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literally everyone: suicide is preventable!

me 800 times: im unhappy, i have no one to talk to, why am i even here

literally everyone: suicide is preventable! (but um only if we care about the person and you don’t count)

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do I exist solely to be ignored and stepped over and stepped on and kicked down

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I don’t know how to handle how fucking unhappy I am.

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Hannah Gadsby, “Douglas” (Now on Netflix)

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I just finished DA:V and I have some thoughts:

- the fact that I’ve already finished it and the game came out less than a month ago should tell you something about play time. I was expecting a LOT more and I’m honestly glad I didn’t end up spending money on this because at this point I’d be wondering where tf my $90 went

- the writing leaves a lot to be desired (some of the dialogue is so awkward and stilted) and the characters and relationships are nowhere near as fleshed out as previous games

- if you told me bioware spent 90% of the last decade perfecting hair strands and only 10% on the game itself I’d believe you..

Obviously from my previous posts it’s clear I didn’t hate the game and I did enjoy playing it… but, for example, even after finished BG3 for the first time, all I wanted to do was immediately create a new character and do it over again, because I knew I hadn’t possibly seen everything the game had to offer because there was just SO MUCH. Whereas in this case, I’ve finished and I’m like… well, that’s that.

I think it’s all just compounded by the fact that they had so much time to make this game amazing and my expectations because of that were high.

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gregory lower that roof 👹

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yall I almost cried when my rook said something about being trans

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I'm finally going to be able to donate (and with my birthday coming up on Dec 5, I've asked my family to donate instead of getting me anything) so I've compiled all the asks I've received and hope others can donate too even if it's only a small amount.

@jamalhlles

@fatmakuhail22

@alamoudi-ghazi

@aya-baker

@ahmad-syam2

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ahhh yes, glee: the show that had a pedophile, more than one actor involved has died in awful circumstances, and a main actress who’s such a shitty person no one wants to work with her. what a great uplifting show that taught us all not to hate

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my mom and her partner have been together over 20 years but they still have their own houses, so on nights when she’s not staying over his place (which is where she may as well have been living full time the past several years) and she’s at home, he’ll cook himself dinner and then meticulously pack everything away after and put it in the fridge, then bring it over to my moms house the next day around lunch cause he knows she doesn’t fking eat lunch when she’s working

anyway it’s cute af and now I’m eating fajitas

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only being able to travel with two companions is honestly such a huge let down. TWO. the game feels very very close to horizon zero dawn in terms of functions (sliding and climbing particularly) and it feels like the smaller team may be inspired by that (and the Witcher I feel like?) and it’s bumming me outttttt

I would like at least 4 people there gassing me up at all times thank you

That said, the rendering/animation/artwork, etc, really is gorgeous. Facial expressions, speech, body movement, all leagues ahead. You know how in video games there’s often pauses between characters speaking, even when one character cuts off another? They’ve done really well in minimising that pause so that conversation flow feels more realistic and ultimately makes the game more immersive, which is more than I can say for, say, BG3, which still has tons of audio issues.

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yes, obviously I’m gonna flirt with the dude who’s got a spite demon shoved inside him

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guys maybe we can gun violence our way out of this

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right cause you can shoot your way out of being the most deeply selfish population on earth.

The problem is that America has beaten down its people for decades and gotten them weak and desperate and now promises a way out, a way to transcend and rise above, through selling out their fellow man. They encourage contempt and hatred as one way ticket to not being included with the masses being death marched to poverty or imprisonment or whatever other bitter end surely awaits the people they’re told are beneath them. An embarrassingly large chunk of white men are just straight up nazis these days as a way to dissociate from the rest of the carnage around them, even if they’re broke and uneducated and from an impoverished background themselves. They’ll vote for and align themselves with anything for a taste of power and control that makes them feel a little less helpless. The same goes for minorities. They’ll punch down if they think it’ll get them somewhere, even if in reality they’re punching sideways. I don’t know what else to say, really. Everybody is so incredibly hateful. We are a loveless, disrespectful nation. We are so spread thin by our government that we would sell each other out in a heartbeat for an ounce of relief. This is what we’ve come to.

It’s not even about Trump at this point. He’s gonna get in office and do whatever he does and it’s gonna be a mess but whatever. This is indicative of deeper problem. This is just the ugly consequence of the already present reality in this country that we all just despise each other. There is no solidarity and there is no love. Trump being in office or not doesn’t change the fact that America is a breeding ground for violent hatred. Trump has given people a shining example of how to give in to the worst parts of your human nature and make it the problem of everyone around them. I don’t even know what we’re supposed to do about that. I don’t know if that’s something we can come back from. And if anything COULD be done about it, Trump certainly wouldn’t do it. Honestly, Kamala probably wouldn’t have either. We are so deeply fucked.

However, I must say, if you voted for Trump, I hope that peace never finds you. Instead, I hope clarity strikes you someday like a clap of lightning and you have to live the rest of your life with the knowledge and guilt of what you’ve done and who you are as a person.

Love yall. Shit is so bleak but the world keeps spinning until it doesn’t, I guess. We can’t count on the government for literally even a shred of progress or hope so just keep up the good fight in your own personal lives. That’s literally the only thing to be done at this point. Stay safe out there. Maybe buy a gun.

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I cannot fucking believe americans allowed this to happen again. jesus fucking christ. thank you for dooming the entire fucking world for your own selfishness. unbelievable. WHY ARENT MORE OF YOU QUESTIONING WHY THE FUCK AN ‘ELECTORAL COLLEGE’ IS MAKING MASSIVE DECISIONS IN YOUR NAMES? did you not learn your fucking lesson last time? holy fuck.

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so I’m trying to figure out why they would choose to give Harding lyrium-induced powers, instead of Dagna…. the dwarf who is literally obsessed with magic and exiles herself to study it. tbh I’m still trying to figure out why Harding is even part of this game. Dagna was in 2 of the prior games and was really interesting (imo) and it would have been super cool to see her in this role.

(I don’t dislike Harding or anything, think I’m more just baffled by the choice to make her a companion)