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Now that’s livin ❤️

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My story...

25 years old now, have a beautiful young man 9 years old named Landen, had him when I was 16, my life’s been a roller coaster and thought sharing might help other young mums or other young teens who have grown up in care homes who I want to show that with strength love and determination you can get through anything ❤️

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Forever young together, a young mums story.

Part 1. I Fell pregnant with my little boy when I was 15 years old, in year 11 at Lowanna College. I remember the day so clearly when I found out I was pregnant. I had been sent to the paediatrician, my quantum worker Joan had picked me up and taken me to go back on adhd medication because I found it hard to concentrate and didn’t listen in school 😅 it was my best friends birthday 25th Feb 2009, I remember laying down on the bed in the doctors room and having a body examine as they did every time I had gone, I still don’t know why they had to do a body examine but that’s when the dr asked if I was sexually active and I laughed like pfft na man (it was one time I’m not active I was thinking in my head) he was pushing on my stomach looking me in the eyes so intensely, I can still see his eyes looking at me and now know they are eyes of concern, eyes of disbelief of this girl not knowing, I didn’t know I was pregnant, I had no clue, I was always a bigger girl, I didn’t get fatter, I remember doing a pregnancy test with a friend Bianca in the school toilets and it came up negative, i remember doing it because I knew I had sex but didn’t know if he had cummed in me or not, I had gotten periods and never seen a change in my body, I hadn’t got sick.. I guess I was blessed with a sick pregnancy because I had no bloody clue, and mind you I didn’t even know what a blow job was when I fell pregnant hahaha. The paediatrician finished pushing on my belly and stepped out of the room for abit and my worker Joan leant down and asked me if I’m sure I’m not pregnant and I remember my whole body getting hot and embarrassed like no way, then the pediatrition came back in with another lady who was a maternal health nurse, she had a blonde bob big glasses with a big overbite. I don’t remember her name but I remember seeing a weird little machine in her hand and some other things. She asked me if it was okay to press on my tummy and I said yes not knowing what’s going on freaking out full of anxiety like why are they all touching me what is wrong I’m not pregnant I had sex once. Then she said those words, you’re pregnant.. I find it hard to explain the explosion of emotions I felt within my body at that second, I instantly felt fucking terrified and that feeling didn’t go away for along time. The lady then grabbed that weird little machine she walked in with and put this weird gel on it and pressed it on my stomach, then this loud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud my baby’s heart beat, so loud and so fast, I just started balling my eyes out and freaking out, Joan with her beautiful words helped to calm me down and telling me everything’s going to be okay, they all were comforting me whilst the lady began to say to me how far she thinks I am and around when she thinks I’ll be due and she said around the 27th of May. 3 months. 3 months away from having a baby. That was one of the most terrifying overwhelming days of my life.