decayinghearg

[decayinghearg]

desperate to be understood and accepted

[decayinghearg]

how pathetic it is of me to be this upset over a guy i knew for less than 5 months

[decayinghearg]

i know my dad misses having me as his daughter

[decayinghearg]

i hate him i miss him so much

[decayinghearg]

i was deleting ipad imessages and i saw his chat and im having the worst panic attack 😂😂like why??? hes just a guy. “im just struggling on figuring out whats best for me vs whats the right thing to do”😣😣😣😣😣😣.

im so stupid😂😂🤪

how did i not know he was still in love with his ex? i think i did know i just didnt want to believe bc why tf would you pursue some1 if u still loved ur ex…… heloo?? i bet he was cheating on me lmfaoooo

[decayinghearg]

maybe someone would love me if i was skinny

[decayinghearg]

this is the first time since we broke up that im listening to the song i would always sing to him. it reminded me of him so much. but the song didnt even remind me of him. its just expressing how much love i had for him and how obsessed i was with him. i would always write down the lyrics to that song, i would text it to him, i printed the lyrics down to scrapbook. its an awesome song i love it. but thats all it is now. a great song. thats it

[decayinghearg]

its so funny how when we were cuddling and watching a movie i GLANCE at his phone and him and his ex are saying i love you. like r u kidding me. n u expect me to just be fine???? i most definitely was just ignoring it bc i wanted him to love me

[decayinghearg]

i had a dream he was more in love with me than he ever was. i hated it

[decayinghearg]

i spent the whole year losing my mind over some guy who i barley knew. if i had never met him i would be in such a better place right now. i obsessed over him and dropped everything to be with him. just because he was nice to me

[decayinghearg]

i hate being vulnerable i hate when i let other people in

[decayinghearg]

i really do think i am the problem and most people dislike me

[decayinghearg]

no ones ever going to understand me they all just think im dramatic and crazy! i dont blame them

[decayinghearg]

i miss him so much

[decayinghearg]

i need a fucking break bro

[decayinghearg]

im gonna die alone everyones just gonna leave me eventually i would leave me 2

[decayinghearg]

just now starting to feel not as bad 5 months after