dizzydoesitall

[dizzydoesitall]

hi im dizzy but i honestly go by a lot of things. you can find me in a lot of places on the internet and on tumblr especially.

i’m 19 years old. dms r open but don’t be weird and expect not to get blocked.

i write my thoughts and poetry and whatever bc this feels more anonymous and less scary than anything else i’m on tbh.

not rlly like a diary but maybe a little idk what my posts will be yet

🫐asks are open and whatever idk if ur curious abt anything i will answer pretty much whatever …

i may end up posting my art too eventually on here but for now they’re all in a different place on this website under a different name and stuff. ☮️☮️🫧 hope everyone is doing well. just wanted to do an introduction because i have like. 3 followers now.

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nobody asks me how i am anymore, not even my mother. it seems like no one really cares about me anymore now that i’m truly on my own.

isn’t this everything i’ve been preparing for my whole life? if this is it, why do i feel… invisible.

sharp lines of whites and blues shot onto the pages i was reading from my peripherals, but when i turned my head and stayed still to see them, they were never there.

I don’t know why i would think i could catch them, like they’re some form of prey to me.

it’s exhausting to live every day the same. i used to feel a fear in my heart when i woke up, unsure if that day would be my last each morning. I don’t get that sense of urgency in each breath anymore. And I kind of miss it.

But then again, I don’t. that was the worst time of my life back then, and anyway, I should be getting better, because if I don’t, I’ll never fully get out. because no matter how far away I get in distance, the memories are still always there.

they’re eternal, because I let them be, so I’ll let go if I can.

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i used to think i was damaged

when i got off the press

fresh and hot

broken on arrival

it’s time to switch things up it’s time to shake things up

it’s harder to stay stagnant than it is to get better

even if it doesn’t

branding myself like i’m fucking cattle

should probably figure out what i wanna do

changes turn to patterns and the patterns turn to ash

the ashes turn to patterns and the patterns lead to changes

everyone deserves to be treated like they’re holy

everyone except for me

i forgot what i looked like

before i saw my reflection again

i just csnt explain

anything i feel

but it doesn’t matter anyway

i’ll save it for another day

at least now i know the things i gotta do to make things right

at least i know that everything i feel is leading to a beautiful light

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should i put my poetry here or on the same account i put my drawings …. idk if i want them all in the same place.. and this one sort of feels more anonymous to me…

[dizzydoesitall]

teach me something new now

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sooooo what are you waiting for ?

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i don’t know why people follow me on here but i like you guys 💗

[dizzydoesitall]

i’ve been sick like 400 years now. shit sucks

[dizzydoesitall]

luv tumblr bc it isn’t real basically 😇😇😇😇😇

[dizzydoesitall]

everything is cruel all the time. world is sick blehhh