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two adventurers and an ultimate jouney

To conquer love, Honey

they say it ain't that easy.

It takes a great deal of bravery

and also needs will power to accompany.

We must prepare the faith, fully

reach the highest mountain, across the wildest sea

Nothing else will drive us crazy

except the day love showers us with grace and glory.

Promise do not walk in front of me

nor behind my shadow, Honey.

Just take a walk beside me

so we can protect each other along this journey.

***

a poem by bety sanjaya

inside the commuter line, 21st of Jan, year 2020

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We may have been hurt in the past, and the fear of being in the same situation again could be the reason we build a wall to protect ourself. It’s never wrong to be defensive, because it may protect us from having our feelings hurt. But life is filled with moments, that not everytime are joyful. Sometimes they are painful, that make want to give up and choose to hide on our own shelter. But we have to admit that painful moments are necessary. Only if we want to evolve to something higher and better.

So, dare ourself.

Inside the commuter; 21 of Januari, year 2020

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Dear God, is it ok for me to cry now?

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Saya telah menjatuhkan hati. Sangat jatuh sampai kerap saya melupakan kepentingan diri sendiri. Terlalu berkomitmen ternyata kadang bisa menyakiti. Tapi semua sakit dengan rela akan tersimpan dengan rapi.

Ternyata. Menyintai terlalu dalam bisa membuat nelangsa hati.

Ah. Semua gundah mungkin karena saya sedang sangat merindu kini. Dan juga nanti.

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IT'S ABOUT TIME TO MOVE ON

Love. What everyone deserves. No matter what we might tell others, whether it's "I hate you" or "I don't need you", deep down we all want to be loved.

Relationship with love. What everyone’s looking for. Admit it, we all want  a steady hand. We all want a kind soul. We all want to fall asleep at night and then wake up filled with the morning light. Get cuddled, knowing our heart is safe.

  We all want to love. And be loved. But don’t we ever realize that faith over love, all that matters? All that sweet relationships, they ain't gonna work for long term without faith. Be true, open to each other, sincere, no secret, that are the secrets. Yes, a true relationship shouldn't has any secrets. If it has any, then we don't deserve to be in it. 

It’s too risky to build a relationship with someone who filled with too many secrets. The more we try to understand, the more they shut down. They keep hiding what they feel, think, or have done. They covering their self and soul with layers. They don’t have the faith on us. Sometimes, they who don’t have the faith. Then, what's the point? Until when will we maintain this kind of relationship? How long can we survive? Because they are killing us slowly, softly. Bottom line is, the relationship isn’t working.

So, it’s about time to get out of such bond. Initially, it may be difficult. One of the hardest decision to make is whether to trust our logic or listen to our heart. We have been accustomed to be with people who we love. But, but do they really love us? Resiprocally? No, by not telling the truth, by hiding the real them, by cheating, they love their self above all. Are we going to hurt our soul? 

When some things just aren't worth the effort, then why we continually knock ourself out anyway. Why? What for? Move on. When we decide that we've been waiting a long time for something that isn't going to happen, walk away. At the end of the day, we’ll be glad we don’t have to deal with them anymore. We’ll be thankful that they have shown us exactly who we don’t have to be with in life. We’re saved. They’re not. Move our self to a brighter path. Be more valuable to those who deserved.

--

FRIDAY, OCTOBER 19, 2012

[diekleinedame]

Not everyone gets the same version of me.

One person might tell you that i’m an outgoing, overtly expressive person.

Another person will say that i’m a shy, reticent person.

Believe them both.

I’m the ambivert one.

Bety Sanjaya

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CONFESSION OF A HEARTBREAK HEART

Said to him,

“I liked you”

Truth was

“I like you”.

-

Then he said nothing

For a minute

an hour

a month

a year

nothing

only silence remains.

-

Now,

i say to my heart

“Here. Sit next to me”

It is ok

Look,

the world’s still spinning round

You’ll be ok,

Heart.

***

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saya pernah menyayangi kamu

celakanya

sampai saat ini pun saya tetap begitu

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A sad eyes. 

Mine.

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Happiness did look good on you. Why don't you wear it today?

Bety Sanjaya

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The Lady and Her Umbrella

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