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OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH ROB!!! THIS IS EVERYTHING I WANTED! ❤️

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Also, I am 100% sure Joaquin would compliment him in front of everyone and tell every person he knows about how fucking good his boyfriend is at wrestling -- among other things.

A concept: Kevin at a wrestling match and Joaquin being there and watching him.

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A concept: Joaquin and Kevin bathing together, in a very cold winter day (or night?), relaxing in the hot water, Joaquin with his shoulder pressed on Kevin's chest, and his hand sliding up and down his preppy's thighs. Kevin's softly caressing Joaquin's chest under the hot water.

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what about Kevin inviting Joaquin over while his dad's at work and they end up falling asleep and being woken up by Sheriff Keller and his killer face and instincts? just imagine Kevin and Joaquin both panicking but Joaquin just keeps a straight face because he doesn't want to look unsure or concerned about anything in front of Kevin's dad.

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Kevin Keller Meme: [1/1] Relationships 

→ Kevin & Joaquin 

“This is the first time I brought a boyfriend to one of these things. This is the first time I’ve really had a boyfriend”.

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the kids of riverdale: {14/22} Joaquin DeSantos 

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omg you have no idea how much that means to me, i'm really happy you took 5 minutes to tell me this. these are the kind of things that encourage a writer to write something! also, i had no clue you were German! I mean, by reading the things you post!! Wow! Also you're a blessing to this fandom, you keep it awake and really fill it with the prompts you take!

ok Joavin fandom needs more fanfictions and i’m sure that everyone agree with this. MY BUDDIES. WRITE SOMETHING. i’d really like to write something too, but my English unfortunately isn’t that good and i don’t really feel comfortable about it, BUT i assure you i have good ideas, so if you’re searching for inspiration or something feel absolutely free to ask, i’m more that happy to help!!

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ok Joavin fandom needs more fanfictions and i'm sure that everyone agree with this. MY BUDDIES. WRITE SOMETHING. i'd really like to write something too, but my English unfortunately isn't that good and i don't really feel comfortable about it, BUT i assure you i have good ideas, so if you're searching for inspiration or something feel absolutely free to ask, i'm more that happy to help!!

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The original south side/north side couple. 

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omg i'm gonna kill myself, my computer DIED while i was writing something, I HADN'T WRITTEN SOMETHING IN AGES, IT WAS LIKE YEARS, I'M GOING TO CRY, life is unfair

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Go ahead and break my heart again, leave me wondering why the hell I ever let you in.

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Kevin’s sad face as Joaquin gets on the bus to San Junipero.

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we don’t deserve him

the softest boy ™

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Kevin: Making my way downtown.

Kevin: Walking fast.

Kevin: ...

Kevin: Walking a little bit slower so my steps match with Joaquin's because he’s short.

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kill me ☺️

I love his face

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He waits for Kevin after the match, outside the door of the locker room, and Kevin has never been more slow, anxiety is killing him right now, and even though heʼs been waiting him for what felt like an hour, when Kevin opens that door Joaquin isnʼt ready. His mouth is suddenly dry and his heart is pounding so hard in his chest it seems like it is in his ears, and he finds himself holding his breath. Kevin freezes up and waits there for a moment, obviously heʼs surprised. Itʼs been months since Joaquin came back, he didn't really expect him to come and talk to him, especially not in that moment. Theyʼre staring at each other in the eyes when Joaquin blurts out all of sudden “Iʼm sorry”. Kevin lowers his eyes and adjusts his backpack on one shoulder, hoping that thereʼs more, and actually, there is. “I never said it, but Iʼm sorry. For what I did. God, I sound like an idiot right now. I feel like an idiot. Itʼs been months since I came back and itʼs been a year since I left and I never told you how sorry I am for what I did. Not that I really had a chance, but it still sucks” and Kevin interrupts Joaquin, “Itʼs fine”. And Joaquin laughs in a very sarcastic way, “is it? I canʼt even look at your face and not feel like a worm” and itʼs crazy that heʼs saying that out loud. “It doesnʼt matter anymore. Iʼm not mad at you and you shouldnʼt be mad at yourself. Itʼs fine, Joaquin. Iʼm grateful that you told me that though” Kevin smiles, but his lips are closed and pressed in a thin line. “I really need to go now, but... Take care of yourself. I mean it. You look like hell” and with that he leaves Joaquin. Who should be a little relieved to finally have talked to Kevin, to apologize. Then why he isnʼt?

We know what Kevin does after he breaks up with Joaquin but have you ever wondered what did Joaquin do? I have this idea in my mind where Joaquin literally doesn’t know how to deal with it, to face the break up, because I think this was the first time he cared about someone, you know? The first time he put his heart in a relationship besides the fact that he also had a “purpose”. And now he’s alone in San Junipero and there’s no one there to help him going through this, so he kind of represses everything, he doesn’t show pain and regret with words but he does it unintentionally by doing “little” things like drinking too much - enough to forget his own name but not Kevin’s - or isolating himself, pushing away his friends from Riverdale who try to keep in contact with him through calls and texts, or smoking too much or not sleeping enough - sometimes not at all. 

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Also, when he’s back in Riverdale I think he’s going to be grown up, maybe even a bit of a loner, he still doesn’t talk with his friends and they’re probably gonna reciprocate the feeling, even though some of them might be low-key worried about him, he looks thinner and not in a healty way, also he really looks alone, not that he was a people person before but. And he doesn’t want to talk to Kevin. Okay he does, but he can’t and he feels like he’s not even worth being looked at by him anymore, so he’s not going to talk to him; but god, meeting him in the middle of the hallways of the school, with his stupid perfect hair, and his ridiculously pink lips is really painful. But not as painful as seeing him smiling at his boyfriend while they eat together, or getting in the bathroom and seeing Kevin kissing him. But Joaquin keeps going to see Kevin at the wrestling matches, even though he sits as far as he can and tries to keep a low profile. One day, then, one of his friends, probably Toni, sits next to him and says “he’s waiting that you go to him and talk to him”. And Joaquin isn’t even surprised she’s talking to him despite everything, but he is because of what she says. “Yes, and say what?” he says with his hands buried in the poket on the front of the hoodie. “I don’t know, ‘i’m sorry’, maybe, sounds good, huh?” and Toni couldn’t be more right. He never told him. 

We know what Kevin does after he breaks up with Joaquin but have you ever wondered what did Joaquin do? I have this idea in my mind where Joaquin literally doesn’t know how to deal with it, to face the break up, because I think this was the first time he cared about someone, you know? The first time he put his heart in a relationship besides the fact that he also had a “purpose”. And now he’s alone in San Junipero and there’s no one there to help him going through this, so he kind of represses everything, he doesn’t show pain and regret with words but he does it unintentionally by doing “little” things like drinking too much - enough to forget his own name but not Kevin’s - or isolating himself, pushing away his friends from Riverdale who try to keep in contact with him through calls and texts, or smoking too much or not sleeping enough - sometimes not at all.