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i’m actually going insane hearing my boyfriend rant about how he’s “so fat” and “so ugly” as if he doesn’t literally weigh so much less than i do. his waist is literally smaller than mine UGH

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ana-hood is being so selfish to the point i find myself wishing i had some kind of d1sease that’ll stop me from eating food. like oh you hate being celi4c?? double it and give it to the next person bc a reason to deny EVERYTHING gluten without any questions sounds like a win win to me

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Reblog if u wish u were thin

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day 4:

i have a lotttt of fears about weight loss. i've never really been skinny, so i don't know what to expect.

here are some of my fears though!

i have a really cute butt that i don't want to lose D: my mom is always saying that she's sooo envious of me because of it and my boyfriend agrees that it's very nice lol >w<

LOOSE SKIN.

even after i lose weight, i fear that i'll just look odd and not have the body i want..

i don't want people to look back at my old pictures (like me from right now) and realize how big i really was (am currently..). i don't want anyone else putting down my old weight to flatter my new weight. i also don't want people to think i'm ugly currently. although whatever they say may feel true in my eyes, it's different hearing all that from someone else.

i also don't want to look back at the pictures from my quinceañera with even more regret. i have a lot of regret from not losing weight beforehand, and i think i looked atrocious in a lot of my pictures, but it was such an amazing day for me nevertheless.

i especially don't want my boyfriend to see how i am now any differently. he's very sweet and very worried about me. every day, multiple times a day, he's always calling me beautiful, saying how he loves me and thinks i'm perfect how i am, trying to get me to eat so i don't feel sick, etc. but, i'm scared he may act differently towards me after i lose weight. i have a suspicion that he doesn't really mean what he says. i don't doubt him, i just doubt myself. he's an amazing being, but after all, every guy wants a pretty, thin girlfriend, right? i literally weigh like 10-20kg more than him D:

i'm terrified of gaining back all the weight i lost. all this work i'm putting in,,, for nothing??

yeah.. @_@

day 1:

cw: 218lbs

hw: 225lbs

lw: 120lbs

gw: 150lbs

ugw: 125 lbs

bmi: 37.4

height: 5'4

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missed two days, soooo...

day 2:

i am 5'4!! i'm okay with my height :3 would love to be taller so my weight is more balanced out.

day 3:

my biggest th1nsp0 is probably ramona flowers from scott pilgrim! not her actress, specifically ramona because i really like scott pilgrim,, i'm so envious of her figure like omg... her collarbones @_@ it's so intriguing though because she gets called fat in the movie a lot, and she's not as tiny as other people's th1nsp0 but idk i wish i had her body. maybe it's because i'm huge </3

day 1:

cw: 218lbs

hw: 225lbs

lw: 120lbs

gw: 150lbs

ugw: 125 lbs

bmi: 37.4

height: 5'4

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hi!! if it’s possible could you make an apocalypse/survival themed inspo board? ty<3

I really tried, this was so hard to find specific pics for 😭 I hope u like it 💜

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Low cal treats for skinny fall with recipes🍂🧡

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the aboslute CHOKEHOLD this has on me

ana loves you

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Reblog if you have the best mutuals.

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Modelsp0 Board

Mostly 90s! <3 Some motivation for this October

Th1nspø:

Meal ideas:

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Atleast no one has to worry about my ED killing me since I am so f*cking bad at it 🖤 💖

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We need more male 4n4 rep....

The community is very fem focused (which is fine) but I cant imagine how alone so many other guys feel especially trans men ):

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Crying, throwing up, sliding down the wall..

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Oh well 🎀⭐️