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Does anyone find the process more addicting than the results ooooor.......?

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Cals and steps- 23/12/2024

Don't ask about yesterday.... I skipped my walk and ended up binging okay. But probably not post cals and steps tomorrow because I messed up my foot AGAIN during my walk and the holidays are going to be so stressful. Overall I wanna forget about today so later.

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Cals and steps- 21/12/2024

I did so much worse than yesterday omg. I had to stop during my walk to stop feeling dizzy then skipped out the last hour because of a phone call. :/ Decided to eat breakfast for once and it set my whole food clock off for all of today. Can't tell if I wanna lower my cals or keep trying to increase my steps but either way that's a lot more food in my system than I want.

My hip is KILLING me and I'm still a bit sore from yesterday.

I wish my two friends weren't so busy, my social life is one step in the grave but then again I don't have spare cash to be going out nor could handle eating out rn. Plus I feel like I'm so fat I shouldn't be seen by anyone.

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Cals and steps- 20/12/2024

Finally got my fitness pal, no idea how I'm gonna get that many calories or get that protein intake. 😬 I just got out of a fast and that was the only reason I could get that much food down. Wish there was a way for me to figure out how to track the amount of weight lost for heavy yard work.

I am so so sore so I couldn't get 20k steps in but for now on I'm hoping to get in 15-20k steps in for now on. I'm tired of looking like this. I'm so sick of being ashamed of the way I look. I need to lose as much as possible for Christmas, then for a trip in February.

Idk why I'm putting here but whatever. Might make this consistent.

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Rate the snacks except it's incredibly obvious I live w a toddler...

(I have produce in the fridge dw but God damn it looks like I'm packing for a playdate)

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Hey guys ... Guess who failed at recovery by gaining almost all their weight back and falling into a binge cycle.... (Me omg heyyyyy I wanna kms 🙃)

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Hey so the recent election in the US has filled me with so much anger that I can temporarily push away my disordered thoughts and I am now dedicated to getting as physically strong as possible as an outlet for that anger. I know that one day I'll probably be back here but till then I can only focus on how vile the hatred for both me and the people I love is in this country.

Everyone stay safe 👍

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Crazy how that one harm reduction account made a post saying that most of the people here don't actually have a disorder, just disordered thoughts, because most of us don't check every box for atypical anorexia.

Is stuff like that not the exact reason why eating disorders are the most fatal disorders or am I missing something?

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Kinda wanna revamp my blog but I feel like the Shane stuff is too iconic for me rn so I want a second opinion

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Tell me why I just BC a few days ago and had noticeable weight loss compared to my last one... ONLY TO BINGE OUT KNOWING DAMN WELL MY USUAL EXERCISE PLAN IN IMPOSSIBLE TO DO RN????

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How tf did I suddenly just start restricting again hello?? I've been binging for like a month now wdym I can eat under 300c4l again? At least now my over exercising is actually going to do something

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Been constantly getting 11k-15k steps in the last 2 weeks 🥳🎉

Now I just need to stop eating again....

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☆ Reblog if you're an active 3d account in September 2024 ☆

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ED paranoia be like

Why do I feel lightheaded when I stand? Am I going to die?

Why do the lights look brighter? Am I going to die?

Why do I not get aroused as easily? Am I going to die?

Why do I feel colder than usual? Am I going to die?

Why is my skin like grayish? Am I going to die?

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Workout while fasting or go back to bed to feel some semblance of happiness hmmm....🤔

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PLEASE STOP REBLOGGING MY POSTS WITH NON ED TAGS!!!

i’m so happy i’ve managed to build a space for almost 340 of you, and i appreciate every interaction, but something i cannot stress enough is stop reblogging with non-ed tags!!

a lot of people have explained this before, but when you do this, you risk the chance of people without eds (even worse, people in recovery) finding edblr and reporting me and everyone else on edblr. while i have my following and likes privated (pls do this if you haven’t, it’s another safety precaution to prevent mass-nuking!) you can’t hide notes etc on a post, so people can still report from those

pls pls be careful! 🩵