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Hi guys, I need to take a hiatus for a bit of time. I hate explaining this cause it feels like a dark dirty secret.

My mother full on attacked me this morning, she is pretty much holding my father and I hostage emotionally as she is mentally unwell with Parkisons and what I suspect to be BPD - not depression. My mother has masked her illnesses for years but since 2020, she has physically attacked me, verbally abused me, tried to smear campaign me, accused me of theft, elder abuse, and defamation of character. Typing this all out is making me sick because I never once spoke of my plights and I hope in all my heart none of you go through what I have. My brother cut contact with my mother in June and it has sent her into a downward spiral. I'm assuming this is a scam as she is trying to say the kindle I pay for is taking money from her account and took 300 dollars, I showed her the order list and she proceeded to call me a liar, disown me, withdraw helping me in further my education, and wants me to leave with my father as she has always revered me, her only daughter, as other to her. I have taken care of my mother for over 10+ years, I have never had helped from my sibling, I have made her appointments, cared for her post surgery, and assured she was always safe. On fourth of July, my mother in her fit of rage didn't notice the top stair and nearly fell off the stairs, I caught her while snapping off several of my acrylics. I nearly went over the rail guard trying to protect her. The fight has been caused because I went to a concert on Saturday and now, she has a problem with me going out alone and not including her, but I do and she will say I don't making me out to be the villain. To not sound dramatic; my soul is broken and my heart is destroyed. This is the most honest and raw I have ever been in my life. I am scared of her hatred for me but I want to live and sit in the sunlight, laugh, and smile again without thinking I will be punished. I want to have a relationship with my father without her being jealous and assuming I have stolen what is hers. I don't know what tomorrow will be or how I move on from today, but I can't stay in my home, and I cannot take care of someone that wants my soul dead as hers. I know I can be a bitch, but I have burned myself multiple times to assure her warmth, I have always given 100x of myself and I cannot sit with someone who says I love you and then, go fucking die, the next moment. All I can say from the bottom of my heart is I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone in the rpc and I'm so sorry to place this all upon you guys. This is place meant for fun and laughter but I have nowhere else to turn to and vanishing seems wrong. I feel as if a dark secret is coming out and in a metaphorical sense; I feel very dirty. I cannot say more than urge anyone who is contemplating leaving a situation like mine or cutting off a parent to know; I'm with you, I love you, you deserve all that is good too. It is so hard for me to say I want my mom when I come to realize; I have no mom. There is a part of me that says, my mom loves me, but there is a part of me that says, your mom will be your grave. I choose life. and maybe my mother will scream she hates me, wants me dead, and maybe in my heart I'll never ever understand not even with the universe showing me all it's secrets but I want to live like everyone else.

for those who want to keep in contact, please add me at z0mbiepowder on discord.

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It should be said too Itsuki does not have a definition for his sexuality, he is merely just happy to oblige, sex is not a moral battle to him. Inherently, it is done because he enjoys it, that is it. He is also referred to by the majority of outsiders with more feminine like characteristics as the Gojo Clan is dominantly ran by women, though he himself prefers to use masc terms.

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🛐🛐🛐 + my bobheart agenda

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    Hello! This has been on my mind for sometime, if you are interested in a dynamic, now is your chance. Please stab the heart, by doing so I will contact you in order to plot my only requirement is that you have a muse or muses in mind that you would like to establish a connection with. Please keep in mind, I am open to becoming exclusive with an individual the requirement though is that we must keep some form of contact going as I consider this a pretty lock & sealed scenario. After two months if there is no interaction OOC wise or IC wise, I will choose to axe the dynamic as I do not find it fair to be exclusive with a one sided relation. You are free to ask for as many dynamics as you choose, just know what you like & with who, that is it. Romantic, platonic, kinship, frenemies, what the hell are we labeling our relationship relationship? Heck yeah, let's do it.

OC ROSTER || CANON ROSTER.

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Seeing Itsuki without multiple face coverings or dressed modestly is truly a spiritual experience.

Now, there is also Itsuki who spits into his lover's mouth & learning what a nasty man he is. That too is considered spiritual in some sense.

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[ FIND ] itsuke....messy

           SWELTERING THE LOW THRUM PULSATES WITHIN HIS GRASP; whatever is left, there is nothing more to give. Marble counter tops pristine as ever, the bodied sewn together & the flesh that will meet the flames, a constant cycle of life & death. Urns that adorn the walkway that lead into the study, here the Serpent can be found at rest or merely toying with what he viewed as academics, never mind the grotesque nature. There’s a charm to be invited into such confines, the subtle implication of trust that permits itself every now & then. “Do you know what I hate the most?” his tone, brutality entwined with silk, sharp & stabbing in a clinical precision as he does not look up from his newest work.

        “Contemporary homes, they lack the fundamental of charm that old architecture grants. Soul, warmth, character, all things we should pursue” there must be an irony as the thwack! of the metal rod renders the ribcage open. Standing poised, the imposing figure finally laughs, refusing to pull down the paper thin mask. “Do you enjoy visiting me here?” it’s personal, etched with a mischievous for an older man that was surprising, one that has seen a vast amount within his lifetime, feared little conquest.

      There is an array of spectacles, the young that take enjoyment in not guarding their features, running about carelessly in silken dresses or the movement of linen clothing to endure the sweltering humid summers, should he admonish them? No, a faithful guardian does not cast his judgement for such follies, he merely permits it. Even he relishes in the faint luxuries, fabric that was rolled to his wrist with ease, an old but expensive watch slathered in the essence of deep crimson, pale locks exposed & coiling loosely from their usual hold. Blue gloves drenched in blood, gallons of it, he thinks when it’s merely a few splatters that will wash away upon the floor drain. Pressed against Itsuki's cheek marring the impeccable nature of sun-kissed skin, reluctantly, in annoyance, the mask is pulled unceremoniously. The tip of his split tongue slithering outwards to rub against the pad of his calloused thumb.

         "Oh, I think I was too rough with my newest toy - didn’t realize how dirty I’ve become” an admission of sincere glee. Benevolence that was calming in pacifist nature, they needed no reason to assert authority, for their grace & kindness hid away the spectrum of violence beneath the snow. There was no frost, no tundra, just lanterns & a vast array of energy that was ancient as they, coiling into the gut as the summer continued to thrive. Was it in his hair? A great honor it was to watch the Willow remove all that bound him, the slivers of flesh, in his youth he’d proclaim with a boyish arrogance; to see him stripped was an honor, enjoy it for now. White that cascades downwards in smoky trails, stained with red as he tuts in irritation underneath his breath, “I’d ask for you to join me in the baths but, even I think that is taking things too far amongst watchful eyes” lingering gazes that watch one another. Without hesitation, he moves, finger pressing against Kenshin's cheek trailing behind the remnants of blood.

        “Enough, stop staring, this isn’t the first time you’ve caught me in a mess it will not be the last. Come now, I need to change, you can be a good boy & wait patiently for me”  

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he's forty years old. he's babygirl. he's unhinged. he's creating problems for himself and everyone else. he's god's favorite punching bag. he's a whore. he's pathetic. he's my poor little meow meow

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I sometimes think of placing the OC's on another blog but I'm not sure! I should probably state they take priority the majority of the time even if I'm always down to write whatever canon is requested :)

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glad midsommar

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Happy Sunday, if you want to be choked, just remember Tsuyu has the biceps for that

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a chicken! it's running about on one side of the road with no intention of crossing. looking closely, you see it has a blank name tag around its neck. what will you name it?

          GENTLE LAUGHTER THAT REACHES INTO THE DEPTHS; from her lungs, Lunafreya beams a delightful nature. Sylleblossom that wave peculiarly within the gentle winds, Umbra’s faithfulness on display as the canine rests & wags their fluffy tail. “A visitor” the melodic voice, elegant as it is ancient beyond recognition perks, chocobo chick? Oh no, just a very fluffy chicken. Kneeling down, she brushes the fabric of her pearlescent white gown, “Did you escape the neighbors gardens?” a lonesome joke, the manors of the nobility of Tenebrae all but vanished after the conquest, only their relics left behind. Perhaps this was a straggler from the previous maze of life that once bloomed. “No tag, poor thing, what should we call you?” The Oracle, her soft touch reminiscent to a gentle current, lost in thought as her eyes lit up, “Fluffy? No, that’s too cliche, Helios - that is more dignified” her slim form standing, arising to gaze upon the vast floating islands & quieted manors.

       “Well, little one, I am sure you are famished after such a large journey - would you like to stay for tea?”  

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𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

key words were relationship, tension, denial and romance, forbidden. there are 69 mid flirtacious and then 69 explicit prompts. you can change names and pronouns as you see fit.

69 Flirtatious to Explicit Dialogue Prompts:

"You know, I've always been drawn to people who are dangerous."

"You keep looking at me like that, and I might start thinking you're interested."

"If I didn't know better, I'd say you were flirting with me."

"Your lips look... distracting."

"Do you really want me to leave, or are you just saying that?"

"How close do I have to get before you admit you want me here?"

"Careful, if you keep touching me like that, I might forget we're just talking."

"It's hard to focus when you're sitting so close."

"I don't bite... unless you ask nicely."

"You think I didn't notice the way you've been staring all night?"

"I wonder what you'd do if I kissed you right now."

"There's something about the way you say my name..."

"I bet you'd look even better out of that outfit."

"Don't you think it's a bit hot in here? Or is that just you?"

"I love the way your skin feels against mine."

"If you want me to stop, all you have to do is say so."

"You're making it very hard to behave."

"How much longer are we going to pretend there's nothing here?"

"I can feel your heart racing. You're not as calm as you're pretending to be."

"You think you're the only one who can't stop thinking about this?"

"You keep teasing, but we both know where this is going."

"Is this really what you want? Because once I start, I won't be able to stop."

"I love the way you blush when I get close."

"Do you always flirt with danger, or is this just for me?"

"There's something I want to do, but I'm not sure you're ready for it."

"You can try to resist me, but we both know how this ends."

"Your body tells me everything your words don't."

"I dare you to come just a little bit closer."

"You're tempting me in ways you don't even realize."

"What if I told you I’ve been thinking about you all day?"

"Let me show you just how good this could be."

"I've been waiting all night to get you alone."

"The way you're looking at me... it's almost like you're daring me."

"You don't have to say anything, but your body is speaking for you."

"You know where this is headed, right?"

"I’ve been patient, but I’m not sure how much longer I can wait."

"Tell me what you want, and I’ll give it to you."

"What if I kissed you right here? Would you stop me?"

"I can't stop thinking about the way you'd feel under me."

"You want me, don’t you? I can see it in your eyes."

"If you're going to tease me, at least be ready for the consequences."

"Every time you touch me, it’s like you’re daring me to lose control."

"It’s not fair the way you make me feel when you’re this close."

"I want to hear you say you want me."

"Don’t be shy. You can tell me what you’ve been thinking."

"You know, I love the way you taste."

"Your skin is so soft… I can’t wait to explore more."

"I can feel how much you want this."

"What if I told you I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time?"

"Are you going to keep teasing me, or are you finally going to do something about it?"

"The way you tremble when I touch you... I could get used to that."

"We shouldn’t... but it’s the only thing I can think about."

"You're playing with fire, and we both know how this ends."

"I want to hear you moan my name."

"Your lips are driving me crazy... I can’t take it anymore."

"If you keep this up, I'm going to have to take matters into my own hands."

"I can’t stop imagining the way you'd feel pressed against me."

"Tell me you want this as much as I do."

"I love the way your breath hitches when I get closer."

"We both know this is inevitable, don’t we?"

"I’ve been thinking about you all night. It’s time to make those thoughts a reality."

"You're making it very hard to resist you."

"Do you like the way I make you feel?"

"All I can think about is what comes next."

"I want to feel every inch of you."

"You don’t have to say a word. Just show me how much you want this."

"I love the way your body reacts when I touch you."

"I’ve been patient long enough. Now it’s my turn."

"If you’re ready, I’ll give you everything you’ve been waiting for."

50 Actions from Flirtatious to Explicit:

Brushing their hand lightly against the other's as they talk.

Gently placing a hand on their lower back, guiding them through a crowded room.

Leaning in close enough to whisper, but not touching.

Tracing the outline of their lips with a fingertip.

Lightly tugging on their shirt, pulling them closer.

Running fingers through their hair, grazing the scalp just enough to leave them breathless.

Pressing a knee against theirs under the table, keeping eye contact.

Letting a hand linger on their shoulder just a second too long.

Grazing lips against the curve of their ear, barely touching.

Running a hand up their arm, tracing the muscles.

Slipping fingers under their collar, teasing the edge of their neckline.

Gently trailing fingertips down their spine.

Squeezing their hand just a little tighter while walking.

Holding their gaze, slowly licking their lips.

Lightly biting their lip after a kiss, pulling back with a smirk.

Tucking a strand of their hair behind their ear, letting fingers brush the skin.

Pinning them against a wall, hands braced on either side.

Pressing their lips softly to the back of their hand.

Gripping their waist, pulling them into an embrace that lingers just a bit too long.

Brushing their lips along the side of their neck, testing their reaction.

Grazing a thumb over their pulse point.

Tugging at their belt, teasing without going further.

Running hands over their chest, tracing patterns through their clothes.

Slowly sliding a hand down their arm, interlacing fingers.

Leaning in, breath hot against their lips before pulling away.

Letting fingertips dance along their jawline.

Sinking teeth lightly into their shoulder, marking them gently.

Running a hand along the curve of their hip, squeezing slightly.

Sliding a hand up the inside of their thigh, stopping just short of their goal.

Whispering close to their ear while caressing the nape of their neck.

Lightly nipping at their earlobe before kissing a path down their neck.

Letting hands roam over their body, exploring curves and planes.

Pressing a hand flat against their chest, feeling their heartbeat speed up.

Hooking fingers into the waistband of their pants, pulling them closer.

Tucking a thumb under their chin, lifting their face for a kiss.

Pulling them into a heated kiss, hands gripping their hair.

Slipping hands beneath their shirt, caressing their bare skin.

Sliding a hand between their thighs, applying gentle pressure.

Tugging them closer by the waistband, teasing with a slow grind.

Nuzzling against their neck, inhaling their scent before lightly biting.

Guiding their hands to roam, showing them where they can touch.

Tracing patterns on their skin with lips and teeth, leaving a trail of heat.

Grabbing their hips and pulling them flush against their body.

Letting fingers slide under their clothes, exploring sensitive spots.

Wrapping arms around them, hands pressing into their back as they kiss.

Grazing a hand over their thigh, applying slow, deliberate pressure.

Tugging at their shirt, lips grazing their collarbone.

Teasing them with soft kisses down their chest, going lower.

Gently pushing them back onto the bed, lips following their descent.

Wrapping a leg around theirs, pulling them closer for an even deeper kiss.

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it's stupid late for most but if you'd like a starter with TANIGUCHI ISAMU, stab the heart. If you're a multi, please state who this is for!

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JJK0 Isamu already in five years on the job, long fluffy braid with a single ribbon entwined into his locks; pale blue. Smoking an import brand that is blend of herbal & nicotine. He's well spoken, meticulous, conducts himself with an air of elegance despite having an aura of being a drifter in life, even in his own.

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How am I suppose to be a normal functioning adult when we're getting Rockstar!Lestat, Wolf Slayer!Lestat, and Marius De Romanus in one damn season?

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JACOB ELORDI as FELIX CATTON in SALTBURN

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       THE SLOTH LIKE EXPRESSION DOESN’T CHANGE, bottles of fine liquor, some that shimmer in an opulence others too dark, decadent. It is a constant torrent of bodies that move to the vibration of neon signs with the promises of an unending night. Pale smoke, he watches from the back but no drink that lingers within fragile fingers, freckles & beauty marks that kiss pale skin, venomous green eyes. “Sorry, Sayuri-chan isn’t here” there’s a gesture, a flick of the hand that demonstrates the bartender should back away, black silk unceremoniously disheveled & buttons too low, silver, everything silver in adornments.  A stoic face that remains unblemished, eyes that flash neon as the shaker clacks with perfect sphere shaped ice.

       “Mocktail, you don’t strike me as a drinker or someone looking to escape into dreams, @achroanimus”