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“I opened my mouth, almost said something. Almost. The rest of my life might have turned out differently if I had. But I didn’t.”

— Khaled Hosseini; The Kite Runner

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“It’s all right to love someone that doesn’t love you back, as long as they’re worth you loving them. As long as they deserve it.”

— Cassandra Clare; Clockwork Angel

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Living my life.

September 2018. Got a 74 grade and failed in one subject. I am ashamed and untill now I don't want to talk about it. My mother scoulded me, and ask me, "why do you get a low grade? How? Is it hard for you to take up the lesson? your sister is way better than you because she is smart. You were educated in a good school but this is all you give to us?". And at that moment, I started hating myself, losing myself as well.

So I decided to transfer back at my recent school where I finish my junior high. I even shift into other strand to start a new one. It was hard but Im trying. Trying to make my parents proud. But sadly, I notice I started to gave up. It was useless for me to show them what they want. I started losing interest in everything. The more I became a rebel and the more they hated me. The more I also hated myself. I'm so tired listening to "you weren't like that before, what happened to you?" "is that how you behave? fix that". My parents even advice me to stop studying and they will stop paying my tuition. After that we had a deep conversation with my father, he asked me if I still want to go to school and then we made a deal. "I will fix my life and they will support me".

Until now, Im still fixing and trying to find myself. What do I really want to become, and who really am I? For now I am not aiming for high grades, good image in school, gaining popularity in school or in any aspect. I am just being me, living my life.

To my mama and papa, everyone who keeps on expexting something from me. I am very sorry If I cannot be who you want me to be.

@themarkvincent mana ris

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Friendship To Relationship

Claire Anne is my best friend/girlfriend. She is 19 years old, just like me! Claire Anne is a simple girl, and sometimes she gets mad at me because of my behavior.  I met her during her junior year here in Sta. Monica Academy. She was just my schoolmate.You know what’s the most exciting part? Let me tell you a short story about us.

One day I got 1 message from an unknown number, and I decided to reply because why not? I asked “who’s this” but she didn’t tell her name immediately. So after a very long conversation, finally she answered my question and boom everything happened so fast. After 1 month and a half, I decided to court her.

             September 18, 2015 at Sta. Monica Church I confessed my feelings to her and asked her if we can make it official? And she said “Yes”. Amazing right? It just started from an unknown number and everything follows. Until now our relationship is getting stronger and stronger. We already encounter different struggles, breakups and darkest days but because our love is stronger and powerful we made it this far. 4 years of being together turning 5 this year, 2020. I hope we can build more memories together and continue what we’ve started.                                                                                                                                                                                                        

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I miss you mama aging! U will always be in our hearts. ❤

What Happened to Granny on Friday

Last May 25, 2018, a heart crushing incident happened. She was rushed to the hospital with the thought that she's gonna be okay. Without expecting it, the doctors did their bests but there was nothing they could do. It was granny's time and I could hardly accept the fact that she was leaving. We were there together with my family and uncle, and some of our relatives caught-up after the incident happened.

The room was in silent, I could even hear my own heart beats while tears filled my eyes and continuously running down my face. My mother broke my silence when she whispered "Poy, say everything you want say and whisper it to your Lola". Then, I slowly walked near to my lola and whispered everything what my heart was longing to say. After that scenario, I went outside and continued to mourn in the jeepney. Then, we went home with a heavy heart.

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I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via sunsetquotes)

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SAD for no reason.

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Tonight, tears won't stop falling.

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Ow. I thought you mean it. My fault.

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“I knew he didn’t love me but I adored him anyway.”

— Patti Smith; Just Kids

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“It's been a long time since I’ve been me.”

— Fernando Pessoa

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“Almost. It’s a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe.”

— Joan Bauer; Almost Home

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“As long as you’re trying, I’m staying.”

— Unknown

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I don't need flowers, chocolates, and expensive gifts. cuz' I can buy it for myself. but All I need is YOU. Your loyalty and faithfulness. Your presence and your love. Cuz those are the things that matters. @marckvincent

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‘Being’ is bliss, ‘appearing to be’ is unending pain.

In the real and digital world, people always appear something they are not. This harms the natural expression, screwing people up from within. Devoid of meaning and purpose in life, people today are focused on satiating illusory needs at the cost of self-reflection, self-expression. Considerable time is spent in abiding by public persona while little to no time is spent in understanding self and the purpose of existence. It is important to realize that sometimes you need escape from the perceived reality to be really yourself instead of appearing to be so.