whenever someone isn't the rip it to shreds because "this is a toxic representation" like honestly fuck off. The genre isn't supposed to be healthy people doing healthy things. It's dark and gritty as a reflection of the crumbling and toxic society around us and as an internal reflection on the darkness within humans.

So, tldr: Let horror books be horrific. Let dark books be dark, and if you don't like it, go somewhere else, the genre isn't for you.

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When reading young adult fiction and children's fiction now a days, nothing makes me more furious than the amount of terrible teachers that are central antagonists in stories. The fact it's such a common theme breaks my heart, and the fact that these adult characters behave the way they do in so many stories tells me there is obviously a problem with it in reality.

As a teacher myself I see these characters and my heart breaks for these kids and I hate the villianous teachers in a new light now, not as the afraid and outlasted child I was when I used to read. But now as a working professional who wants to drive out abusive assholes from my field.

(context I'm reading don't let the forrest in and the maths teacher infuriates me to such a degree. And i want nothing more than for the teacher to be fired for how he's treating the students)

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Visited old fishmarket close today!! No skin stealing monsters in sight but there was some anglerfish graffiti, whoever did that I love you know,

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gays see something with "vampire" in it and hit reblog

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something about characters who are not necessarily doomed by the narrative but definitely doomed by their jobs

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I'm feeling so discouraged. I spent about $100 buying decorations for one of my classrooms (I'm a teacher) because the kids wanted extra stimulation in their environment.

All I did was buy some curtains, a few posters and put up some of their work. As such this encouraged me to clean a cupboard that was overfilled and unusable. And I sorted it out and left everything in the cupboard.

Only to have another teacher go off at me for ruining their organisational system (it didn't exist), and basically telling me off for trying to brighten up the place, despite the fact I bought and made decorations for her classes which were in the room to (even made her a nice name plate up).

I just hate the fact that my nice gesture is now being twisted into "over stepping of professional boundaries" because I cleaned the room and decorated.

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Joyous Theogamia to you all.

Many felicitations to the glorious couple, the multi millennia of their love, their radiance and grace.

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"...You wish to share?"

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one of the things I think about when it comes to speculating on how jon relates to queerness is the "they appear to be a man, or at least male-presenting" line from mag 74. this isn't the author's voice and values intruding on the character's voice because no other character talks like that, and leitner is a man so it doesn't matter much in the end, this is just how jon specifically approaches gendering strangers when he's making notes for his own use. imo that sounds like a guy who has spent a fair amount of time in queer social spaces and knows a few trans and gnc people.

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If you're autistic, your special interest is there to bring you joy and meaning, not to somehow become your "special autism talent" which makes up for you being disabled. Don't let ableists imply otherwise.

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Ahsoka: "Shadow Warrior" (2023) The Clone Wars: "Shattered" (2020)

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Honestly, good for them

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This is who's voting in the sexyman poll

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I way overdid it with my wrist, so unfortunately I can't type out what I drew. But idk. What do you think??? (If you can read my writing?)

So I've been thinking about the implications of Kevin and Kevin Jnr (child Kevin) being father and son, whilst also being the same person. Basically trying to comprehend what this means, when suddenly the line "I remember enough for the both of us" hit me.

What if all this time, Kevin wasn't misremembering events, or the writers were leaving plot holes. What if Kevin's collective memory is of his life but also Kevin Jnrs?

Kevin always seems to tell us two versions of his life, and yeah, it probably has something to do with their being multiple versions of Kevin (which I assume are towns under the smiling gods influence, if we are to believe Huntokar), it makes sense that there's a shared connection there. But what if the death of the smiling god in It Devours! Triggered a collapse of two of these worlds, that's why two Kevin's are in the. Same place, and they shouldn't be and it's fucking with their memory ability. It's fucking with Kevin

Idk I'm rambling at this point but I'll attach a proposed timeline in a bit. Just got to draw it up.

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So I've been thinking about the implications of Kevin and Kevin Jnr (child Kevin) being father and son, whilst also being the same person. Basically trying to comprehend what this means, when suddenly the line "I remember enough for the both of us" hit me.

What if all this time, Kevin wasn't misremembering events, or the writers were leaving plot holes. What if Kevin's collective memory is of his life but also Kevin Jnrs?

Kevin always seems to tell us two versions of his life, and yeah, it probably has something to do with their being multiple versions of Kevin (which I assume are towns under the smiling gods influence, if we are to believe Huntokar), it makes sense that there's a shared connection there. But what if the death of the smiling god in It Devours! Triggered a collapse of two of these worlds, that's why two Kevin's are in the. Same place, and they shouldn't be and it's fucking with their memory ability. It's fucking with Kevin

Idk I'm rambling at this point but I'll attach a proposed timeline in a bit. Just got to draw it up.

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your beauty never ever scared me