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him: you were in my dream

me: was i skinny

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i only got 46 hours into my fast and binged on over 1000 calories geez☹️

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y’all it happened again

bro i thought y’all were kidding about having dreams about food i just woke up and it happened to me

i dreamt i already broke my fast i felt so disappointed then i woke up😭

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bro i thought y’all were kidding about having dreams about food i just woke up and it happened to me

i dreamt i already broke my fast i felt so disappointed then i woke up😭

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i never expected something like that from him even telling him i’ve dropped 20 pounds in a month and haven’t been eating but hey at least i get motivation

attempting my first 4 day fast now

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skinny girl diet, abc diet, purple skinny diet

TW // diet

i want to try out one of these diets, but i dont know which one..

has anyone tried or is currently doing one of these?? what are your thoughts?? is it worth it??

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My safe foods

Snacks

Fruits (mainly apples, berries, peaches, oranges, cucumber, watermelon, melon and grapes)

Popcorn

Tea Popsicles (favs are matcha, strawberry mint, green tea, honey flavor tea, mint, raspberry)

I c e

Low-cal homemade marshmallows

Sugar-free jello

Low-cal homemade chocolate pudding

Gum

Fiber one brownies

Homemade low-cal tiramisu

Low-cal mini pancake

Apple pie filling

Rice cakes

Oat cookies

Low-fat Greek yogurt

Raisins

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Lunch

Chicken breast

Vegetables (mainly spinach, lettuce, carrots, zucchini, mushrooms, celery and pimento)

C o o k e d vegetables (roasted or steamed)

Salads 💚

Tuna salad

Chicken in apricot and chipotle sauce

Spinach wrap

Lettuce wrap

Tilapia

Lentil soup

Knorr bullion chicken soup/vegetable soup

Most soups in general

Shrimp

Mashed potatoes

K e t c h u p s o u p (ketchup with hot water and stevia)

Air fryed "crab" cakes

Rice cake pizza

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Drinks

Strawberry water

Mango water

Water with flavor packets (like tang, zuko, clight, etc)

T E A (especially mint, matcha, green, raspberry)

Coffee (coffee with almond milk is godly)

Unsweetened almond milk

Cashew milk

Cranberry juice light

Diet coke

Coke coffee

Cranberry juice + almond milk (it's good)

7up light

Suerox (0 cal electrolyte)

Regular old cold water

Vodka

Tequila

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Fast food/restaurant/going out

Sushi

Lettuce burgers (those without bread, wrapped in lettuce)

Mango smoothies

Miso soup

McDonald's happy meal

Wings (i order the spiciest ones so I'm unable to eat them all >:3)

When I'm in a buffet I grab mostly vegetables, sushi, and some potatoes

1 (one) slice of pepperoni/shrimp pizza

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Other stuff

Frank's red hot buffalo sauce

Ketchup

Chipotle sauce

Lemon Juice

Cream and spices

Stevia

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I might add and change stuff later -w-

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back on my grind

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bakers miller pink is used by victoria’s secret models to suppress hunger!!! here y’all go!

#FF91AF the hex code if y’all wanna use it, i might change my blog color to it tho

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Reasons to lose weight

"I never slept with someone that fat"

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my reasons to not eat

1. I feel pretty starving

2. Im not bloated

3. not gassy

4. heads in a clear place

5. can focus on other important things

6. getting closer to my UGW

7. usually not hungry after a certain amount of hours

8. can be tiny for bf

9. drugs feel better

10. I can see progress when I don’t eat.

12. I don’t feel guilty/depressed afterwards

11. I don’t have to cut myself

13.I’m in control

14. Hunger pains eventually stop

15. I’m not disappointed in myself

these are my reasons but I have a lot more but I just binged and ruined my entire day so I’m mentally preparing to fast for 3 days:)

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・✧・Booty Builder Work-Out・✧・

[10] Burpees *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[0:30] Jump Side Lunges *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[50] Bridges *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[45] Pulse Squats *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[40] Lunges *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[1:00] High Knees *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[1:00] Fast Feet *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[30] Donkey Kicks *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[15] Fire Hydrants *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[2:00] Wall Sit *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

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Excercise examples are hyper-linked !

Remember to drink water throughout and take breaks when needed ( ´ ▽ ` )b

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A bit of meanspo for myself :]] be careful while reading.

DON'T EAT.

The taste will last MINUTES.

The guilt HOURS.

The calories DAYS, MONTHS, YEARS.

DO NOT EAT. YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT SO THEY CAN LOVE YOU. SO YOU ARE THE AUTHORITY OF YOUR LIFE. SO YOU ARE BETTER THAN NOW.

DO. NOT. EAT.

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Everyone talks about how good it feels to lose weight with ed, but not a lot of people talk about how it feels to gain all the weight(and much more) back.

I have gained 105 lbs (around 48 kg) because my “recovery” turned into a constant binge-eating.

Nothing fits me anymore.

No more shopping at my favorite stores

No more wanting to go out

No more guys having crushes on me

No more being popular..

I took all those things for granted. I was never happy with my body, always wanted to lose more, but looking back, I should have been. I’m not saying I was happy at that time, I had no energy whatsoever, hair falling out and nails brittle.

But now it’s hard for me to walk upstairs without running out of breath, I have a lot of knee problems because of my weight, stretch marks because of rapid gain weight, being moody all the time because I hate the way I look.

People are constantly commenting on my weight, but this time it’s not them asking me to stop losing weight, this time it’s them asking me to lose weight.

And if only I could tell them that I’m trying, that I’m still not eating properly, that I have probably fasted for more hours than they can ever imagine, I just end up binging because food is the only thing that makes me happy, even tho it makes me the saddest and makes me hate myself too. But since I’m fat, nobody would notice, no one does, when I don’t eat breakfast or dinner for days, or eat an apple in front of my friends every day. “Oh you’re trying to lose weight? That’s great!” Yeh, if you call eating just one apple in three days great, it sure is.

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should i just say fuck it and eat all this candy so i don’t go over my limit in november

its only like a sandwich bag full anyways and i’ve eaten 600 today

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october-december is the worst time to have an eating disorder

constantly being surrounded be sweets and a bunch of food all the time having to resist is so difficult i can already tell i’m gonna be losing very slowly or maintaining for a while