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i’ve been up, looking down, but i know what’s on this level, been around the world, but i’m just trying to get back home, get back safely but come back to the goal, a lot on my mind but, heart on my sleeve, people back home have been looking for me, i feel like a ghost, because i feel like i don’t exist, people remember who i am but they don’t like to talk about me, i always ask where’s the love at, but they give it to other people, i don’t deserve it i don’t know if i deserve anything to be honest, but i thought i did, i thought i did, i thought i was, i thought i was, i thought i am, but i people make me think not.

ignored. 

that’s how i feel.

i just have to think to know what’s real.  

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20morw mins then I'm off work. I've been living off coffee this whole day. I've been up 36hrs for sure now

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They say parents give children what they wish they had and try to teach them the things they want, Mine went from How to value another life from my dad, How to support from my mom, Humor from my dad, How to read from my mom, Behavior from my dad, Practice from my mom, Fighting from my dad, How to cook from my mom, Morals from my dad, Work ethic and value of money from my mom How to be good from both, But And all else. How to love, from myself.

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ru-chelle playing Pokemon is gonna be like

He has been waiting all his life for this delicious moment

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Doesn't apply to me anymore but:

Nothing lost, or gained, Who's blamed?

six word poem 8/16/15

Prompt: “Write about someone that you ‘almost dated’.

You are my  phantom limb relationship.

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This feeling leaves me speechless in a zone not just my own, I share this zone of craving and wanting because we belong but we are separated because of others. I don’t know how it’s so justified. I don’t know how it’s so wrong it is either.

But I don’t think anyone should be taken away from their love.

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Sometimes we pray on chance, Sometimes we bet our wishes will come true, Sometimes we wish for for prayers, Sometimes it's all a miracle, And a lot of the time I feel like we create our own,

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Invisible scars From loving someone too much and trying to protect someone all the time. A reminder of how hard I loved you.

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A World I Created

They said sunshine all the time makes a desert, they also told me your positive outlook will change the world, they told me all of this and despite what they’ve said

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i look at you with soft eyes that make the world better, i look at you with the same eyes and your face creates scenes in my head case, full of files that stretch for miles because of your smiles, that can build bridges between two people riled up from the past piled up conflicts and

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Remember that the two of you were made for each other but in different dimensions and The only way for us to be together is on paper, Your name next to mine, My heart can't physically be next to yours not anymore, and I love you but If reincarnation exists I guess it's not in this life, at least not now, I've got a heart beating as if it were a ghost because it's dead or its gone, All I know is that you ran off with it and I don't want anyone to put up any missing posters because I want her to keep it, My new heart it takes 10months to develop, I hope you still think about me. I hope my heart still beats in your hands, I hope you can feel it beat faster, and you can't tell if I'm scared, surprised or excited, I hope that makes you ask about me, I hope our story circulates, I hope our love that wasn't supposed to happen is told so that we fix misunderstandings and religions, I hope we fix the universe and it's differences, I hope we fix day dreams that were broken too, And a fantasy of mine that we should live in, I hope we live together in a fantasy that we made to be real, I hope I grow old and die with you, next to you, Buried 6ft deep where our story was left too, I hope we lift our hearts the way we lifted our spirits, I hope you look at me with eyes too big for the sky to hold, I hope you realize you found someone to love but couldn't, I hope you choose to love me anyway, I hope you still like me now, I hope we build bridges in forests unknown to anyone but us, I hope we meet on that bridge, I hope we meet again, in secrecy because we are still meant to be, Maybe we're still meant to be, Maybe we have death written on us, But I'm smitten with you and your everything, I'm writing tales too big for my tail to hide between my legs, I'm not afraid anymore, But I'm sad, confused, disappointed, And angry, Sad because this is the part that sucks and brings me down and I can't be with you, Confused because why did the universe pull us apart when we feel so deeply that we should be together, Disappointed because I wish I had you sooner, Angry because you should be with me.

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I could only see her eyes when I close mine. And my future there the same time, both smile and my future brighter than the sun sitting directly in front of your face. she transcends the rest and you wouldn’t believe me no matter how much time passed by.

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Even if you mess up or if you fail, you can keep trying. Always keep trying anak (my child), for anything, everyone, and everything.

My mom after I told her I’m sorry. (via yuuuuuuuuuummp)

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Our time, we together, and our own beings are precious and that can't be wasted. I want your soul next to mine and reach a never ending day dream where nothing but what we like exists. Fire, ignite my soul and set these strings ablaze, Darling, may I sleep and wake up next to you for the rest of these days?

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I’m not gonna trip cause then I’d be on vacation, Been working too hard to be any less amazing and if you think i’m feeling down then please pardon the misinterpretation, it just means i gotta try harder and get back to the first place in my imagination, lemme run in your mind but don’t let me influence your thoughts, you’re too good and too unique and i’d be ashamed if that was the reason why i was dropped, i’m spilling a few things here and few things there, the game is still in play and i’m play it fair, if i’m the interest i can’t let 2nd place get the best of me, i’m just trying to let you do you at the same time as fight off number 3 a little envious with just a text he can still cause your mind to react, i’m just a little jealous but i can understand i can understand, but right now right now i’m the man i’m the man, it’s ok it’s ok, and it’s all in my head, i’ve got no real worries except living so what’s the problem? I guess realization is that i never had one in the beginning.

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Mark your scent on me kitten,