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“don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby.”

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atsushi: say... akutagawa... after this whole thing is over... do you want to go on a date maybe :D

akutagawa, blushing and coughing: if you insist weretiger

mori: akutagawa-kun, if you don't mind. could. you. perhaps. not. agree. to. go. on. a. date. with the enemy during a meeting on neutral grounds?

fukuzawa, scoffing: i see you're as irritating as you've always been. atsushi, i admire you're straightforwardness

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AO3

hey!! so i'm making an Ao3 account so feel free to folloe me on there, i'm currently working on a long form fyozai fic, so stay tuned for that! I also have a ko-fi if you wanna check it out https://ko-fi.com/kimikofrost

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confessions

It's quite obvious to anyone who has seen them. Akutagawa and Atsushi have feelings for each other, yet for some reason neither of them have seem to realize the other feels the same.

Fast forward to the present day, the Decay of Angels is taken care of, Yokohama is safe, and everything is back to normal. Well as normal as it can be. You see, the tension has been high between the two men, ever since Akutagawa came back from vampirism with his teeth in Atsushis neck. Neither of them decide to bring it up, why would they? they don't want to be the one to bring up this awkward conversation, Atsushi doesn't want to bring up the fact that maybe he actually enjoyed it, and Akutagawa doesn't want to admit how his heart fluttered when he was that close to the weretiger. So, neither of them talk about it, they go on missions together since the Port Mafia and Agency have come to a mutual understanding that they may need to rely on each other from time to time.

Now, the problem isn't the fact they get paired together on missions, no, that's the opposite of a problem they actually work together amazingly, they don't need words to communicate, they can just look at each other and the point gets across. The problem is Dazai. You see Dazai is perceptive, to perceptive for his own good sometimes. So Obviously he has seen the tension, and obviously he has teased Atsushi about it. But every time Dazai has brought it up, Atsushi has shut it down, albeit he has the biggest blush dusting his cheeks, and a slightly inflated flustered tone while speaking. Akutagawa doesn't have it any easier. Yes he doesn't have Dazai poking fun at the situation, but he does have Chuuya. Chuuya who means well. Chuuya who doesn't want him to make the same mistakes he did. So Chuuya pushes Akutagawa to confess, to realize his feelings for Atsushi is more than just tolerance of him, but genuine feelings. Eventually Akutagawa tries his best to tell him he really does. But he is only human.

"Weretiger we need to talk" No, that will stress Atsushi out. "Atsushi want to get dinner together this weekend?" Is he really asking him on a date. and since when does Akutagawa use Atsushis first name? After many days, and many unsent text messages, they get paired on another mission. The mission goes to plan as it always does, until the end, Atsushi is standing in front of Akutagawa, his face flushed in the prettiest way that Akutagawa has ever seen. Nervously Atsushi asks Akutagawa if he wants to get boba together, only because they had extra time since they finished the mission quickly, no other reason. Of course Akutagawa accepts, only because he is feeling fairly parched, not because he actually wants to spend more time with Atsushi, that would be absurd. Now here they both are, sitting outside the café together, in silence. Which is weird for them, not necessarily Akutagawa, but Atsushi, Atsushi tends to fill the silence. And Akutagawa always thought he hated it, but now that it's not there, he's realized how much he like Atsushi talking. So, he goes to break the silence, but, so does Atsushi does too. After a couple awkward chuckles from the two men, Akutagawa lets Atsushi speak first. When he does, Akutagawa couldn't believe his ears. Atsushi was flustered, he was stumbling over his words, and it wasn't smooth at all, it was embarrassing to be fully honest, But Akutagawa didn't care, he loved every second of it, every stumbled word, every nervous giggle, every little thing Atsushi did. Akutagawa never looked away, he held his breath until Atsushi was finished talking, and when Atsushi finished, the biggest smile crossed Akutagawa face. Akutagawa didn't know how to respond though, how was he supposed to, someone he's seen at his lowest points, someone he sacrificed his life for, was sitting here next to him, acting as if Akutagawa wasn't as in love with him as he was. So instead of using words. Which were never his strongest suit. Akutagawa did what he thought best, and he leaned forward and kissed him. After a couple moments he pulled away smiling softly at Atsushi. "You really think I wouldn't return the sentiment weretiger?" Akutagawa says almost teasingly, yet with a hint off affection laced in with it. After that the rest was history, they started a relationship with each other. No it wasn't perfect, but it was theirs, and no one could take that away from them. Not Dazai with his overbearing teasing. Not Chuuya with his over protectiveness towards Akutagawa. No one could come between the first time Akutagawa felt genuine love and happiness.

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New Years Kiss

it’s their first time celebrating new years together, and as always, Chuuya and Dazai were messing with each other. Teasing about so many things dazai teasing chuuya about this height, chuuya teasing dazai about attitude. But it’s familiar for them, comfortable for them both. As they’re talking, Dazai realizes something, he thinks Chuuya is beautiful. How Chuuyas mouth moves when he talks, the freckles on his cheeks like constellations, eyes as blue as the deepest part of the ocean, so Dazai does what Dazai does best, and teases chuuya.

“you know, I bet the nasty slug as never even kissed anyone.”

Dazai tease, enjoying the way Chuuyas cheeks flush way too much.

“what the fuck mackerel?”

Chuuya questions slightly embarrassed, but he’s never one to back down from an opportunity to mess with Dazai.

“is that your way of saying you want to kiss me shitty Dazai?”

The ginger retorts, enjoying that he got the one over on Dazai, but before dazai can retort. it hits midnight, and Chuuya pulls Dazai down by his tie and kisses him. Dazai face flushes to an embarrassingly red shade. as Chuuya pulls away he smiles up at the brunet

“happy new year Dazai”

Chuuya says surprisingly soft. And Dazai replies just as soft-

“happy new year hat rack”

And that, was just the first of many New Years they spent together.

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fyodor really said, fuck you and fuck everything unless you’re dazai and our chess game

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i haven't fulfilled my promise yet to use you as my dog!

redraw!

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touch starved

Really, I think both Dazai and Chuuya are extremely touch starved but solve it in their own ways. Dazai being more forward of the two, giving Chuuya head pats, lingering touches to "annoy" him, but he does it all out of the sake of just wanting to touch him. Chuuya on the other hand isn't as forward, and his methods are more "aggressive" per say, punches to the arm when he's annoyed. Slaps, anything of that sort, but only because he's not used to giving affection so he does it in the only way he knows how.