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Crows

by Mary Oliver

It is January, and there are crows like black flowers on the snow. While I watch, they rise and float toward the frozen pond, they have seen some streak of death on the dark ice. They gather around it and consume everything, the strings and the red music of that nameless body. Then they shout, one hungry, blunt voice echoing another. It begins to rain. Later, it becomes February, and even later, spring returns, a chorus of thousands. They bow, and begin their important music. I recognize the oriole. I recognize the thrush, and the mockingbird. I recognize the business of summer, which is to forge ahead, delicately. So I dip my fingers among the green stems, delicately. I lounge at the edge of the leafing pond, delicately. I scarcely remember the crust of the snow. I scarcely remember the icy dawns and the sun like a lamp without a fuse. I don’t remember the fury of loneliness. I never felt the wind’s drift. I never heard of the struggle between anything and nothing. I never saw the flapping, blood-gulping crows.

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this was such a good plan I've been stoned for 3 hours or so, finally rewatched/finished midnight cowboy And it's only 11

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The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade

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My plan is 2025 is to dynamite my current life and jump ship to something completely different. Doing so will require a level of discipline I have never exhibited in my life.

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a list of adult queer books that are mostly horror & horny

all books recommend come with extreme trigger warnings

Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke - Eric LaRocca

The Sluts - Dennis Cooper

Violent Faculties - Charlene Elsby

We Are Here To Hurt Each Other - Paula D. Ashe

Infect Your Friends & Loved Ones - Torrey Peters

MANHUNT - Gretchen Felker-Martin

Tell Me I’m Worthless - Alison Rumfitt

Everything the Darkness Eats - Eric LaRocca

Sir, Butler & Boy - Tab Kimpton

Maeve Fly - C.J. Lee

Fluids - May Leitz

Exquisite Corpse - Billy Martin

Hogg - Samuel R. Delany

These Violent Delights - Micah Nemerever

The Worm & His Kings - Hailey Piper

Negative Space - B.R. Yeager

Walking Practise - Dolki Min

As Meat Loves Salt - Maria McCann

Sister, Maiden, Monster - Lucy A. Snyder

Summer Sons - Lee Mandelo

Eyes Guts Throat Bones - Moïra Fowley-Doyle

Red X - David Demchuk

Camp Damascus - Chuck Tingle

Monstrilio - Gerardo Sàmano Córdova

Docile - KM Szpara

Claustrophilia - Ezra Blake

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my new years resolution for 2025:

1. get hotter

2. lesbian sex

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love the type of male character that is just a losing dog

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at work straight up "slackin it" and by "it", hahah, well, lets justr say. I am not doing my job.

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(by Matthias Hempel)

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crossfaded on lesbianism and perversion

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My dad sent these pictures of quail in his yard. Happy fat fuck Friday

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excerpt from A LETTER TO MY DAUGHTER / 2003 (b.)

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Somewhere in Time, San Francisco -- July 14th, 2024

Etsy

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friendships end. relationships end. fictional man whos doing even worse than you is forever