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i keep looking for you

SYML - where is my love

Jeune - Ruby Haunt

Patrick Watson - Je te laisserai des mots

La femme - Elle ne t'aime pas

CAS - Apocalypse

Lord Huron - The Night We Met

Sufjan Stevens - Fourth of July

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he was scary as ....

frightening

terrifying

creepy

evil

cruel

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bro i think i have a crush on a nerd

it´s been 5 days of knowing him, he makes me laugh aaall the dang time

he´s smart, he reads, plays guitar, bro i do have crush

not like i plan to ever act on it

but just, i like him

i think i´ve accepted the fact that he´s now my crush and that makes it real, i told my cousin and my mom today

he´s ugly though, kind of, he has pretty eyes, but man i fell for the way he´s so funny and fun to be around

he knows a lot

but he´s been in many relationships, so, he´s no good hahahaha

anyway, it´s nice to remember what having a crush on someone is like

dang his humor makes him so attractive aaand broooooo HE´S A NOVEMBER MAN

DANG i really do love november people, don´t i?

i´m pretty sure after 3 months or way less this infatuation will go away

but it´s nice, having a crush makes going to school a million times more fun

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i was alone

then with you

then i wasn't

then i was

and, once again, i never am

again, again, again

i repeat my mistake

but only in vain

and this time is worse

this time, I only find myself

consumed in remorse

it's insane

it's sad, really

the havoc of lust

not being able to think freely

but only about dust

it's like it's cursed

a memory, more like a slave

shall be put in a grave

it is time I forgave.

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°integrity

°loyalty

°wisdom

°treat them as you wished to be treated

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°no time

no time to grieve my house

then my bunny

then my room

then my friend

and now my dog

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°grief

i do like your face

i wanted to see it

and i loved your smile

i should just admit it

oh, those eyes

that look

its unbearable

its no good

now its time to grieve

all those things

to let go and forgive

oh, i hate endings

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-"you did it on time"

No, I did not

I should've done it more than four months ago, not one month ago

Because during those four months I made the most stupid decisions I have ever made in my life

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I LET YOU BE THE FIRST

AND I KNEW I WAS NOT YOURS

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my tolerance is great, but so is my fury -Yuriza Furizaki

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you became a stain i wish so bad i could erase from my history -Yuriza Furizaki

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Once I take that decision, I don't look back. And if it happens that means i am really really sick of you and I don't want to have anything to do with you ever again. You become a stain i wish so bad i could erase from my history.

It takes some time to reach to that place though. Cuz it does take a lot to make me hate you, or even to be mad at you. My tolerance is great, but so is my fury.

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you dont know how much ive yelled at myself in the mirror for making such a mistake as ignoring my own voice

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i gave into you bc i feared there wouldn't be any better possibilities for me to choose in the future, thought you were all there could be, ever. i acted out of fear, so when i faced the fear of losing you, i did such stupid things i now wholeheartedly regret

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i wanna do it again

but now im in a different phase

the anger phase

im angry and disappointed at myself

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i hate how after break ups it is all about bringing that other person down and striving to tear them down and make them regret not choosing you

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do you look like me

do you feel like me

do you obey my commandments

do you love like this

do you focus on the things above instead of the temporal ones

do you pray everyday

is god your priority

do your actions glorify me

do you trust me

do you love your enemy

when will you share the gospel with others

why are you not satisfied with what i give you everyday

am i enough for you