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so life sucks i need control over something

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i’m so sick of feeling so alone but never actually getting to be alone. please make it stop

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am i in control, i need to have control.

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Once she made a drawing

Once, she had made a drawing.

She was in kindergarten and her teacher was surprised at how detailed a stick figure could look.

That night, her parents didn't fight,

Her mother hung the drawing on the wall, and told everyone the story of how her daughter drew differently.

That was the year her parents divorced.

Once, she had made a drawing.

She was in elementary school, and her teacher was surprised at how detailed it looked.

Her mother hung it on the wall, more out of obligation than admiration. She didn't tell anyone about how her daughter drew.

Her father expected better, her mother didn't care.

That was the year she wanted them to be proud.

Once, she made a drawing.

She was in middle school, her art teacher found she had talent but still needed to improve. There were not enough details anymore to impress anyone.

She didn't show it to her mother when she came home.

That was the year she got her first B.

Once, she made a drawing.

She had improved just like she had been told to. Her art teacher was surprised at how realistic it was, and hung it on the classroom's wall.

Her mother never knew about it.

That was the year she tried really hard to be perfect.

Once, she made a drawing.

It was her last year of middle school, her teacher said it was great, like all she had done, but never hung it up.

Her mother didn't acknowledge it.

That was the year she tried harder.

She made another one, the best so far, one of her family.

Her father was impressed, her mother framed it and hung it on the wall.

That year, she was dying inside.

Once, she made a drawing.

She was in high school, now. She didn't take art class anymore, her teachers didn't care.

Her mother asked her to make a new drawing, just like she used to.

She said she would do it later, because she didn't have the time. She had to study.

That was the year she gave up.

Once, she made a drawing.

This time, it wasn't with pencils and crayons, but with her own blood that she painted the canvas of her arms.

Her parents never noticed.

That was her last year.

As she drew on her skin, she looked at the wall, full of all the art that was ever deemed to be good.

Nobody liked her last art piece, because nobody likes tragedies. Yet, if you asked her, this was the most realistic she had ever been.

Her father cried, so did her mother. For the first time, they didn't fight.

That was the year she died.

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would my mom be alarmed if i texted her and asked her to take me out of this world like she always told me she could

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loudest repost ever

please someone just tell me i will be alright one day. i see no future for myself for now

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SH culture is really really wanting to, but knowing your partner will see you naked and knowing how disappointed they would be

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Mean$p0

No it actually doesn’t matter what excuse you were going to make in order to eat it.

I don’t care if you’re under your calorie limit for the day. If you’re eating it ��just because” you’re failing and it’s fucking embarrassing.

A calorie limit is a maximum. You’re not supposed to reach it. Put that crap piece of carbs and fat away and go do something worthwhile before you embarrass yourself even more.

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nothing fucks with me more than the disrespect i remember getting when i was fat

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i’ve been horribly inactive. time to self destruct

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lunch✨

220 cals total

completed a 48 hr fast before lunch, excited to see if i can do another 48 hrs now!

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body check ✨

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breaking a fast with alcohol >>>

heavenly feeling js

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watching mukbangs while working out >>>

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off white thinspo🤍

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dinner✨

todays totals cals is all liquid and well under 100 feels like a good day!