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He just cant

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Some old and not old fem!grimmjow sketches.

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I ❤️ butches

You weren’t awarded butch at the end of a great queer race. You cannot hang it in your living room or shine it on your mantle. You dug it up from the ground. You were on your knees, scraping at the soil with your short nails and your bloody hands. You found ‘butch’ in your own bones and you sucked out the marrow until your tongue knew the word by heart. And there are other names and other terms that were just as hard to find as yours, and you’re not to ever assume that the hole you made in the ground was deeper than anyone else’s. You had best promise me that right now.

excerpt from Butch Please: A Letter to Baby Butches

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Halloween 🎃👻🍬🎃👻🍬

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YES

Going off my deaf Mayuri hc post, but thanks to @mayuris-basement-dweller im really getting into the idea that post TYBW Mayuri needs a cane for the most part and has problems standing or walking for long period of time due to the injuries he gets at the end of his fight.

But consider:

What if Zaraki has a problem with his arm that he had to cut off? Like that arm is more stiff or has limited movement, which limits his fighting options.

Or even he needs a prosthetic arm (courtesy of the 12th, of course) to replace the one he lost!

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My fave meow meow 💖😍

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One of the Mayuri headcanons that was prominent in the early Bleach fandom but has sort of disappeared over time was the idea that Mayuri was deaf due to his lack of ears and that gold cones/earmuffs were like advanced hearing aids that he made.

And i know the bath scene kinda disproves it, but i honestly liked the premise.

I even remembered an old fic or comic (i can't remember it was deviantArt man) where he used sign language with Akon and Nemu when out of uniform

I just think it's a really good headcanon and wish it was used more

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Chapter 82 vs chapter 629

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Äs Nödt x anxious Quincy reader, sfw, reader's gender is up to you

You're new to the bunch and you're anxious about showing what you can do, because you were taught not to celebrate your wins. Äs Nödt catches you spiraling about it, what will he do?

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The corridors of Silbern are cold, but that's not why you're putting your arms around yourself right now, trying your best to keep from shaking.

You have already tried every trick you know, every different form of breathing that promises a bit of relief, but it's a bit too late for that. There's an inescapable feeling of dread in your chest and your head feels like it might explode.

What's worse, it's late and you still can't bring yourself to sleep, and you know how much worse everything will be if you don't get adequate rest, and if things go as badly as you imagine tomorrow, you won't have any excuse.

But the worst thing, you suddenly realize, is that your secret crush is still awake too. He advances towards you, slowly but surely, and you're practically panicking - you've been wanting to talk to him alone for a while now, but you're not ready, why now of all times, when you're busy worrying about your big event?

"You can relax", Äs Nödt says, "it's only me."

Haha, very funny, you think to yourself, and you clear your throat.

"That's just it. I can't relax."

"I know. I can sense your anxiety all the way from my room."

It takes a bit for his words to sink in, but when they do, you gasp and wave your hands in defense.

"Oh my God, am I keeping you up? I didn't know, I didn't mean to!"

He blinks at you a couple of times, and you hold your breath.

"No, you're not keeping me up", he continues, and it's times like these when you wish he didn't speak in such a slow, deliberate way, even though it's something you like about him. "I just happen to have a terrible headache."

"Oh. Me too."

Äs Nödt reaches into his pocket and offers you a pack of painkillers - what??

"Oh!! Thank you!!" you say, and then you almost drop the pack, and catch it in mid air, with an awkward laugh.

He smiles, you can see it in his eyes, as he watches you struggling to open your water, not because you can't, but because of how nervous you are, and you try not to choke on your pill. You hand him the pack with more words of gratitude, and for some reason he's still amused.

"Shall I leave?" he asks. "It seems that your anxiety has increased since I joined you..."

"No, no, it's fine, I'm fine!"

He tilts his head at you.

"Okay, I'm not fine", you confess, "but it's not like that. I mean, you're not making it worse just by being here, I swear."

"You're not scared of me, then?"

It's not like you haven't thought about that before.

"Well... why should I be? I mean, we're both loyal to His Majesty, right? Why would I assume you'd want to..." you shrug.

He tilts his head back again, and something in his eyes seems to... soften?

"Ah... even if I did want to use your fear against you, at the moment you're doing a fine job of it all by yourself..."

"Thank you? I guess?"

"... but don't be careless", Äs continues, "just because we are all on the same side it doesn't have to mean that we shouldn't be wary of one another..."

"Oh, I know that."

"Do you?"

"In any case, I was right about you, wasn't I? You wouldn't go around terrorizing a fellow Quincy for no reason. You'd save that for the enemy."

He narrows his eyes.

"Let me see if I understand. You're not scared of me, yet you're scared to demonstrate your Vollständig tomorrow in front of everyone?"

You sigh and fold your arms.

"Yeah, I... I'm worried because, what if I don't do it right, and everyone including His Majesty will watch me, and you will be there too, and--"

Well, now you've done it, and it's too late to think of some kind of way to redirect the conversation.

"And I'm going to applaud you along with the others when you succeed", Äs Nödt says.

You're blushing, aren't you, before your crush's big, attentive eyes. Of course you are.

"How do you know I will?" you ask.

"Well, answer me this: did you practice?"

"Of course I did."

"Have you managed to defeat your targets with it?"

"Yeah...?"

"Do you know how to undo it?"

"I do, but--?"

"So, how do you know you won't succeed? Unless... you actually plan to fail..."

Suddenly, you imagine yourself in front of Yhwach and Haschwalth and everyone and Äs Nödt and thinking, I'm going to fail, because failure is what I'm used to, I know how to comfort myself, how to pick myself up after failure, but success feels wrong, what do I even do after success? Celebrate? How can I celebrate, if acknowledging your success is tacky, and selfish, and boastful, and you cause envy in others, and pride in yourself, and and and--

And then your eyes feel open again, even though they were open all along. You don't even realize you're crying until Äs Nödt slowly brings his hand to your face, wiping your tears away with the back of his fingers.

"Do you understand now?" he asks, and you didn't know he could sound so gentle.

So, that vision wasn't you, it was him, but it was also you, it was the fear you carry in your soul. Wait, what? Did he just use his powers on you to... help?

And it worked, too.

Your face feels hot, but you feel lucid and alive. It makes you angry to remember that you were taught to not be proud of yourself. You look at him, your vision all cleared up now, in more ways than one, and you nod.

"Äs, it almost sounds like... you want to see me do well. Why?"

He smiles, and you've never seen such warmth in his eyes before.

"My dear new colleague", he says, slowly, "I've seen the kind of person you are. You embody all the good things that have no place in this wretched world. It is for people like you that His Majesty is going to create a new one."

For a moment you're completely speechless.

"... Oh... you think so...?"

"Yes."

You sigh deeply, and you smile.

"Thank you for saying that. And thank you for helping me."

"How do you plan to celebrate?"

"Pff, celebrate, I don't-- I mean, I don't know... um..."

"Shall we meet for some hot chocolate, and celebrate together?"

You blink at him.

"Hot chocolate! Sure! Of course!"

"Good."

You suddenly notice that it's been a while since you last experienced such a rollercoaster of emotions.

"Äs?"

"Yes?"

"Is your headache any better?"

It's his turn to blink at you now.

"... It is. And how are you feeling?"

"Yeah! I feel better too, yeah."

"Let's go back to our rooms, then."

"Yep. Good night, Äs. And thanks again."

He nods.

"Sleep well."

You can't help but smile as you watch him leave.

So, hot chocolate, then. With Äs Nödt. If nothing else, you'll definitely do your best tomorrow just for that.

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Thank you for reading 😊😘💕

P.S. I take requests now, pls read my pinned post 💖

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More art of my OC Seraph and Äs Nödt

I’ve been trying out a shading style and I really like it

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How do people draw smiley piercings...?

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Snowy time~~~~~

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Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez (グリムジョー・ジャガージャック) - Bleach: Sennen Kessen-hen - Episode 32

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