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Dont think Ill be coming back to this tumblr, unless its to go to my trauma sideblog. Really hate the environment thats been cultivated on this site.

But I wanted to thank everyone who ever sent me a nice ask, anonymously or not, who talked to me and supported me through some really hard times. I really wouldn't have made it without the kindness of internet strangers who were nice to me when I had no one and that talked me out of suicide.

Im currently on the right chemical cocktail that makes it so I can make it through the day like a normal person. My mental health has never been better and for once I am actually happy and grateful I'm alive. Thank you to all the people who were there for me, hope y'all are doing well too and that you have wonderful lives ♡☆

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the lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night

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apparently at some point when my now-girlfriend and i were flirting with each other but not quite in a relationship, she asked me how i felt about pet names, to which i replied “well you have to call them something” 

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trauma left me feeling like im an adult but also left me feeling like the pitiful child laying on the floor crying i was years ago

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I just called her. And she was like. Im in home depot. WHAT A STUPID FUCKING BITCH. SHES A FUCKING NURSE?!?!? SHE KNOWS BETTER AND INSTEAD OF SELF QUARANTINING IMMEDIATELY SHES AT HOME DEPOT?!?!??!?!!?

Cw covid talk i guess

My moms husband tested positive for coronavirus. So the probability that she has it is pretty high. And aside from him, she was seeing patients that were positive for covid

Her aunt wass hospitalized over covid and her dad died from it. So based off, that it could probably get her pretty bad.

A part of me is like. Oh i should care because she's my mom. But most of me is like. Hope she dies so i never have to deal with her bullcrap anymore and I can just move on and have my own life! And im feeling crappy because i shouldnt be wishing death on her but also she literally ruined my life and the possibility of ever being a normal person and having a quality of life . So like.

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Cw covid talk i guess

My moms husband tested positive for coronavirus. So the probability that she has it is pretty high. And aside from him, she was seeing patients that were positive for covid

Her aunt wass hospitalized over covid and her dad died from it. So based off, that it could probably get her pretty bad.

A part of me is like. Oh i should care because she's my mom. But most of me is like. Hope she dies so i never have to deal with her bullcrap anymore and I can just move on and have my own life! And im feeling crappy because i shouldnt be wishing death on her but also she literally ruined my life and the possibility of ever being a normal person and having a quality of life . So like.

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if you ever think your art is bad just remember: it's better than butch hartman's

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not to be Too Serious or whatever but i genuinely think channels like 5minutecrafts and shit like that should be wholesale banned from publishing content. a lot of this shit has moved from being just flat out fake to being genuinely dangerous? i just got recommended a 5minutecrafts makeup video that showed someone using deodorant to dissolve the ink off of a magazine page and use the inky deodorant slime as eyeshadow. like... what if some little kid does that shit and blinds themselves? that’s the issue is that these videos are targeted at little kids who don’t know any better and yeah parents should be monitoring their kids blah blah blah but the fact is that a lot of parents fucking DONT and even the ones who do can’t be there every second. kids shouldn’t be given easy access dangerous influences just because their parents SHOULD be keeping a better eye on them

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there was this trend in the 80s of making horror movies with really prettyboy-type male leads getting absolutely battered and bashed and gored up by cheesy practical effects and gross monsters. bring that back 

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Therapist Red Flags

Therapy is important and can be really helpful, but not all therapists are good at their job. Here’s a few things to look out for when you’re seeing a therapist:

Not listening to what you tell them

Ignoring confidentiality (except in emergencies)

Making you feel judged or ashamed

Ignoring or trivialising your needs

Consistently being late

Making fun of your needs / accomplishments

Being judgemental or critical of you

Not taking your feedback on sessions into account

Condescending facial expressions or body language

Ignoring what you want to do / accomplish in therapy

Talking too much about themselves

Making you feel like problems are all your fault

Being insensitive to your culture or religion

They’re making you feel bad about yourself

Using the phone or getting distracted during your sessions

Attempting to make romantic / sexual advances on you

Making you feel stupid or invalid for what you say or how you feel

Forgetting important details about you / your life

Pushing you too hard before you’re ready

You wondering if their behaviour is a red flag. If you’re looking it up then chances are you already feel uncomfortable in therapy. You should never be forced into seeing a therapist who makes you feel uneasy. There’s no shame in leaving and finding a different therapist.

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my review of the body i was given

★☆☆☆☆

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finna tell my kids this was fullmetal alchemist

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A comic about dissociation and mental illness in my life

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here is a short list of how Ben and Jerry are actually the same person:

-easily flustered/startled -married to hot blonde -their wives are amazing and too good for them -have three children -actual human disasters -bisexual

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I open tumblr and am immediately reminded why im not on here anymore lmao