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Take a break, this cute tardigrade needs time to cross your dash:

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december thurs 26 2024

what is UP my guy (me), quite a bit has happened since i last posted to this blog.

liiiike i couldn't stop thinking about how soft and cute jellycats are so when i saw a smudge elephant and smudge bunny at indigo on november 21st, i needed to grab at least the elephant (which james bought for me bc i didn't have my wallet)... i named her peanut and she's moved from my bed to my desk chair and vice versa every day as she watches me sleep and not go on my tablet when i'm trying to sleep in my completely pitch black bedroom <3

i also went back and bought the smudge bunny on the following monday on the 25th... he's still in my jellycat bag for when i feel like playing with a new dude and james named him herb :3

we also got new glasses which i took several weeks to decide on... fyi doctors had such a nice selection and had some asian fit frames! i ended up going with eyewares and buying the extra transition lenses at $140 to save money that i otherwise would need to shell out at eyewares since i already shelled out a bunch of money for the lifetime wanikani ($289.60) and marumori ($402.30) subscriptions............

i figured that the gamified aspect of a learning tool might make me more consistent which-- it honestly has! i just got sick (literally though i think it was just a normal cold this time and not covid again) from working so much during peak season so i haven't progressed as much as i'd like goddamn... the volume was way higher this year i'd assume bc of the canada post strike

i also stopped working out since maybe a week or two ago which again, makes me feel sub-optimal tbh

btw, we get thanksgiving and christmas off from fedex. be sure to at least ask jeremy about it since i confused keith so much on the thanksgiving.

i got an entire free queen sized pepperoni and mushroom pizza from fedex on the eve because the place was gonna be locked up for the following two days and apparently No One ate from it by the end of the night so i took it home yippee

this year's christmas wasn't the best since james' car got some damage and a lot of money needs to be paid for it...

ah-- well, i want peak to be over so i can get back to working out and studying more and maybe.. maybe even start to understand all those dou that i bought ?? and also those cute lil pingu books too!

until next time!

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oct mon 7 2024

this morning, i went to the bathroom to do all that i needed to before actually doing anything else-- largely because of bobert that i sat on top of my laptop.

it help though, since i kept chewing on my toothbrush head while i 5-minute scrolled through my twitter feed. there's a reason why my last toothbrush head-- not the one i used from july to the beginning of october, no, no-- the one that came before it lasted 6 months instead of just 3.

i worked hard at work today and used all five of my hours to get as much done as i could. but hard work tires you out

there was pizza in the office today and i got to take three squared slices... they always order from antonino's !

afterwards, i asked james if we could visit indigo (jellies) and bbw (to re-smell that scent that the ppl on reddit really liked... together weather) but i didn't buy anything form either store, though i did try on together weather and i scrunched my nose at it which is a shame because the packaging is quite pretty.

got home, ate dinner, then organized my pile of clothes on my bins and put away some in those bins which looks a bit nicer now than it did before. every time i did a task, i rewarded myself by squishing bobert!

gosh, the fabric and fluffy stuffing feels exquisite on the fingers <3

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oct sun 6 2024

hey, it's me again! it seems i've skipped the entirety of september when it comes to posts on this blog... ah, oh well.

the most eventful thing that did happen in september was darienne's birthday party which i asked for her to postpone until a week later, just so gisele could join (she had a shift to work the week-of her birthday...)

i also bought two jellycats from jones & co! they're bobert the eggplant and bertie the fun guy :)

oh ! and on the same day, i got some embroidery supplies! i really can't make anything now and i can't follow the kit that i got, but i did learn how to thread and knot some embroidery floss! i also practised some stitches!

aside from those things, the first week of october felt rough-- especially on the second (fedex job interview for my own position) and the third (lost my burgandy usher shirt so i showed up in a white shirt instead and needed to borrow a shirt).

today though, i did chores for ~4 hrs straight: washing the dishes, cleaning the kitchen sink, sweeping the kitchen floors, surface-cleaning my jellies, and cleaning the bathroom mirror... mostly because it was so nice outside! it it were cloudy outside, i would've been way less likely to budge.

but i am in the mood to cross things off of my to-do list.

i'd like to clean my room up a bit, clean the bathroom sink and bath, and of course, finish that drawing the i meant to give darienne a month ago...

we'll see if i can manage anything before next weekend-- prob not, but at hte very least, i'd like to work out again 'cause last week was stressful!

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august thurs 29 2024

it's almost been a week since i've moved into my new office space in the gateway area and i've been enjoying it so far!

^^photo taken on the day that i moved into the office

because of this, i've been able to do some fun stuff while i'm in the office! plus, the contraption under the monitors themselves are height-adjustable which means i can stand and work if i wish to-- i think a good system for me would be to try to stand most of the time while working (not the whole time tho 'cause my feet'll hurt) and then sit down (with finality and confidence) after my work's all done for the day

and i did just that today! i was done maybe an hour and a half before my 5 hrs shift ended so i tried to memorize some N5 い-adjectives and i got almost halfway through the list i had saved in my online sticky notes.

i still get a bit nervous that someone might come to my office for whatever reason and interrupt whatever (fun stuff) i'm doing, so i've developed a habit of looking behind me at the door every so often.

but, i really do enjoy listening to kenshi yonezu's music while doing my own thing! i also didn't realise how dark the office is with the lights turned off... i don't know if i should keep them off for most of the time or not.

i also downloaded a timer app onto my laptop because i enjoyed using the one that came with my work computer! it's called 'flow' and i like the time that's at the top of my screen and i gotta say that it's pretty nice!

i still get emotional from time to time when i think of my sentiments from this past sunday... though as the priest had said, his life is now complete.

we will all join him someday, so let's do our best to make the most of the time we have now.

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august sun 25 2024

hello, it's been a while since i've last updated this blog, huh?

really, not much has happened for the past while, though, our uncle has passed-- specifically, on august 15th. he was the late-brother in-law to my mom and the husband of her oldest sister: mister ing.

we left for toronto at ~4:00am today and the funeral service was from 10-11:30. i never really knew him, but i'm sure he was a loving father and husband who was beloved by many.

it's always incredibly sobering to attend these events: from the soft piano music to the slideshow of photos from different years with different people beside the one whose memory we are honouring, to the sounds of mourning of a life once lived. we will all come to pass someday and it's always such a difficult reality to stomach. eventually, everyone's journey will come to a close and time will run out and there's no way to go back and have more time together no matter how much you desperately think that it's not enough; it's never enough and will never be.

i can't write abotu this anymore withoutcrying again...

he was buried at the york cemetery-- the same one where grandma and grandpa were laid to rest at. for uncle, section 13, if i recall correctly. you needed to walk quite a bit into the grass, almost to the edge of cemetery to get there. james was one of the eight (?) pallbearers carrying his casket. he wore white gloves and the men all carried mister ing down to his final resting place.

afterwards, all of us met up at a restaurant at 12:30... here's its business card

skyview fusion cuisine^^

the kids and adults had their own separate tables and we got to chat for a bit! also the food was nice, though my favourite was the fried lobster! i also enjoyed the scallops too!

james and i were invited into a whatsapp group for us cousins and that was very nice of them to make that, considering how we really don't meet up all that much anymore. i really do hope something will come out of it and that we can all hang out for fun and not solely for somber reasons.

afterwards, we said our goodbyes and our family went shopping at winco, which is like a toronto multifood, except i think i saw a free sample of a food being offered there! multifood would never lol

i asked to get a marshmallow sweet that reminded me of those chocolate marshmallow sweets that i asked my parents to get when we visited china all those years ago ! i know that i'll find it to be too sweet for my current self, but the nostalgia of it was tempting and the packaging was cute...

and then we went back home! surprisingly, i didn't nod off to sleep this time around, though i was completely expecting to. i stayed open-eyed and awake the entire ride back and we even got home before the sun completely disappeared for the night! though, not before stopping by an onroute rest station and purchasing food from timmies using the money that james was given for acting as a pallbearer. we were requested to use the money before returning home, so we did what we could to put it to good use. the remainder of that money was used for three lottery tickets, hoping for good luck in our future.

don't take the time that you have for granted; time is limited, but love will never be. please show your loved ones how much you love them while they are still with you in this life.

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august wed 8 2024

worked an 8 hr shift hoping to complete those training modules and restart my computer, but ended up not doing either of those, plus i got a vague headache after all of it bc i didn't eat enough during those 8 hrs :(

went shopping with dad at costco for 1 hr, ate dinner, and then tried to squeeze sebaceous filaments outta my nose.

i also did a brief search up on high-yield savings accts and... social simone mentioned warren buffet suggesting to invest in the S&P 500? i didn't look too far into that, but it does sound interesting.

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august tues 6 2024

not much today, just returned to work after the holiday weekend with sore af thighs after yesterday :'D

dad bought some char siu barbeque pork which we haven't had in a long while! it tasted really good! i was also able to exercise beforehand, and though my right wrist still hurts a few weeks later, i was able to do pushups and overhead raises (though i didn't wanna risk the highest weight, so i dropped it down a bit), and flys (again at the lesser weight) !

no studying though... when's that gonna happen?

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august mon 5 2024 (civic holiday)

james and i did the yearly mile run on the track and i ended up with a MASSIVE headache and nausea. he recovered way faster and better than i haha good for him though!

i think it was a couple different things that led to my migraine, like the humidity, the fact that i woke up an hour before actually doing the run (also, working a show shift the night before, leading to less sleep time), me eating one and a half pieces of peanut butter toast, relatively not having drank that much water, not being accustomed to running relative to last year...

but halfway during my run, i got a vague beginning of a headache and by the time we did our one lap wonder afterwards, i felt kinda nauseous ugh so i couldn't go as fast as i wanted to

james was doing pretty good time on his first three laps! he walked half of his last lap bc his pants were too loose so he had to keep them up but really, he very well could've beaten my time if his pants fit better!

he laid down on the track with sweat dripping off of him after his mile, whereas my face was red and i wasn't nearly that drippy (but i was still real sweaty!)

he still got back up faster than me and he was in better condition than i was-- hey, what can i say? i love blaming my office job on the fact that i'm not as in good shape as i was before.

afterwards, we went shopping at walmart for cheap mr.noodles, then to the superstore for corn and other mics. things, so we were out for a total of 3hrs.

we got home, ate lunch, i laid down, and my headache multiplied tenfold. plus when i got up, i felt so sick, holding my head in my hands, trying to lay back down, hoping that it would go away. i eventually threw up two different times, so that's fun.

everyone checked up on me and i'm glad ! guess i went way too hard, also, note to self, don't eat processed pepperoni sticks and cheese when you have a headache. it won't help lol

dad made congee and boiled corn for dinner! plus made some fried rice but the first two foods made me feel amazing, plus it was super tasty! i got my appetite back and my head didn't feel like it was being squeezed and pounded anymore! :)

congee that got that sesame oil, soy sauce, chicken powder and of course, green onions! so delicious aahhhh

so the day ended pretty nicely! <3

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august sun 4 2024

helloooooo neglected personal journal how's it goin'?

there actually were things that happened these past few days-- like how the ~$130 glass makeup box from amazon got delivered last thursday and i ended up airing out the compartments for two days with my air purifier blowing up from under it whilst looking at reddit discussion threads about abandoned houses as well as watching urban exploration videos. gosh, abandoned houses are just so fascinating because you can come across clues about the lives of the previous inhabitants. there's also an air of sadness to it too-- to wonder what became of those that shared their time and memories in the now-decaying shelter that used to be.

a-anyways! i ended up cleaning my room a bit with the addition of these storage boxes so there's been way less crud strewn all about my room and on the floor, covering my desk as well.

i also received that late-june yesstyle order and it's a nice surprise considering i vaguely remembered what i ordered around a month prior. it got delivered four days ago and since then, i've tried out that pmel eyelash primer (if you lay it on thick, it gets white on your lashes) alongside the judydoll mascara and unleashia no.3 palette. i've also used that koji eyelash curler which... maybe i'm just not a skilled user, but i ended up over-curling the lashes on my right eye, so much so that that lashes curled up to touch my eyelid! i had to try to push them back down to uncurl them!

i also got to try out that etude eyelash razor that's shaped like a bird: i got the one that's all-pink with heart eyes! it took a bit of time and moments of lamenting how i probably over-tweezed the hairs on my right eyebrow but i got it to look decent! i was pretty excited for this one since i'm just a bit more afraid of tweezing those guys nowadays.

i've also gotten a chance to try out that free bottle of sunscreen from some by mi! it's soooooo good omg it's way more easily spreadable than BoJ sunscreen (of which i now have three bottles of) and it makes my skin look dewy and radiant! i can't believe such a good full-sized product was free... definitely considering on purchasing these in the future.

there are quite a few false eyelashes in my order which i've yet to try out, but i hope it turns out decently for my eyes that tend to water every so often when i forget to blink for long stretches of time.

speaking of which, i saw that ~$20 box of eyelashes (Tokimeki K-LASH Eyelashes) and mannn it's cute but SMALL! still cute though i mean, what else should i have expected when these are eyelashes we're talking about? hopefully these are high-quality given that price point.

just yesterday, i shaved myself with a new disposable blade and nicked myself in two different areas on my right shin. i also used that epilator that i asked james to buy for me several years ago (how long? at least three years, i reckon). it did a pretty good job taking the hair off my hands and fingers! i didn't do any more since you need to have exfoliated skin before using this and there's no Freaking way that i had exfoliated arms and legs nor armpits or crotch. though it may have worked a little too well on the middle finger of my right hand since it took some skin off of it. no blood or anything, but it stung real bad when i patted alcohol on that freshly-epilated skin.

throughout all of this, i've also been baking in that usuk hyperfixation. i just have a lot of thoughts for this pair but it's hard to articulate without sounding at least a little insane. yo but chapter 527 tho?? arthur was worried about alfred awww...

as for today, i worked a show shift (jewel and melissa etheridge) and hey, it wasn't too bad! just a standard show shift with an estimated attendance of 4500 and though i did try to sign an EO so james didn't need to wait for me as long, i didn't get it bc of that attendance + the amount of ppl that called in sick. oh well. i didn't really like jewel's music bc it was mellow for the most part and i only got to hear one song from melissa, which was the very last one and hey, i kinda liked it!

i really haven't been studying at all which is pretty shameful but every new day is another chance to start again. i'll try to use my hyperfixation to coax me into a habit of learning again. i just need to form a habit and then this'll be way easier.

i've also been checking in on Pissboy's xwitter and saw that he was using duolingo. how much does he actually know? i'll be annoyed if he's managed to learn more than i have. i can do better. if he can learn, so can i.

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july fri 26 2024

today turned out pretty decently! the loose thread from yesterday (with that angry guy) came together and he's gonna be able to send that temu phone to that lady or... whoever.

just the usual, though shekhar and arwinder ordered pizza and i got to have some! ryan put it in the fridge for me, though he's never done that for me before ? was it because i said that i start getting hungry at aound 2pm? maybe. either way, i would've just grabbed some room-temp rock-hard pizza slices without much of a care anyhow.

no studying, just walking around the basement looking out for new songs to add to my spotify playlists from the weekly 'for you' playlist. gotta love that feature!

i also hopped on the exercise bike for over 20min-- could've gone longer, but dad was hungry.. he had a bit of an appetite today imo!

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july thurs 25 2024

i stayed for an 8 hr day today... mainly bc i wanted to reset my computer to have microsoft word on it and to complete the two training modules but i got to do neither!! i was struggling today, man. it took me THE LONGEST time to respond to this angry guy in my inbox, demanding a refund for a y50 shipment he sent out.

it took so much of my brainpower to respond as professionally as possible holy shit i responded once then knew that i NEEDED to walk away and eat something because i could not function otherwise

disappointed that it wasn't an easy thursday, but i hope tomorrow goes well.

btw, the little conundrum i had yesterday easily resolved itself today! yay! it's just that second thing (as per mentioned above) that threw me off.

i only proposed the most feasible solution to him (which didn't involve RTS'ing) because i wouldn't want to possibly burden another customer service rep with his flailing and complaining. they get enough shit as it is.

anyways, i tried to work out my legs and tried to do a lil bit of review. not much was accomplished since i took forever to eat dinner, but it's something.

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july wed 24 2024

i had quite a long phone call (45min long actually) with a shipper regarding a y50... smth abt it being a prototype and the man's job being on the line because his bosses were mad at him... i felt bad for him, but i did agree that he shouldn't use fedex again. even though the customs officers don't actually work for fedex or anything. i still said that bc i'm still bitter that fedex never gave me the wage increase that i rightfully deserved. no wage increase at all, actually.

i didn't feel nearly as hungry after the shift because of that call (i was kind of shaking near the beginning but i'm glad that the man never decided to yell at me), but i still wanted that LED light bulb for my desk lamp.

james and i went to rona then to home depot where we got this cool colour-changing dimming light bulb that comes with a remote! it's so neat and i have plans to dim it near bedtime and change it to a funky colour when i'm not studying. it's so neat! thirty bucks for a light bulb better be fancy !!

tho i'm p sure that that kind of light bulb isn't meant to be in a desk lamp lol

then i worked out and we ate spicy noodles :3

btw my index finger feels completely normal today so idk what happened with it a few days prior

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july mon 22 2024

hhhhhh i think i woke up with that residual high but i reflected on yesterday and i just think 'man...... i don't wanna do that again! i can get sleepy and hungry for free instead!!'

seriously, i kept eating that pepperoni pizza just to stay awake wtf

and when i was eating that pizza, i really didn't feel full at all ?? and even going through the motions of biting and chewing it was satisfying and a nice feeling to me. like my stomach was a black hole or smth

yeah, it's prob just the strain of weed that they put in those brownies but all i got was sleepiness and nothing funny even happened to show for it. at least gisele got to show me one of her fave childhood movies bc i would not otherwise wanna watch any movie by sitting there that long omg i felt like i was being sedated

we also played a board game which... i'm not really into that kind of thing, sorry

and we watched some youtube vids too which we usually did but there was a lot more of me watching stuff this time around

oh yeah and i also watched her play totk too which was when i felt the high kick in and i started getting tired

anyways, that kind of time just isn't for me, though i still have a chowie wowie left for a future visit. it prob won't zonk me out with a lesser concentration so there's that

anyways, i worked out today and felt great! i exercised once last week which i gotta make sure this week doesn't look like last week!

the area around my ulna (at the wrist) hasn't fully recovered, or else i would've done curls today... just gotta wait for it to get better, first.

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july sun 21 2024

ate two weed brownies with gisele at her place and got high and sleepy omg

i had to keep eating her pizza in order to avoid laying down and falling asleep right on her couch lmao

also the pizza was p tasty and it felt nice to keep biting and chawing on that pepperoni pizza

because of that, we ate an entire queen-sized pizza minus one line pizza slice waoh

i also felt real thristy afterwards what the heck

when i was at her place, after 3 or so hrs, the edibles kicked in and i because way less respondent bc i couldn't think fast enough to come up with good responses to either the stuff we watched or her comments

that's a really good way to make me watch a movie tho... get me high and tired enough to sit still and (try to) focus lol

anyways, p fun day but i'm oh so sleepy

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july thurs 18 2024

worked out for the first time in a week! yay!! just a couple min of walking around and 30min of exercise biking but it feels nice!!

afterwards, i browsed the DV forum to look for other disgruntled players. it feels satisfying to know that a lot of other people are also frustrated with the game-- the hyper-capitalism simulator game!!