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— 11/09/24 Keep pushing

Bumili nanaman si dada ng matamis :(( pero request ko talaga yang peanuts. Pero nakaka temp talaga yung matamis kapag nakikita ko, hindi ko na lang pinapansin sa table ko.

Just wanna encourage my self and others na laban tayo. Tapos na mag board exam yung ibang medical field, malapit na din matapos tong taon na toh tapos madadagdagan nanaman yung edad ko. I feel getting oldies na ohhh...pero lagi pa din ako napagkakamalan na student and 16 years old or 18 years old. Anyways! Madami pa! Focus pa!

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Posting these photos, because dada made my memories from him during this season. He always make sure na may snacks ako na pwede ko makain whenever I need or I wanted to. Sabi sakin ni dada hindi naman daw snacks haha mukbang daw ako haha... Well I am kinda speechless from my beloved husband 🤍 Thankyou for taking care of me.

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I feel sad or disappointed? I can't afford na umasa talaga sa iba kasi wala magpapautang sakin.

Kapag nanghihiram sila sakin ng money big amount ang reply ko lang "Okay, saan ko isesend ganyan lang" and they even want to borrow my own digital gcash account pero syempre hindi ko pinapahiram sobra na yon privacy ko na yon. I don't ask kung para san yung pera na hinihiram lalo na kung very close sakin yung tao and hindi ako mahilig maningil but there a times na pabiro ko na lang sasabihin na hindi mo sakin na pay yung ganitong amount, so pay me or not it's okay kaya hindi ko na din afford magpa utang. I tried to borrow a small amount like 100php or 300php pero I understand kung hindi ako mapahiram. Pero once nakahiram naman ako grabe naman ako singilin parang hindi ako magbabayad sa small amount.

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People what see vs. what's behind that...

They only sees her as hindi maganda ang ugali, ang hilig mag reklamo, pa utos kung mag sabi at hindi nakikisuyo, ma pride at hindi basta basta nag papa tawad.

But deep inside of her is the woman who needs more love, attention. She is deeply in pain, so broke, umuwi ng Pinas na wala napatunayan, umuwi na pregnant and do not know how to start her life again and even though gusto nya mag work hindi pa kaya dahil may baby sya na kailangan sya at kailangan ng attention nya na hindi nabigay sakanya ng own mother nya. Sobrang down and lugmok but still she's fighting for her daughter and not just a mom but a powerful mom.

There is always behind stories from our attitude, character, the way we express ourselves. That is why we need to be kind but not always nice.

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Sometimes I don't know if do I have to take it as a joke yung sinasabi sakin ng pinsan ko. Minsan kasi feel ko nagpaparinig sya sakin, medyo offensive lang din sa part ko kasi ilang beses na din. Okay lang yung once hindi yun nakaka offend since iniisip ko na baka biro lang yon.

They do not know ano yung pinag kaka abalahan ko talaga right now, but even though they do not know wala pa din excuse sa mga lalabas sa bibig nila. Nag paparinig na baka nagpapabuntis na ko. Hindi ko ma gets haha! Why? These humans doesn't know so I give my forgiveness in my heart. Basta I'm happy right now and I choose to be happy!

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I'm sorry but you can't be tired. You can pause and rest but you cannot leave it hanging.

Nakakapagod noh? We are all able to feel being so tired and our emotions is valid. After ng bagyong carina isa sa pinaka malakas na bagyo yung kristine but even though malakas, the faith should be stronger, the prayer should be stronger. Don't let the situation to front in your mind, to front in your emotions. Just surrender and let God.

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Napagod na ko sa screen lakas talaga maka drain haha! Binuklat ko na yung mahiwagang libro ni lola merills haha 😂

Alam mo I hope yung favorite subject ko is paborito din ako haha! Kasi feel na feel ko pagiging magaling ko dito ee. Kaya lang may mga errors pa din ako kasi di naman ako perfect duhhh...

Kumain ako ng coco pan ulit, hindi na ko sanay mag kape hindi ko naubos kape ko tapos natatamisan ako so ayon lumungkot kasi hindi na sya malamig....

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Tell me you are a radtech without telling me you are ☢️

Yep! bones, soft tissues, TBI...

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Ang toxic ng ganito, hindi ko na sana inentertain akala ko sobrang pure ang intentions kaya nag message. Akala ko totoo na namiss ako syaka kasi very long time no see and no kibuan ee. Tapos ngayon na lang ulit na ngamusta tapos hindi ko napahiram kasi walang wala naman talaga akong money sa ngayon and then hindi lang ako nakapag reply agad kasi nga busy ako tapos nag ba-bye na. Siguro tama lang na dumistansya na ko kasi ngayon ko na proved na you're nothing but just a kakilala na lang talaga kapag wala ka ng pakinabang sa iba and that is fine kasi your lesson is you know sino yung mga taong totoo sayo at sa hindi. Akala ko na miss talaga ako, 8 months na preggy ng nagparamdam tapos nagparamdam kasi mangungutang then pinipilit pa ako kahit sinabi ko ng wala akong money. Kahit before ng hindi pa buntis ichachat lang talaga ako kapag may kailangan sya. Masakit for me pero that's fine magpaka busy na ulit.

If people wants you in their life then they really wanted you in their life.

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Highlights of the week

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Simula kaninang morning pagod na pagod na ko simula sa mga errands na dapat unahin at lakarin para matapos ko na, may exam pa, may ganito ganyan, Pero hindi ako napanghinaan ng loob dahil alam kong God is Good all the time. Hindi pwede mag reklamo kasi we don't have time to process yung mga maliliit na bagay na hindi naman kailangan pagtuonan ng pansin. Grabe kana Lord 😭 kasama pa din sa list yung pangalan ko, di ko kabisado yon pero lumagpas pa din po kahit hindi gaano kataasan.

Pagod pero hindi susuko at magrereklamo. 😭😭😭🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Mahigpit na yakap ni Lord 🥺

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Puso para sa medisina ❤️☢️

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I'm back with my era !

Nag breakdown si anteh!!! Galing kasi akong sakit, 4 days din siguro yung considered ko na pinahinga ko, hindi ako nag phone tapos ng naging okay na ko medyo naging unproductive.

But what I realize is that, it is not totally unproductivity it is actually procrastinating. Yung type of procrastinating na your body says allowed it! But not too much! Alam mo sa sarili mo na your body and mind is tired, but your heart says have to go back and you shouldn't stop! No one could stop you only yourself.

Your body is smarter than you so listen to your body also. Health is wealth okay!

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I can't blame myself for being so sensitive when it comes to my boundaries due to my own self-respect! I am so easy to be affected, so I have to settle things right away. It's not about ego or pride; it is about my personal care for my mentality. 

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We don't need to seek some validation to others and we don't need others approval.

We don't need to consult others if we are right in what we did. You know what to do, you know what you need and you know why you want to do it. If that will help you then start doing it! Just always remember that you need to bring it first to the Lord.

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First time ko ng block ng friend

Tell other people that I blocked you and mukha akong masama, I don't care anymore.

During college days ko 3rd year to 4th year. Nakakatanggap na ko paulit ulit ng mga words na hindi ko gusto like. Slow ako and tanga, it's okay sana if you tell me na slow lang ee. Pero yung tanga? I will never tolerate those kind of people. Wala nga ako lagi sa house kasi umiwas sa toxicity tapos nag entertain ako ng akala ko okay yun pala dinaig pa yung nasa bahay 🙄.

This is my first time na ng block ako! I felt free and hindi dinidiktahan na parang naiinis sya kasi ayaw nya yung ginagawa ko or parang kapag hindi nasunod yung gusto is maiinis sakin. Masyado lang ako mabait pero I'll never tolerate anymore those kind of attitude.

Anyways! Good thing my father advice me!