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You cannot change anything, not even your past. You can choose to soak yourself in tears of yestern's pain or to unchain yourself from the rail of flashback.

Lainey Cruise

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I wonder, if I texted you in the middle of the night that I don’t know what I’m doing anymore, if you’d text back. If you’d wonder what it means that you’re the one person out of everyone I trust. If you’d stay up with me for hours, even though you have to be up early tomorrow. I wonder if you’d do it because you want to make sure I’m okay or because you can’t sleep anyway. Or just because you’d feel guilty if you didn’t. I wonder if, when you see me the next day, you’d ask if I was okay or pretend it never happened. Because every night I’m breaking, and you’re the only one I want to know. But I’m not sure you’d want to be the one I tell.

(via emptymidnights)

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i don’t know how to erase hurt. sometimes i still cry about him when i didn’t cry at his funeral. nobody really cares how you cope with things as long as you cope quickly, a silent rehashing of your life in the sudden void. stuff goes missing in the wake of it. like something has to fill up all that sucking emptiness. the pit of no end. you throw in your emotions or food or showers or everything. and people ask you why you don’t just get over it. there’s always somebody better at getting over it, and sometimes it’s you. sometimes you’re at work the next day even though no one expected that from you; only to miss a solid week seven months in the future. how do you explain that. sorry i just kind of put it in a box and the box finally leaked. sorry it just got out on me. i know it’s silly. i know it’s silly.

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I just want to borrow your few minutes to think of me and to reflect our shared mem'ries together. Would you be sad IF I will be gone forever? Is death the only way for you to think of me for a while?

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I am just tired of everything running in my mind. I am fed up for the hurt killing me inside. Seems like I am a living dead...

Lainey Cruise

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I don’t hate you, but I should. I don’t regret trusting you, but I should. I don’t regret a single moment we spent together, but I should.

I don’t think I ever could regret you (via gemmarambles)

I just can't hate you the same way, I can't unlove you.

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Your name still gives me a heartache.

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Life seems to be unfair sometimes. You have given so much yet you got nothing in return. You planted love but you reaped hurt. How can this world be so cruel?

@dreamcatcher529@wordpress.com In the Shadow of the White Mirror

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I wish you were here to console my crushed spirit. I wish you were here to dry my tears, to listen to my confusions, to drag me out of my brokeness. I wish you were here to see me drowning in tears, to hear all my 11:11 wish, to see what I have become since the day you left. I wish you were here back in my arms again if not I wish to die rather than suffer from this pain aching me to my deathbed...

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I kept on going back on our past but you are no longer there…

Lainey Cruise

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“Still remember a time when you felt like home. You and me up against the great unknown. You were my life, now you’re out of my life. Yeah, i guess that’s life” 🎶

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Why are you still holding on to something you know will never be yours anymore? Why are you still waiting for someone you know will never come back to see you? Why are you still hurting? Why are you still hoping? Why?

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Slowly fading in the smoke of downheartedness.

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Never run back to whatever broke you.

https://twitter.com/goodquoteco (via words-of-emotion)

 (via quotelounge)

Tears may come running down your face, Sobs may be your loudest cry, Heart may be broken to its painful phase, And everything seems to be a magical lie.

But...

Fight a good fight; it's not too late, To rebuild yourself from agony, Make a new start; a better fate, Some happy things aren't for eternity.

[elaineycruz-blog]

The pain of your yesterday can be washed away by your amazing works today.

Lainey Cruise

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Be still. Hang on.