doink-is-my-name

[doink-is-my-name]

”you never listen when I talk” is almost an insult to me. It’s an insult when I take pride in listening when no one else is and remembering the little things. It’s an insult when you weren’t even talking to me in the first place. You were announcing things in the group and you know I wasn’t paying attention because I was on my phone. Because you know that if you don’t address me, I’ll assume I’m not part of the conversation. You know these things. And it makes me sad that you forget them. And then I’m sad I don’t listen, because I’m out of touch again. Is it me? Is this a problem I have? Will I ever get over it? Perhaps I just don’t know how to handle friendships. But I have other friendships that don’t have this problem. Even if I don’t listen all the time, my other friends know how to speak to me.

I think I need new friends

[doink-is-my-name]

[doink-is-my-name]

I think I know the reason I’m so quiet

at some point in my life I realized I couldn’t join other people’s conversations, even when it was my own friend group. So I tried giving my input in the form of “oh yeah”, “sure why not”, “ I think the other one looks better”. eventually I realized no one cared for my thoughts and i wasn’t being heard. it was sad but oh well, what can you do. I got quite because when I wasn’t, no one ever heard me so what was the point anyway?

[doink-is-my-name]

Happy Ace Week!!! 🖤🤍💜

[doink-is-my-name]

it's humiliating being out of touch sometimes. most of the time i'm in my own head, barely listening to what's happening around me and i miss out on so many things. what's even worse though is when people know that this is going on with me and try to get me up to date as if i'm a toddler. they will more likely start talking to me very slow like "you remember who this is right? the person we're talking about?"

no. no i don't. i don't because i probably wasn't present when you guys were introducing them into your chat and now i don't know whether i should or should not know about them. but it doesn't matter anyway because you've made me feel like an idiot for not knowing even if that was not your intention.

sometimes i hate being stuck in my own head

[doink-is-my-name]