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I want to get so thin and sickly I land in the hospital or get taken out of my mom's home. I'm middle eastern so you know how the culture is, you're not allowed out of the house unless you're married.. I have an abusive father (his side of the family is insane too) and brother who both went to jail so if I move out without an excuse they'll kill me anyway so might aswell land myself in the hospital yk

It sounds dangerous but man it's probably the best idea I've had in a while

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low-key toxic but i hate when ppl i know irl show signs of disordered eating

i know it’s bad but it turns into a competition for me

like what if they become skinnier than me 0.0 or what if they’re secretly competing w me

makes for good motivation though •_•

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I wish all of us 3d girlies will achieve happiness fr one day

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In life, you won't earn anything if you don't give your soul to it. Remember this : you are the only one who can reach perfection. Don't let anyone tell you what to do.

You want to lose weight ? Lose it.

You want to starve yourself everyday ? Starve yourself.

If you want something, manage you so you got it.

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starving myself is a form of self-love... because when i'm skinny, maybe i'll love myself <3

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I know that there is no way to be skinny than starve but God i'm hungry asf...

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cant tell whether i lost weight or not cause my fucking body dysmorphia wont let me see anyone other than a fatass in the mirror

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guys remember when you eat bad, you feel bad

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Being skinny is no more something that I may be trying, it's a need. Il NEED to be skinny, I need to feel dizzy and cold all the time. To see people around me being concerned by my low weight, to have classmates and teacher worried 'bout me, to see everyone giving me food "just in case".

That's what I want. That's what I need. I will be skinny and everyone will want me. I'll show them that I can wear revelant outfit too.

I. Will. Be. Skinny.

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i can't wait for the day i'm underweight so i can be a legitimate ana girl

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repeat with me,

i am not going to b1nge this weekend

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nothing feels better than seeing your weight go down

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when i found comfort in :

being cold

being weak

dry lips

dizziness

irregular or no periods

losing my voice

looking dead

the numbers finally started rapidly dropping .

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Weight status :

Start weight : 58kg

Current weight : 58kg

Goal weight : 50 kg

Ultime goal weight : 48kg

Lowest weight : 49kg

Highest weight : 60 kg...

Height : 168cm

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maturing is realizing that omading is THE EASIEST WAY AND ITS VERY EFFECTIVE.

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Me after having a normal eating day: wow maybe I'm recovering, maybe food doesnt scare me anymore maybe I can just enjoy food now!

Me 3 hours later

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Do you really think that skinny girl have the "I'll start tomorrow" thought ? No. They starve themselves and get the body they deserve. We can be better than them, we can get our body goal before all these people who will start tomorrow, let's start now.