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It is January, and there are crows like black flowers on the snow.

Mary Oliver, from "Crows"

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the allegheny cemetery spirits

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artists: francisco de goya (1746-1828)

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mika takahashi

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i find it funny that conservatives try to paint me calling for the death and destruction of multi-billionaire CEOs as some radical "woke liberal" standpoint. as if that even has anything to do with politics, especially in this era of surface level circus politics. the same way they try to politicize the hurricanes or the wildfires destroying parts of america, as if climate change is somehow a red vs. blue issue. it's no secret i'm from a deeply conservative family in the sticks of florida and i still grew up hearing "i fought the law and the law won". the healthcare system has fucked each and every member of my family in a different way at one point or another, as is the case with pretty much every family in this scorched earth nation. remember when country music, the genre currently associated the heaviest with the most conservative faction of america, used to be staunchly anti-government and about sticking it to the man? remember when the coal miners, grandfathers to the "trump-er hillbillies" of appalachia that everyone loves to write off as ignorant, fought tooth and nail for unionization because the companies that were built off their labor didn't give a shit if they lived or died? since when has "upholding traditional values" gone hand in hand with... defending lawmakers and oil tycoons. my family and i complain about the same issues at the dinner table. the men in charge better hope they can keep their digital smokescreens running as long as they can because the moment the rednecks and the hippies lay down their swords long enough to realize they have the same enemy, all hell is gonna break loose.

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what did you mean by “and pretend at the chain link that I am the wood”?

i make believe i am so much more than my physical limitations

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@/briscoepark. “Save Us” twitter, 19 mar 2021.

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@/briscoepark. “Save Us” twitter, 19 mar 2021.

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January 8th, I feel like big things are coming but not faster than harsh winds. The wind will mess up my hair, flush my cheeks. Regardless, I will brush it and bring her hands to my cheeks.

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this was track 8 until the week we mastered Perverts and I made 013/Thatorchia on a whim and loved it so much I called my mastering guy and told him to swap out the tracks because I thought it needed to be on the record that badly. here's the 000 rework that would have been wellwater. i still love it and didn't want it to go to waste

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me posting: omg people are gonna notice this random flaw that i only noticed from looking too hard, they’re gonna search for any flaw in my being

me seeing other people’s posts: icon, 10/10

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Am I the only one who thinks The Secret History would be way more interesting as a stage play than a movie? It could be put on in the same style as a Greek tragedy, taking inspiration from ancient performances. Or there could be constant rotating sets and backgrounds, but the mountains and the cliffs always being present onstage, reminding us that what no matter what Richard is telling us, and no matter how much Richard and the Greek class try to rationalize it, they will always be haunted by what they have done. THINK ABOUT HOW THE BACCHANAL COULD BE SHOWN

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ethel cain’s music is like tea to me- you have to savor it on your tongue to truly taste it.

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IHNMAIMS reference in the new album!?!!

i geeked as soon as i made the connection.

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it feels like everyone is in on some big joke and i’m the punchline

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One year ago today, I accidentally discovered the defunct Bruce Mansfield plant in Shippingport, PA on a late night drive along the Ohio river while I was living in Coraopolis. Lights on the horizon from the bridge in Monaca led to “smoke” from cooling towers on the other side of the hill until I had followed the backroads all the way to what now sits in my mind as nothing short of a monument to God. I’ve always had a fascination with great brutalist structures, but something about the smokestacks, cooling towers, and other twisted entrails of the power plants of Pennsylvania truly changed the way I see the world and my place in it last year. I spent multiple nights a week parked on the side of the road outside that plant the entire 9 months I lived in Coraopolis; I’d drive up the river in the middle of the night and sit there for hours, admiring the sheer might of the towers and how beautiful and resolute they stood against the grey night sky. They became a beacon of religiosity, of sexual liberation and enjoyment, of contentedness. When I would drive home, I would masturbate in the dark and think about them and only them. I think I miss the power plants more than anything since leaving Pennsylvania. Perverts wouldn’t exist without Bruce Mansfield and neither would the person I am today. Happy 1 year anniversary to me and my giant concrete boyfriend ♡