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bitch i was supposed to be dead 2 decades ago dont be reminding me 😭😭😭

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"maybe if i just sh a little ill tell calmer :)"

ended up slamming myself into a mirror like 4 minutes later. myth debunked!

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my mom looking at my arm after i shaved and then pointing at my scars and i gotta be like

"dw i used the razor for a different reason this time"

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me crawling back to tumblr after gaining all the weight back, 2 years after deleting my account because id recovered

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i was sane last week, watch out for my resurgence this week😩

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interesting revelation is that blood from the thigh and from the wrist tastes different

(JUST TO CONFIRM not into cannibalism just slicing myself up thanks)

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not sure why im still alive but i am hoping maybe i can breathe again

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my anxiety 🤝 my ed

making me nauseous

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- Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka

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- Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka

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when they find out im the angry, snappy, plate throwing kind of depressed and not the sad, melancholic, tortured artist kind of depressed

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"It's all in your head." - Thank you Janette, that's why it's called mental illness. It cannot be in my ass.

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when im crying over school and have to remind myself that i literally have debilitating depression, an ed and a sh problem. like that is not my biggest issue

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sleep is the closest i can get to death

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kind of wishing he was still here with me. god, he was absolutely horrible.

i miss him to death.

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the morning after an attempt. i feel horrible

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im afraid i dont even have the strength to try anymore. another year, how am i still alive?