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Bagaimana bisa seorang tua dan muda bersua tanpa makna?

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It's so funny how some people are getting upset about Now and Then being promoted as a "Beatles song" when George didn't want to do it and is no longer here to have a say in it... if anything George not wanting to do it but not getting a say is exactly what makes it a fully authentic Beatles song

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Mas Alam,

kutemukan cinta di setiap detik bersamamu.

kutemukan bahagia di setiap hela napas di sampingmu.

kutemukan warna di setiap kasih sayangmu.

kalau memang kisah kita hanya sampai di sini, aku kirimkan lantunan terima kasih.

kepada hati yang meski kubuat sepi, tapi selalu menanti.

aku sayang sekali sama kamu Mas.

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You & The Suburbs

i travel far

but not far enough

then i found myself

in the outskirt

friends with the dirt

waiting for a truck

to pick me up

and get me home

the dusty air

playing with my hair

for then a black bike

come for a share

and take me around

this little town

looking pretty

oh how lovely

for you and me

and the suburbs

turns out to be

a nice place to see

for you and me

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you took your guitar and you write a song

but you’re no paul mccartney

and i am no linda eastman

that death what kept them apart

and we aint wings

that formed within a breakup

and baby

if the greatest dream is to leave you

i rather not to dream anymore,

if only i’ll be awake next to you

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A Letter to Mas Alam.

I wish one day you'll read this by yourself, even if we're not meant to be together.

I never knew that love could be so loving. I never knew that love could be so sincere. I never knew that I could feel so loved by someone.

I always overthink, can I be loved? Am I worth to be loved?

I didn’t know it will be you that can make me feel so loved, so special as a girl. I never expect it will all come from you.

I have never met a guy like you in my life. There’s plenty of guys that could say they love me, without showing me they really love me. Yet, you show me something I never saw in other guys.

You show me love. You show me patience. You show me kindness.

You teach me a lot of good things for myself. You never hesitate to say sorry. You always believe in me. You always accept me and direct me to be more positive.

You know I always feel afraid, afraid of every single thing in this world.

I never believe in you and I was afraid of you too, even now it still does a bit.

But I don’t know either, why I want to be with you for my whole life.

Despite all the things I love about you, I still can’t bear the fact that we are different. You know how hard it will be for us to fight for this difference.

It’s like I’m praying to a God that I don’t believe.

Do you remember the day that we listen to a song that portray our situation and you just look at me and rubbed my head. I never knew what you were thinking at that time. You know it’s hurting me every time I remember that.

Life is so fair that sometimes I just really want to jump from the highest tower on earth and scream.

I never understand why the universe bring us together.

What I know and what I understand is that I cherish every moment with you.

I don’t know how our relationship be in the future. But for now, I just want to spend my time with you until the universe separate us.

Lastly, I just want to say thank you and I love you.

07/04/2023

You know I mention your name in every of my prayers to my God

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I got to leave you to love me.

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Salahku adalah,

ketika aku mencintai seseorang yang bukan hamba Tuhanku.

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Sedikit Tentangmu

Tentang waktu yang menjebak kita bertemu dan menjadikan kau pintu untuk membuka lembaran baru.

Tentang suara. Yang merasuk dalam jiwaku meski gendang telingaku kurang berfungsi dengan baik.

Tentang sebuah kota di perbatasan Jakarta yang selalu mengerti akan kehadiran kita. Mengusir kawanan awan hujan pergi dan menjaga kita dari segala dingin.

Tentang nada yang kau rangkai satu-persatu menjadi alunan melodi indah yang kau nyanyikan setiap malamnya.

Tentang segelas americano milikmu yang kau sematkan di tengah-tengah perbincangan kita.

Tentang dogmamu yang kau sematkan tanda tanya.

Tentang aku yang secara tidak sadarnya, jatuh hati kepadamu.

Alam.

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Sometimes i wish i was the sky. Stood up all day, stood up all night. Watching only the fireflies. Cheering over the sweethearts.

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If I fall in love with you again, would you love me the way it used to be?

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Titik Tanya di Dahi

Titik tanya di dahi

Mengkerut lemas di sela pori-pori

Terlelap merdu

Pada melodi indah alunan lagumu

Yang tak henti-henti

Bernyanyi mengikuti suara sumbang

Napasmu yang mengambang

Dalam dada dan amigdala

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3

Time passing by so quickly

Remember the way you look at me

Still remain the same

Just like a growing tree

Root inside the ground

And slowly start to sprout

Even if the ground was often dry

And everybody wanting it to die

Keep trying hard to last

To splash each other’s grass

You know it is our tree

No need no anniversary

Only wants the world to see

That our tree will always be

A place for all the honeybee

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Kamu tahu, bahwa pada dasarnya perasaanmu ini terlalu semu dan separuh diriku terposesi waktu sebulan lalu.

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I feel numb, but even in the numbest time, my heart still feels you.

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“If I love you, I just can’t stay mad at you for too long. Please don’t take advantage of that because I’ve often had to let go of people I thought I’d never have to leave.”

— r.h. Sin 

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You will never be replaced, even if the stars fade away and my wrinkles chose to stay.