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hes gone, i thought id have to live the rest of my life under his shadow but he is gone, i will likely never even have to talk to him again and the rest of my family are realising who he really is and distancing themselves from him too

how am i supposed to recover when i will likely never be able to cut off my abuser?

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"oh hes sick poor him, he cant help it"

oh yes poor boy it must be so hard abusing and manipulating people for nothing but his own personal gain 😥

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therapy works btw, it takes time but goddamn it works, if youve tried therapy like cbt before and it hasnt worked or if youre autistic then i greatly reccomend person centered councelling/therapy

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begging people to stop blaming the parents when someone turns out to have aspd, trauma has a big impact on developing aspd but it isnt always a factor and even if it is stop assuming that it was parents who cause the trauma

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i think my pyrophobia may be coming back a bit and im trying so hard bc i don't wanna have so many sleepless nights again

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if i could kill him without consequences id be in paradise

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just know that if you hide, it doesn’t go away

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it’s like as soon as i work out a part of my life another thing crops up to fill it’s place. or is it just that the best way to get attention is to be in pain so i force myself to be worse and pretend to have all these things wrong with me that i actually don’t have

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I feel like nobody talks about when you’ve been mentally ill for so long that you can’t tell what’s the illness and what’s your personality.

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I wasn’t a brat or too much to handle

I wasn’t stupid or childish

I’m autistic and mentally ill and just now finally trying to take care of myself

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🎶It's beginning to feel a lot like seasonal depression🎶

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seasonal depression ruins any chance of me enjoying halloween

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the fact that seasonal affective disorder is called SAD is just- why’re you mocking us?

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they call it “seasonal depression” because it’s the seasoning to my regular depression, a little extra spice if you will, some sprinkles of despair, some hints of Melancholy a la carte, I look outside to the dead trees and go “same”

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um could i get one murder please :)

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my psychiatrist says that i most likely have a personality disorder but she has no idea which one :/