desticuleconfessions

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I don’t have anywhere else to put this because there’s no just general confessions tumblrs that aren’t related to fandoms so here i am. I am very sorry you can delete this ask now but a dnf fanfic keeps making me realise that i am in love with my best friend because it talks about the exact feelings i have towards her and i just- oof i need to stop reading after each chapter because it’s too real

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I run an aesthetic blog and sometimes throw in bits of non iconic spn themes just for the kick I get out of people reblogging them without knowing what they've done

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Highkey I feel like a desticule metamour like,,, yes I follow the blogs and yes I know all the inside jokes and yes I watched the birth of casmick consequences and how it would lead to endgame destiel. But have I watched past s1 or regularly reblog or post about destiel? Of course not, I’m afraid of confrontation.

Like from a scale of 1 (invalid fake fan) to 10(actual heller trash) where am I.

I’m just gonna actually reply to this one bc I want some genuine good vibes on the dash rn, honestly we are living in the Wild West, no rules no gatekeeping I think if you’re here with us in the year 2021 on spnblr you are a heller along with us all

[desticuleconfessions]

Highkey I feel like a desticule metamour like,,, yes I follow the blogs and yes I know all the inside jokes and yes I watched the birth of casmick consequences and how it would lead to endgame destiel. But have I watched past s1 or regularly reblog or post about destiel? Of course not, I’m afraid of confrontation.

Like from a scale of 1 (invalid fake fan) to 10(actual heller trash) where am I.

I’m just gonna actually reply to this one bc I want some genuine good vibes on the dash rn, honestly we are living in the Wild West, no rules no gatekeeping I think if you’re here with us in the year 2021 on spnblr you are a heller along with us all

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None of my friends know that i have watched all 15 seasons of the cw's supernatural so whenever i end up saying desticule phrases casually in conversation (like truthing or x coded y girl) i panic for a moment. Do they know? Fuck.

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Every time a post that I know is from a supernatural blog ends up on my dash sebveral days or weeks later, reblogged by a non-spn blog, I always end up thinking 'Oh hello supernatural tumblr'.

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I lined up my first watch of s15 in a way that put 15×18 the evening before an exam so... I'm just *not* gonna continue tonight and watch Bones or sth.

Sure, I've never watched s15 before but I know what's coming and I won't, I just can't, watch it directly before an exam if I wanna be mentally present. I barely am as it is now

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Constantly oscillating between shipping cockles because who platonically kisses their male friends on the cheek and really wishing it was normal to platonically kiss your male friends on the cheek because I would be all over that

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i have no clue what desticule means but i would like to be included. it seens relevant to my interests.

See here.

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The reason I am so righteously angry about Dean never getting to tell Cas he loved him is because my Dean coded friend who I am in love with is never going to say it to me but for some reason there are DOZENS of us pulling the same dumb gay shit here on Tumblr dot com so at least I've found the perfect group therapy <3

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A girl I grew up with and am in love with (she is straight and has a boyfriend😞✊) is gonna watch spn from the beginning with me and i'm so happy! I love her sm and being able to share something I love with her means the world to me.

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thanks to a very religious upbringing and some unfortunate life events, i have a lot of shame around sexuality. the only way ive found i can explore it without feeling overwhelmed by feeling like im doing something wrong (most times) is fanfic, and deancas fics are my current fave. i feel bad though, because i try to be a good fan and give kudos/comments, but i just cant get myself to do that on nsfw fics cuz i feel so bad about reading them. even admitting i do here feels wrong

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After yesterday's yockey death hoax today i dreamt that w*ncesties posted something like "if we could make a masterpost about what would make the finale better i'm sure kripke could arrange something for us <3" and kripke himself replied "of course", then steve yockey invited him to a duel and kripke killed him with an angel blade. I felt like it was gonna take a turn and have a good ending but i woke up :(

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I went to bed at 6am on sunday because I was catching up with y'all's posts on european time. like I literally partied too hard at the deancas wedding and had to drag my bleary-eyed ass to the library the next day as a result

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Last night I was the happiest I have been in quite a while. The entire event was so incredibly beautiful and heartwarming amd I am still so incredibly emotional even after several hours of sleep. They are married and they are happy and they are together! And we did that! And it was amazing!

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THERE GETTING MARRIED TODAY!!!!!!!!!

TIME TO CELEBRATE BITCHES 🥳🎉🥳🎉

TIME TO BEING OUT THE PRIDE FLAGS

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there was this guy i was superrrr into a couple years ago even though he was a complete dick and looking back i'm suddenly realizing that's it's because he is extremely dean-coded. he had a v deep voice, a knife collection(!), extremely s1 dean heterosexual manly man vibes on the outside but he had had sex with a guy before "just to see what it was like" and like!! i wasn't even watching supernatural at the time! true winchester derangement syndrome