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THIS IS AN ARCHIVE NOW

follow clarke here

and octavia here

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    THIS IS NOW AN ARCHIEVE. CLARKE HAS MOVED AGAIN. PLEASE FOLLOW ON HER NEW BLOG ( SAME URL )

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   i’m all caught up so let the moving process begin

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      i have 5 episodes to ctahc up on. can someone link me to a site where they would be?

never mind i found one

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      i have 5 episodes to ctahc up on. can someone link me to a site where they would be?

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         so,   the plan   !    after the finale airs and is online, i plan on catching up on this season.   as i do so,   clarke will be making a move to a new blog   -  selective and private with people i know and love   (  although i am always open to interacting with new people but this time i will be extremely wary of new people   )

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     me: hasn’t been around and makes a post about maybe not being around for a while also me: this is your daily reminder that @jobikilled and @wretchedatlas are the best people ever and i love them and if you say anything shit about them or hurt them in any way i will go mental.   thanks

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          here’s a late night post kinda explaining where i’ve been ... i guess??? i haven’t caught up with this season, i’m about half way through but the fandom is super toxic and i’m not here for it, or it’s toxic members. i wrote clarke for fun and i honestly love writing her but seeing everyone being complete cocksuckers over the characters and their decisions and how people write / portray their own versions of that character was something i do not want to be a part of.    like i said, i love writing clarke but being here is horrible and i’m sure a lot of people can agree with me.    i ant to come back,   i really do because the friends i have here are what makes me want to stay ( mostly morgan, faith and spencer ngl ).  i might catch up, i might make clarke super canon divergent who knows.

          another reason i haven’t been here is because i’m not doing great irl.   my depression is at an all time high and i feel super shit all the time.   my time is consumed with trying to better myself and not getting anywhere and then falling down the rabbit hole all over again.   i’ve thought about committing suicide,   i’ve thought about how much better off people will be if i did but i’m too scared to do anything so i’ve been trying to seek help away from tumblr.   i don’t want your sympathy and i don’t want you to worry,   i’m not going to do anything to myself that will cause serious harm but i am not in a good place at all and i’m worried that being on tumblr will just make things even worse.    i have no safety net in the real world,   i don’t like opening up to people and thus,   no one really knows me.   this isn’t a cry for help or me seeking attention, i feel like i owe you guys a serious explanation as to why i haven’t been around and i’m sick and tired of not being myself on this hellhole of a site   -  so i’m going to start being more blunt and more me.   enough with tiptoeing around everything and walking on eggshells.   if you have my discord you can reach me there but even then i very rarely reply but i hope to get some muse back soon.   if not,   i’ll disappear because there’s no point keeping clarke around. 

     ps:   also done with fake friends.   literally unfollow me / block me if you don’t want anything to do with me because i’m done with people being one thing and turning out to be another okay bye.

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i will be back here eventually. please don’t forget about me

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                                               written by iisms

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           i just wanted to make a post apologizing for not being on this blog   clarke’s muse has completely disappeared and until i get it back,   she is in hiatus.    you can find me over on @knwsdeath and i’m super up for doing threads with all of you! i know i owe drafts and inboxes too, but the majority of them will probably be deleted when i come back off holiday ( i’m away the 17th - 27th july ). i love you all and you can 100% have my discord if you wish to write with me over there too

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      my muse has completely gone for now buti’m watching oliver and company, so you know what that means

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                         THEY SAY BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST.    THE DEVIL USED TO BE AN ANGEL ONCE.    WHAT THEY DO NOT TELL YOU IS THE STORY OF HOW LUCIFER FELL,    OF HOW HE LOVED GOD TOO MUCH HE WAS DAMNED.

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            i’m here but i haven’t watched the latest ep . . . i’m probably not going to either

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                                 DAY AFTER DAY THIS MISERY MUST CARRY ON.

                                                      written and adored by iisms

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i’ve never been more tempted

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        i’m going to my little brother’s sports day in like an hour and then later, it’s back to my friends for a few days.  not sure if i’ll be online,   but if i am,   i might just be over on jemima ( @knwsdeath )!!