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tw: ed (?)

last night by bf mentioned that i looked a little,,, “flatter” than normal around my stomach and ribs and i almost cried from happiness. i think its working. it has to this time. im going to make this work.

black coffee

water

nicotine

1 day to binge. and secret fasting in the middle. its going to work this time. he wants a girlfriend he can carry around without struggling, and im going to be that girl. 

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please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

I can’t sleep

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Alejandra Oviedo

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And her green eyes remind me of tree leaves,

Not the leaves in autmn that the poets so often romanticize but leaves in the spring and summer. The leaves that are along the branches that keep the heat at bay as you hide beneath them.

And that’s what she is to me, a shadow to rest underneath. A chill spot that the sun seems to have forgotten about while everything else around me is blazing. I don’t not have to think twice about finding rest in her because I already know that she is waiting for me before I arrive.

Her eyes, remind me of the grass that touched my feet when I was young and to impatient for shoes. When I felt free to run around the yard until my lungs forgot what a full tank of oxygen felt like. I would collapse and be surrounded by the green blades that folded gently beneath my weight, as I finally allowed myself to breath again.

Her eyes remind me of times gone by, of moments that she knows nothing of. While also giving me hope for the future, for the moments we could create together. Hope for the things that are still waiting to be seen and discovered by us.

- And lately whenever I find myself laying down I long for her to surround me like the grass used to when I was young. I want to feel my breath coming back to me as I rest within her presence that surrounds mine... Could I just hold her gently.. as if she were a memory that I never wanted to forget?

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by Glasya25

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hepsi geçer, belki geçmez hiçbiri.

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i need to talk to my therapist SO badly lol there isn’t enough glue tape or staples to keep me from falling apart right now