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HEY SORRY WHAT I SAID WAS WEIRD I AM FULL OF CURSES

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Presented from the Discord : Amity is an enigma, she tends to veer towards the forgiving side but she tends to take her fathers approach when it comes to handling percieved threats against her family, and Justy, despite being her own flesh and blood is an active threat against her and her half-siblings.

She feels secure with him in self-exile in Orre playing make-believe in the sand, but the second he comes back and she hears even a whisper about him ‘claiming his right to be the Joy patriarch,’ he’s done

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t shirt that says "I AM AN UNREPENTANT SEXUAL PERVERT" and the back says "ASK ME ABOUT MY SOCIALLY UNACCEPTABLE FETISHES" i exclusively wear it to target

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Noriko is the one who's most actively attempting to find a way to revert Amity back to her old self - she's one of the only narrative characters that, upon realizing Amity was inevitably doomed to this since she was 9 years old, only feels angrier? She could manage PERFECTLY for the 18 years AFTER that incident - whatever bullshit that happened to her can be squeezed back into that genie's bottle - she's sure of it.

She has virtually no patience for Amity's seeming so serene and indifferent about the current circumstances.

Like Amity would PREFER to go back to being human - but she knows that some things can't be undone, and, at this point? She's just humouring her siblings by going along with / hearing out every spiritualist and wackjob from the ends of the earth for the sake of easing her siblings into understanding what's clearly apparent to her - that this isn't fixable.

But Noriko feels deeply and frustratingly like her older sister isn't trying to save herself—she hates the new normal and how Amity keeps trying to establish a state of 'normal' about things! LIKE WHERE IS YOUR RAGE, AMITY???

It trickles down into their relationship and attempts at dealing with the 'mob situation.' Amity is quietly picking at the masses and using them to feed The Hive, but it's not enough to Noriko. Noriko doesn't love violence, but she feels her anger about Amity's assassination a lot more outwardly. She wants Amity to do something! But Amity just responds, 'What? Do you want me to burst down their doors and drag them away from their families?'

Amity is irate, but she wants to maintain her image, at least on the surface level, to protect the status quo and prevent further violence back and forth in retribution. Nori is irate and scared, but she wants to demand Justice and heads to roll, and is ready for the violence because, unlike Amity, she's profoundly mourning in a way that she's not used to and that leaves her helpless (unlike Amity who is followed by a trail of death in all verses and used to the routine by this point)

The part of the One-With-The-Swarm Verse that inevitably fucks me up so badly is the fact that even though Amity's back - a large part of her isn't - I mean, she spends half of the year in hibernation and that's not taking into account the parts of her mind that have been entirely rewritten by the Swarm itself. Amity isn't the person she was, not fully; she's there, and her presence is palpable, but it's not enough. She's fleeting, like a season herself, leaving Noriko at the center of it, left to inherit what Amity can't lead anymore.

YES, Amity inevitably still serves as the matriarch, at least in appearance - she will serve her family as far as her body and nature will allow her, and her spirit is around in essence - but Nori has to be the true head beneath it all. In that way, it's almost like Amity never came back whatsoever.

For months of the year, Noriko will be the one who’ll be looked to as the head of the coven and the estate. Amity is now seen as flakey (for non-preventable reasons), weak even, so Noriko has to be the unrelenting strength, and she’s so, so scared. She doesn't want to do this - she doesn't want to be the last Joy standing, so to speak.

She wants to return to how things used to be - she wants the idea of her being the heir apparent to be a silly scenario that only exists in their hypothetical 'what ifs', not her reality. She doesn't know how to run things, and even when Amity is guiding her hand, creating loving lists and guides to help her find her way and promising Noriko that once she gets confidence, she'll loathe giving power back to her after she wakes up for the season. It doesn't feel like Amity's telling the truth or that her words will ever reflect Noriko's reality - though that may be in part because accepting the role as leader means coming to terms with the fact Amity is dead and with her died the most reassuring, present person in her life.

It hurts all the more when Amity expresses her genuine, earnest faith in Noriko and reminds her with a laugh: 'I was a stupid 16-year-old when mom died and all of this was left on my shoulders for the first time, but look, I made it work- 'fact, I'd like to think I did a decent job- so imagine how much better you'll do than me. I was good, but YOU'LL be legendary, I know it,'

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The part of the One-With-The-Swarm Verse that inevitably fucks me up so badly is the fact that even though Amity's back - a large part of her isn't - I mean, she spends half of the year in hibernation and that's not taking into account the parts of her mind that have been entirely rewritten by the Swarm itself. Amity isn't the person she was, not fully; she's there, and her presence is palpable, but it's not enough. She's fleeting, like a season herself, leaving Noriko at the center of it, left to inherit what Amity can't lead anymore.

YES, Amity inevitably still serves as the matriarch, at least in appearance - she will serve her family as far as her body and nature will allow her, and her spirit is around in essence - but Nori has to be the true head beneath it all. In that way, it's almost like Amity never came back whatsoever.

For months of the year, Noriko will be the one who’ll be looked to as the head of the coven and the estate. Amity is now seen as flakey (for non-preventable reasons), weak even, so Noriko has to be the unrelenting strength, and she’s so, so scared. She doesn't want to do this - she doesn't want to be the last Joy standing, so to speak.

She wants to return to how things used to be - she wants the idea of her being the heir apparent to be a silly scenario that only exists in their hypothetical 'what ifs', not her reality. She doesn't know how to run things, and even when Amity is guiding her hand, creating loving lists and guides to help her find her way and promising Noriko that once she gets confidence, she'll loathe giving power back to her after she wakes up for the season. It doesn't feel like Amity's telling the truth or that her words will ever reflect Noriko's reality - though that may be in part because accepting the role as leader means coming to terms with the fact Amity is dead and with her died the most reassuring, present person in her life.

It hurts all the more when Amity expresses her genuine, earnest faith in Noriko and reminds her with a laugh: 'I was a stupid 16-year-old when mom died and all of this was left on my shoulders for the first time, but look, I made it work- 'fact, I'd like to think I did a decent job- so imagine how much better you'll do than me. I was good, but YOU'LL be legendary, I know it,'

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Death from Sandman

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UPDATE: Amity's primary faceclaim has been changed to Death from The Sandman (though specifically Death of the Endless #1-2+)

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Reblogging this again because I'm still making this into a full verse and I think I'm going to focus on it primarily occurring in a non-Pokemon verse and being more open-ended / verseless in setting so she can fit into other settings easily and be open for supernatural interactions across the board!

Do I dare get silly on the main and post the frankly horrifying somewhat-vampire AU for Amity?? DO I DARE

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Amity's favourite drink is a bitter vitamin energy soda called Spell that's endemic to Saijikara and not found or carried in other regions except through specialty Saijikari catering stores

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Late Night with the Devil 2023, dir. Cameron Cairnes, Colin Cairnes

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im aware this is an insane thing to say but i fucking. love characters that are just cockroaches. and i dont mean like. gross i mean they just do not fucking die. they can survive anything. they will outlive EVERYONE because they just will not die no matter what be it because they have a reason or because they literally cannot stop surviving the odds i love it i love it

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ROCKETRETICULE asked for their sideblog, VICIOUSROCKET: mostly for shits and plain cursed kid : amity and Vicious

IF THEY HAD A FAN-KID ! | OOC MEME | ACCEPTING

TLDR. Send me a pairing name, and I’ll tell you what I think their child would be like if they had one!

TEE HEE - I gotta explain a bit first - so, like, the meme here is combining Amity's wasp-satan and Vicious's entire shadow-bound state, and I could've meme'd into it, but I had to make it tragic instead of birthing a new class of demon!

Also, full disclosure: I accidentally posted this early while trying to save the draft earlier, AND I remembered halfway through that this is all supposed to be the past tense cause he dies. So if you notice obvious errors: that's why! I promise I'm trying but this has been a battle against my own brainrot ADSJASDJASD

NAME: Resakk Joy; another name chosen by Amity from Saijikari tradition, though unlike in Kitty's case, Resakk's name didn't so much come from Amity alone as it did grow from a mutual idea.

You see - Vicious and Amity - (working from the backdrop of our discussions for a hypothetical; this is not a shipping thing, just to explain the fan kid scenario asdasd) They're not lovers; they're not family, and they're not exactly friends either. They're strangers with parallel interests - like a deer and an owl that feed from the same field.

Vicious comes down through The Passing (The Joy family-controlled mountain path that connects Sinnoh to Saijikara and is ideal for subtle civilian traffic); he pays his tolls, answers their pointed but short questions and makes pleasant with the matriarch and her family (especially her siblings, who he comes to feel a protective, uncle-like fondness for) before passing on his way. It's simple and empty, for the most part, two strangers having a glimpse into each other's life for half a second before moving on.

Amity doesn't know what he's up to beyond where it applies to her and her land - but, so long as he's not running Pokemon or People directly, she doesn't care. He doesn't care about the inner workings, why the passing is treated so vitally, and why they run their ship so tightly. Outside of their brief interactions and the foundation of their parallel interests, they are nothing to each other and are not shy about it. In fact, the inconsequential nature - it almost enhanced things.

When you're nothing to each other - or at least you TELL yourself that you're nothing to each other, what sort of false civility and tender-non-existent forced dynamic can constrain you? What and who are you trying to fool with false pretenses? Who are you saving? You can call it a bit bitchy and cold, but it's all so simple and easy, hi, goodbye - it's almost like a game - until one of you ends up pregnant, of course, and now you aren't parallel anymore, you're connected.

When Amity found out, she wasn't HAPPY, but it is what it is. She knew the risks, he knew the risks, WE know the risks. And bringing it up to Vicious - the answer about what'll happen next is easy. She'll do what she's always done, and he'll do what he's always done: exist separately. She doesn't expect him to be a dad or step up (and on some level she'd be more comfortable doing it all alone; at least alone, she only has to account for her feelings and prepare for the possible worst) and she says as much to him: but she says this, I'm not going to make you do anything, stay, go away, change your name, I don't care. I'll make it work for me - but if you want to be a part of this and name this child, you tell me now. I won't chase you, and I don't want THIS hanging over my head for the rest of my life.

Vic shrugged - I mean, like, no baby names on the top of his head. All he said was he wanted it to be a strong name - no cutesy, forever baby names, nothing like ABCDE or a boy named Sue. She could have the final say, whatever that may be. At the moment, Vic was washing his hands of things, and naming the child would make him attached. Subconsciously, you have to know that, but it inspired Amity. Not in the way he intended, but it did. She made a pact to herself, and though she never spoke the name, lest the spirits hear it, the boy would be Resakk.

When translated from Saihoken, the name refers to nothing, a lack of existence, an empty void. Again, it reads as harsh. Who could call their child nothing? It seems cruel and unconscionable, but in Saijikari culture, it's anything but!

The Saijikari hold a particular belief system around names and their meanings - you can never name a child after the deceased, never name a boat after a town. Never, I repeat, never give your children sweet, soft, enticing names that would endear a spirit or monster to want to take them (for instance, Amity is a bad name going by traditional naming rules). Enter nothing: to be named nothing in light of this superstition would be equivalent to, I don't know, sealing your child in the equivalent of a salt circle. Nothing is a deception, it's a maze of mirrors, leading the spirits in circles looking for a child that - to the universe and to their gaze, seems not to even exist. It is a name, and it is protection, at least spiritually speaking. It's a silent declaration of parental love beyond the physical world and caution against intangible powers. It would protect him, and ultimately? That's what Amity suspected both her and Vic wanted.

GENDER: Cis Male

GENERAL APPEARANCE: IDK HOW EXACTLY TO EXPLAIN IT, BUT HE LOOKS LIKE HOW EVERYONE TRIES TO PORTRAY THE COMMON JAPANESE DELINQUENT ARCHETYPE BUT SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY, THEY GOT CONFUSED AND MADE A 6'6 TEDDY BEAR OF A GUY THAT JUST LOVES BRIGHT COLORS AND SUCH

credit to DJARN and this picrew here

PERSONALITY: Despite his appearance, Resakk was a sweetheart, a complete and utter sweetheart. Shy, but in the sense that he only liked to speak if spoken to and didn't enjoy being put under any sort of spotlight. He was a listener more than a conversation starter, but he enjoyed listening. Though that's not to say he ever was a follower - god forbid. Do you know those guys who watch people do something stupid and just go and fix it themselves while the others are too busy patting themselves on the back? He's that guy - he won't make a scene, but god, he doesn't suffer fools gladly, and he can't let go when he knows something is fucked up. 'Let them dig their own graves' okay, but he'll feel shitty if he lets them get buried beneath their hubris. You can walk away, but he's grabbing the shovel and digging them out for his own conscious. I will also say that while he's the guy that's commonly regarded as so chill and patient and laid back - he can be vicious under his breath when he's finally been pushed beyond his cool. He tried to keep it to himself, but dear god, you could feel the rage radiating off him in WAVES.

SPECIAL TALENTS: Nothing supernatural this time around; however, this kid is a whizz when it comes to math and has a peculiar ability to do highly complex math mentally. But being this is Resakk, he often chooses to use this ability by helping tutor his classmates and younger cousins in the family. After all, what's the point of a talent if not used? A waste of energy, that's what!

WHO THEY LIKE BETTER: Unfair question!! Because he loves both of his parents equally but in very, very different ways. Resakk grew up with his mom nearby—she was active and present, and well, he's a bit of a mama's boy and loved to help her and show his appreciation for her through the quality time they often spent together and helping her with the many jobs and hats she wore around Kiyose! But like - growing up Vic was almost more like an uncle, it wouldn't feel appropriate for him to want or push for that same closeness he has with Amity. It's not what their dynamic is, but he doesn't NOT love him; it's just different!

WHO THEY TAKE AFTER MORE: HONESTLY? Vicious, but more specifically, with all the positive traits that have been buried by the choices Vic's made and the way events in his life have shaped him. Would Vic be able to step back and definitively go, 'Yeah, my boy's just like his old man?' absolutely not, but it's there, it's evident. It's hard-coded. His patience, despite the brusk nature he tends to have - his kindness with children - his confidence and charm at times - his capacity for learning and thinking quickly, and his desire to love and genuinely BE loved & help/care for the people he cares deeply about? Yeah, that all came from Vic.

PERSONAL HEADCANONS:

(the softer, sweeter ones)

He had a decent-ish relationship with Vicious? It's hard to explain, Vic is closer with his older sisters, the twins, of course. He was visiting them as 'Uncle Vic,' long, long before Amity became pregnant with him, but Resakk couldn't say he felt rejected by him. He's not around often, but Resakk understood why, in his own way - this is just how things have always been! he knew it wasn't HIM, this is how things are. And with all of his uncles, the Coven and his older brother around, Resakk didn't exactly feel like he was starved of a connection with fatherly figures.

Of the Kids born to Rocket members, he may have had best relationship with his dad than any of them.

Still, Vic dropping by to see Resakk every month or so had this vibe to me

Doesn't call Vic dad, but only because his sisters, the twins, have always called Vicious 'Uncle Vic' and Resakk has always defaulted to following his older sisters! (he thinks the world of them and as a young kid thought they hung the moon)

Resakk broke his nose while rough-housing with Vic when he was around six - he and the girls were playing tag in the yard, and Resakk jumped into his arms - Vic lost his balance, and even though he tried to catch both of them, Resakk smacked into a decorative flag-stone. Resakk cried and cried, blood gushing and all the average horrors that come with a broken nose for the first time. But Vic? Vic seemed absolutely TRAUMATIZED. They started running on autopilot, trying to rock him but walking almost like a zombie straight to the first person who could trust passing the kids off to. Resakk was fine - his nose never healed right, but that's how it is sometimes! He was okay, just scared, and the twins, too, were terrified cause they didn't know why Uncle Vic seemed upset or how to help their brother - but given time and lots of comfort later, all were fine. However, the sheer frustration Amity felt at Vic throughout the entire situation could have fueled the city. Yes, his terror was understandable, especially given his trauma of losing his other son - but he had a kindergarten-aged kid and two little girls with him, and he couldn't say 'it'll be okay' to them? Eventually, though, all worked past it, and it became nothing more than a memory.

One of his fondest childhood memories was the time Vic convinced Amity to let him take the girls and Resakk on an adventure in the sidecar (just driving around the countryside together until supper) - it wasn't the most exciting or action-packed but packed in with his sisters, laughing and giggling and able to look up and see their dad so happy? It all lived rent-free in his heart until his final days.

Resakk was given a Pupitar for his 10th birthday from Vic, god only knows where Vic got it, to 'protect him' and Resakk fell. in. love with it - I'm talking 'would save his pocket money to buy him miracle grow' levels of love for that little cocoon

That nasty scar on Resakk's lip? Ironically enough, THAT WAS FROM HIS PUPITAR - they were training, and the Pupitar miscalculated its trajectory. Resakk got a concussion from that event but never held it against the Pokemon! That's still his strange, spiky metal dog!

OKAY I HAVE TO MENTION THE PINK PEACH FUZZ - man, rocked that since he was 16 - it looks so ratty, and it's not that Amity didn't try to teach him, but BY GOD HE'S BEEN COMMITTED TO THAT IMAGE

PESTO THE BABY PENGUIN SIZED, good lord, that boy was HUGE, just like his father—not only did he seemingly dwarf his poor mother left carrying him, but growing up, he was ALWAYS the back of the class pictures and always the one doing heavy lifting, reaching, and cleaning higher than any of his classmates could.

LOOOOOOVES HIS SISTERS. There’s a significant age difference between the three of them, with both of the girls being around 13 when he was born, and one would assume this mean they’d have no interest in a gross baby brother, but you’d be wrong! These girls spent so long as the youngest and only real kids around that they were over the moon when they learned they’d have a brother and didn’t leave Resakk alone for even a moment since he came home from the hospital!

Amity inspired Resakk to get all the piercings he did—not to copy her, though that's fun (and there are pictures of the two of them wearing some matching novelty earrings), but because he just thought they were beautiful. There's no deep struggle of rebelliousness; he just thinks they're pretty!

Actually, no, he felt one sort of way about Vicious: he wishes he'd offer to help Amity more. Does he owe her anything? Absolutely not, but it's just something in his gut that never really settles right. Though unknown to Resakk, Vic does offer, Amity always denies his offers because she's proud. Unlike Vicious, who ASKS, Resakk just comes in, and he does whatever she's struggling with. Amity is struggling with her one arm to pin a braid in place? Yeah, no, Resakk's taking the bobby pin and going, 'Hold still, oma,' She's grabbing the step stool? Nah, Resakk's got it.

Vic could and did wrastle with him, even in the months before his death. The boy may be two inches shorter than him, but the paternal urge to put that boy in a headlock and ruffle his slob-looking, overly long hair is POWERFUL. (As a sidenote, Vic keeps telling him to get it cut; he never did!)

OKAY AND NOW THE SAD BITS

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Vic's appearance and parts of his personality weren't the only things Resakk inherited from his father—no, the Shadow affliction, as it turns out, can be genetically spread, and it was.

Now, unlike Vic, whose Shadow affliction has a sort of consciousness, for Resakk, it was silent, directionless, and, well, cancer-like. No one knew, but it'd metastasized in his heart from the moment he took his first breath. And things were fine and normal for the first few years of his life - then he began getting tired.

They took him to doctors, but nope, he's a growing boy, a BIG growing boy, and it's okay. You're overanalyzing it, Amity. But he got worse and worse slowly in hard-to-trace ways.

It makes the memories all the more frustrating. What was a symptom? What if they had caught it sooner? What if they KNEW sooner?

But Resakk never really... saw himself as sick?

He sort of felt like he was living in another world. As he got older, he knew the others were more worried and desperate about him, but he felt fine, no different in any big way, and he hated making people so worried about him.

By sixteen, and countless visits to utterly useless doctors who hadn't seen anything like he had, it was when it finally began to sink in for all of them that maybe what was happening wasn't treatable. They didn't think he was dying though - it was more of an adjustment.

Then - well, he died - one moment he was there, and the next he was gone, dropped to the ground lifeless partway through a school day

After Resakk died Amity wasn't coping. Not well, at least. And she shocked herself - she had planned to give Resakk the family's traditional burial and have him sealed away with the ancestral ashes, as she did with her older sister, father and grandfather before him. But... Amity didn't - instead, she requested a private autopsy. She wanted... answers. She wanted something to feel like there was a cause and effect, not dumb chance that stole her baby boy from her.

She got her answers—she never talked about it openly, but she did, and after that, something broke between her and Vic that could never be repaired.

OH AND VIC? Yeah, he doesn't NEED Amity to tell him what she learned - he'd suspected it for a long, long time

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EVERYONE A NEW JOY FAMILY MEMBERS DROPPED!!! Amity's family tree grows even more confusing and complex!

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Some baby ghosts in these trying times? Alt version below.

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So Justy from Orre is ABSOLUTELY the same asshole brother of Amity's named Justice, and he gets A LOT more pathetic the more Amity drops truth bombs that recontextualize the pathetic and assholish energy of Justy.

People in Orre trying to go 'well, he's practically a kid, he's in his 20s' to justify him having a bootleg Gym to boost his own ego in a Region that famously has few Pokemon to challenge him in the first place. BUT WRONG!!! Amity is sneering - JUSTY IS IN HIS 30S - don't let him lie to you about his age; he's even more pathetic than previously BELIEVED!

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Thinking about sinking my teeth into somebody right as they start to cum. Feeling their body arch under me as they ride out an orgasm mixed with the feeling of my fangs in their neck?? That sounds like the best mix of pleasure and pain imo

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Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster, on account that a bunch of monsters can turn you into a monster by biting you. Vampires, werewolves, zombies. those are the big ones, there are others